The Fate of Farringale: Epilogue

I sat in a chair in Milady’s tower. A chair, an actual real chair; House almost never provided those, not when one was young and fit (sort of) and perfectly capable of supporting oneself on one’s own two legs.

Which I wasn’t, entirely. Magickally speaking, I’d been scrambled like a jug of eggs, and the body objects to that sort of thing.

A week had drifted by since Farringale, and I’d experienced very little of it. I’d spent an unconscionable amount of time tucked up in bed, with a stuffed unicorn under my arm and a stack of cosy romance novels at my elbow.  I hadn’t spent an entire week at rest since I’d left university.

In that, as Jay so objectionably points out, I’m not so unlike my mother after all.

‘Welcome back, Ves,’ Milady had said, very kindly, when I’d taken my place in the hot seat.

She sounded okay. ‘Thanks?’ I said, my voice breaking a bit. I was nervous.

There was no sign of Mab, of course. Her ladyship consisted, once again, of a glitter in the air and a voice that came from everywhere at once. To hear her talk, you’d think her identity remained the darkest of secrets, known to none but the privileged few (emphatically not including me).

It was a pretence I could go along with.

‘Are you… well?’ said Milady, with a most unfamiliar note of uncertainty in her smooth, measured tones.

‘Mostly?’ I said, a question more than a statement.

‘You performed an astonishing feat of magick,’ said Milady, rather generously. ‘I wouldn’t be surprised to learn that you are suffering some lingering effects.’

Lingering effects. Typical Milady understatement. I hadn’t been able to walk for three days. I still needed help to make it to the bathroom and back without folding like an ironing board. I kept crying for no reason whatsoever, and I’d flatly refused to be parted from my unicorn cuddly toy. It sat, even now, under my left arm, a soft, fluffy note of comfort in a world I couldn’t process anymore.

‘I—’ I began, and had to pause, take a shuddering breath. ‘I’m—dissatisfied with my performance.’ I managed to get all the syllables out before I dissolved into tears again.

‘And why is that?’ said Milady, still calm. Not the blaze of recrimination that I’d expected, but I was beyond the reach of reassurance at that point.

‘I—I—lost the magick of Merlin,’ I sobbed. ‘All of it. It’s still there in Farringale, down in the earth, and I don’t know how to—get it—back—’

Words failed me after that. Ophelia had been kind about it, on the whole, when I’d told her, but there had been in her face a look of such shock, such utter devastation…honestly, in future I’d rather have to admit to someone that I’d run over their beloved puppy. Or husband.

Milady waited in polite silence while I snivelled, mopped at my nose with a tissue, and—with a few inelegant, gulping breaths—contrived to pull myself together.

Then she said: ‘Ves. Why do you think Merlin’s magick still exists?’

I groped, frantically, for a vaguely intelligent answer, and came up with nothing. ‘I don’t know?’

The air sparkled: amusement, perhaps? ‘It is not merely for longevity’s sake. Those who commit their arts to the care of others—to the future—do so out of love. For magick, and all that magick can do. So. What did you do with this magick that was once Merlin’s?

‘You saved a kingdom. And not just any kingdom: one of the foremast magickal Enclaves in the country. Farringale will thrive, and it’s down, in large part, to you.

‘And it’s more than just that. You’ve proved that it can be done. In future, many more Farringales and Silvessens will be revived, and thrive. The decline of magick is over, Ves. That is the gift you’ve given to Britain—to the world—and I hope you will take pride in it, in time.’

I was crying too hard to reply. Honestly, it’s embarrassing. I haven’t cried half this much since I was six years old. Saving magickal kingdoms reverts a person to childhood, apparently. ‘Great?’ I managed, choking on a fresh wave of tears.

‘Their Majesties of Mandridore couldn’t be more thrilled,’ Milady offered, like a slightly perplexed adult hoping to bribe a sobbing child with a treat. ‘And your esteemed mother—well. Let’s just say that her unique talents are being put to excellent use.’

I could well imagine. Farringale as a hive of industry, speedily being put back together by my mother’s relentless energy and will. Hordes of talented people pulled in from kingdoms and enclaves across the country, united in their desire to drag the ancient troll capital out of the dustbin of history and into the glittering present.

Their Excellent Majesties, King Naldran and Queen Ysurra, had thus far expressed their appreciation for my efforts by way of gigantic bouquets of flowers displayed in every room I was likely to appear in (no fewer than six presently adorned my boudoir). I had received a personal letter of thanks, signed by both, and a vague but firm promise of nameless rewards to be bestowed in the future—I needed only ask.

And I appreciated it all, honestly. But whenever I thought about it, I couldn’t help but see Ophelia’s face, white with shock; her fumbling, devastated attempts to be nice about my casual sacrifice of the oldest magick in England.

Not that I had meant to. I hadn’t known what I was doing—which was typical of me, wasn’t it? Half-crazy Ves, winging it every step of the way. Well, once in a while the results were more devastating than I could ever imagine.

And—more marvellous.

‘Ves,’ said Milady, sensitive, as always, to some intangible sign of my turmoil. ‘I knew Merlin. And I think—I know—he would be proud of what you’ve done.’

I sucked in a shuddering breath, too appalled—and star-struck—to speak, at least for a moment. ‘Are you sure?’ I finally sobbed.

‘Entirely. It’s what he would have wanted.’

I was going to have a considerable cry about that, it seemed, and mercy was I tired of crying. I hoped my shattered nerves would think about recovering themselves pretty soon, or I’d—well, I don’t know. Check myself into a peaceful spa resort for the rest of my natural life, probably.

‘You made a nice tree,’ I said abruptly, apropos of nothing. ‘Fenella, I mean. Lovely.’

A pause; then Milady said, ‘You are wondering why I didn’t do that sooner.’

‘A bit.’

She took a while to reply. At length she said: ‘It is a question of…hope. That even the most…challenging of us might change, might grow. That I won’t have to forcibly deprive the Fenellas of this world of action and agency, because they can be trusted to manage themselves.’

I thought about that. Fenella wasn’t the only person I’d encountered who’d failed, again and again, to “manage themselves”, as Milady put it. ‘Do you regret it?’ I asked, rather daringly.

‘No,’ said Milady, but she hesitated as she said it, almost imperceptibly.

‘I don’t either,’ I agreed, with approximately as much certainty.

‘Get some rest, Ves,’ said Milady, after I’d palpably failed to summon words for a minute or two together. ‘There’s chocolate in the pot.’

***

There was, too. In fact there were three silver pots waiting upon the various desks and tables of my room, each ornately engraved and gently puffing steam. Pup lay curled up on my bed, blissfully asleep, and squeakily snoring.

Jay had awaited me outside the door to Milady’s tower-top room, and escorted me back down again once I’d been gently dismissed. He lent me his nice, strong arm, fussed over me flatteringly when I stumbled a bit on the steps, and thanked House very prettily when we found ourselves transported from the bottom of the stairs straight into my room without further difficulty.

Addie had made her personal displeasure with me very blatant indeed. I’d had to recruit Jay, Zareen and Indira to assist me with the steady delivery of freshly-fried chips for her personal delectation, otherwise I’m certain she would never forgive me for almost obliterating myself. It had taken thirty-three portions to date, and we were still trying.

The grove had been still less welcoming. Oh, not that it had rejected me, or anything so impolite. But I could wander about in it on two legs, now; nothing, it seemed, could restore me to my former status as a member of the herd.

Jay gently assisted me back into bed, and tucked my stuffed unicorn toy back under my arm. He was so very obliging as to plant a firm kiss on my forehead, too. He looked deep into my eyes, and said, with conviction, ‘You are wonderful, and everything is going to be all right.’

I captured one of his hands, and laced his fingers through mine. ‘Have you…’ I began.

He waited, and finally prompted, ‘Yes?’

‘Have you happened to run into Ornelle, lately?’

‘No. But I could.’

I dithered on the borders of confession, and finally broke. ‘I can’t change my hair.’

He glanced, briefly, at the mess of the hair in question, hastily combed with my fingers an hour before, and unchanged in hue since before Farringale. ‘That’s unacceptable,’ he said.

‘I was hoping—I could get my Curiosity back. The ring?’

‘I’ll get it back,’ he promised. ‘We can’t have you confined to a single colour for the rest of your days.’

I wrinkled my nose expressively. ‘Or obliged to—dye it. Do you know how revolting that stuff smells?’

‘I do, yes.’

I raised my brows.

‘Sisters,’ he explained.

I wondered which of Jay’s several sisters had undergone an experimental phase with her hair. Not Indira, anyway. ‘You’re the best,’ I declared sleepily.

Jay stroked my hair. ‘I know.’

Tears threatened again, but I was done with resenting them. I’d survived; I was alive, free to drown in the mess of my own emotions if I wanted to. For a while.

And we’d accomplished something nigh on impossible. We’d saved Farringale. Saved magick, rich and old and strange; the future, as far as I could see it, shone.

I opened my arms to Jay, a wordless request—and offer. A plea and a gift: affection, love, proffered and requested. Whatever the future might bring, I couldn’t imagine it without Jay beside me.

He didn’t hesitate. In another moment he was in my arms, the two of us as close as love could bring us. ‘What do you think we should do next?’ I murmured against his hair.

He smiled; I could feel the joy surge in him. ‘I don’t know,’ he murmured, ‘but it had better be something dazzling. I’ve developed high standards.’

I thought that over. ‘All right,’ I agreed. ‘Ply me with sufficient hot chocolate, and I can probably muster something at least a little bit dazzling.’

He did; and I did.

But that’s a story for another time.

The Fate of Farringale: 18

‘It’s done,’ I said a little later. ‘I think. So I suppose you can go home again.’

Mum rolled her eyes in wordless contempt.

‘Not that it wasn’t amazing of you to come,’ I hastened to add. ‘Super appreciated.’

‘Farringale has been dead for centuries,’ she informed me. ‘And I don’t mean metaphorically dead. I mean actually dead. If you think it’s going to be easy to drag it into the modern world then you have bats for brains. They are going to need us.’

We were still in the library, though we’d ascended out of the cellar. We found a crowd gathered there, apparently not waiting for us: our appearance came as a surprise.

A welcome one, to Indira and Rob and Zareen. I was hugged again, quite a lot—even by Indira. ‘I found Mab,’ she said to Jay, who had not left my side. ‘She was—busy.’

‘Busy.’ Jay’s brows went up, though he spoke distractedly. I believe he was preoccupied with making sure I didn’t fall over, which was no easy task. My legs felt about as sturdy as lightly blanched asparagus.

‘There’s, um. A new tree.’ She waved a hand vaguely. ‘Where the griffins were.’

‘A new tree? Freshly minted?’ said Jay. ‘Out of what?’

‘Mab’s turned into a tree,’ I surmised, less surprised by this than I might have been a week ago. I’d rather liked being a tree, myself.

But Indira shook her head. ‘Turned someone else into a tree. Take a guess.’ She was grinning, standing there with a smile of pure mischief on her youthful face and stone dust all over her hair: a vision less like cool, reserved Indira I had never seen.

‘It’s Fenella,’ said Zareen, before I could make any sense out of my sluggish thoughts. ‘Rob took the regulator off her, which didn’t make her happy. Then she lost the griffins, too. She came back with murder on her mind, but Mab got to her. Just said “no”, like that, and “I’m afraid I have run out of patience,” and turned her into a tree. She’s a willow. Quite pretty, actually.’

‘A weeping willow,’ Jay mused. ‘Appropriate.’

‘Miranda came through, then?’ I asked. ‘With the griffins, I mean.’

‘Probably,’ said Zareen. ‘Somebody did, anyway. Rob and Melissa and that lot intercepted them. They’re coming back in now.’

‘I also, um,’ said Jay, awkwardly. ‘Stuck a tracker on Miranda’s back when she went past me. Seems she didn’t notice.’

I beamed blissfully at the wonderful man that he was. ‘You’re a wonderful man,’ I informed him, and yawned.

‘Someone get her Home,’ Zareen suggested. ‘You need a week of sleep at least, Ves. You look bloody awful.’

‘Thanks,’ I said, still beaming.

‘We’re okay to go, soon,’ Indira offered. ‘Just waiting to make sure the griffins are safe.’

‘Well,’ Jay interposed. ‘That’s what we’re doing. Your Mum’s reorganising half the world, by the sounds of it.’

I could hear her, distantly, barking orders in the crisp tone of a woman who expects to be obeyed, instantly and without question. And she was. Her Yllanfalen contingent were marching out of the library again in twos and threes, dispatched on various missions of rehabilitation.

Their Majesties would probably be pleased, on the whole. There was no one like Mum for getting things done. This time next week, she’d have it spick and span and well on the way to habitable.

‘Mum,’ I said, and repeated it a bit louder when she clearly didn’t hear me.

She appeared at my side. ‘Ves.’

I blinked at her, momentarily stupefied. ‘You called me Ves.’

By way of answer I received a blank stare. ‘And?’

‘You’ve never done that before.’

‘Did you want to say something? Because I have a lot to do—’

‘Right. Um. Surely it’s a bit late to be—you know?’ I made a hand-wavey gesture, meant to encompass the entirety of everything she and her entourage were doing.

‘Yes,’ she snapped. ‘It’s a bit late. It’s four hundred years late, to be precise, and if we want to get this kingdom rolling again there’s no time to lose.’

‘Right,’ I said meekly. ‘Carry on.’

I mentally resigned the whole problem of my mother to Mandridore. They’d asked for aid, and they had got it.

Mum stalked off, evidently forgetting my entire existence again between one purposeful stride and the next.

Jay’s hand stole into mine, a warm, strong clasp that conveyed far more than words. Faith and love. Comfort. Stability. I carried his hand to my lips and kissed it. ‘You know,’ I said mistily, ‘I really would like to go Home.’

The Fate of Farringale: 16

It was a close-run thing. As we drew nearer, I could see the way Indira wobbled as she sat, the currents of wind knocking her about like a stray leaf.

No time to think. We swooped, Addie’s broad wings battling a gust of wind as she banked and turned. Jay leaned—grabbed—he had her; and away we went, spiralling downwards. Strong as she was, Addie couldn’t carry three of us for more than a few minutes; we had to get her hooves on the ground, and quickly.

‘Thanks,’ gasped Indira, breathless.

‘What the hell—’ said Jay, breaking off abruptly as Addie thudded into a heavy landing. We’d come down in a street I didn’t recognise, almost too narrow for Addie’s wingspan. Tall, stone-built houses rose on either side, as empty and dead as the rest of Farringale, their small, square gardens riotously overgrown.

‘Surge,’ Indira said to her brother as she slipped lightly down. ‘Boosted me higher than I meant to go, and then the wind caught me.’ She made a whoosh gesture with one hand, most illustrative.

Jay made no reply, it being a bit late for such niceties as “you should be more careful.”

‘We were looking for you,’ I said, choosing not to get down from Addie’s back just yet. The surge roiled on, stirring all the magick in me into a dizzying whirlpool, and I was beginning to feel nauseated.

But that was a good thing; it meant we weren’t too late.

‘I was looking for you, too,’ Indira answered, and produced, from one of her air-pockets, two regulators.

No. I took a second look: three lay nestled in her palm, winking starry silver in the sunlight.

‘Rob got the one from the griffins!’ I guessed.

Indira nodded. ‘Couldn’t find you, but he found me.’

I handed mine to her, completing the quartet. Four of them. Would it be enough?

It would have to be. And to echo Jay: what we couldn’t accomplish with four, we probably couldn’t accomplish with five either.

‘Right,’ I said. ‘It’s time.’ I tasted bile as I spoke, the product of raw fear. I wasn’t ready. I’d never be ready. But if I couldn’t make this happen, who else could? Fenella? Improbable, and undesirable besides. Mandridore couldn’t be left beholden to such a person as that.

Jay slid down off Addie’s back, joining his sister on the ground. But he stayed close, and looked up at me with perfect confidence as he said: ‘Where to?’

‘The library.’ Back to where it all began; where I’d first encountered Baroness Tremayne. Where we’d found Bill, and consequently gained Mauf. The trail had begun there: those first clues leading us from Farringale to Mandridore and all the way to another Britain entirely. It was fitting that our journey would end there, too.

Jay set off unerringly, leading us in a slow procession up the near-silent street. We were silent, too, sober with the weight of responsibility, dry-mouthed with fear, light-headed with magick. When I tried to speak—some nonsense or other to break the deathly quiet—my words emerged half-strangled, a mere wordless croak.

Jay looked back at me. ‘Are you okay?’

We were a bit beyond polite lies, so I went for the truth. ‘Nope.’

He nodded. ‘We can do this,’ he said, and his voice rang with all the conviction I’d forgotten how to feel.

I smiled back, a little. ‘Let’s hope so.’

***

If the streets above had seemed quiet, the cellars beneath the library were like a tomb.

I didn’t have to walk through walls, this time—or be dragged, like a sack of potatoes. Jay found a winding way through the bare-walled chambers—stripped, now, of their precious books—along a narrow passage, and down a cramped, spiralling staircase, and we stepped out into a cool, stone-walled subterranean chamber, empty apart from the three of us, and shrouded in an unearthly silence.

I’d had to leave Addie outside, and was already suffering from the separation. But those walls were sturdy and solid, the stone very cold under my hands as I steadied myself against them.

We needed no light. A pallid, sickly glow emanated from the floor, thrown off by a writhing mass of tiny, hungry parasites. I shuddered at the sight of them, a chill of pure horror rippling down my spine. I knew they wouldn’t hurt me—they were devourers of magick and, by preference, trolls. They had no interest in a Cordelia.

Still, to set my feet into that mess of wriggling bodies took more nerve than I thought I possessed. I descended from the stairs very carefully, and paused.

Indira, behind me, made a sound of disgust, and her footsteps stopped on the steps.

‘Stay there,’ I suggested. ‘If you can deploy the regulators from up there, then there’s no need to come any farther down.’

Indira accepted this suggestion with obvious gratitude. Jay, though, visibly steeled himself, and waded into the echoing chamber to stand beside me. He waited, steady and calm, solid as the stone walls of the cellar itself.

The surge was dissipating at last, its tide of magick spent. The right moment neared; not yet, but soon. I set my lyre down on the bottom step of the stairs, near my feet. It glimmered with a pale light of its own, but a cleaner, comforting glow, and I breathed more easily for it.

‘Indira,’ I said. ‘When it’s not surging, Farringale’s latent magick runs rather low. Probably because it’s been empty for centuries. When it hits its lowest ebb… we need to use that momentum. Keep it going.’

‘Going—where?’ asked Indira.

‘I don’t know. Ebbing. Dissipating. I want it as dead as Silvessen in here.’

‘You want to strip all the magick out of all of Farringale.’ Indira spoke in tones of disbelief.

‘As close to it as we can get, yes. It’s the wild magick that’s been sustaining these things. I can’t remove them as long as they’re still feeding off it.’

‘Can you remove them anyway?’ Jay asked. ‘All of them?’

He meant how; by what possible method did I propose to obliterate a city-wide infestation of parasites? I didn’t have a clear answer, for him or for me.

‘Yes,’ I told him anyway. One problem at a time. First, the magick; then, the ortherex.

Indira said nothing more, but set about deploying the first of the regulators. I hoped her silence indicated confidence.

A tremor ran through the walls and the floor underfoot; a soft buzz of magick taking effect. Metal scraped over stone, cracking and grinding, and ceased with a jolt. ‘One down,’ said Indira.

The air split, shattered, and spat out a tall, bulky figure: too much of both to be the baroness. A male troll, simply dressed in a swallow-tailed coat and pantaloons, his hair bone-white with age. He said nothing, but his presence was imposing enough; Jay was instantly alert.

‘Wait,’ I asked him, holding up a hand. The gentleman had offered us neither violence nor threat, and a stray memory teased at me…had not Baroness Tremayne spoken of others like herself, a year ago? The long-forgotten guardians of Farringale, lingering like ghosts in the walls, had numbered three.

I bowed to the newcomer, for he bore an air of nobility about him. ‘Have you come to help us?’ I asked hopefully.

He regarded me levelly. ‘Can you in truth rid us of these creatures?’

I wished people would stop asking me that. The word “no” kept trying to pop out in response. ‘We are going to try our best to do so,’ I managed to say instead.

Another grinding, crunching, teeth-aching sound, and the walls shuddered: the second regulator.

‘I will watch over you,’ said the guardian. ‘Foes abound.’

They did indeed. I was going to thank him, but before I could speak I was wrenched out of the world, soul and body together. The room splintered around me, dissolved into the strange, juddering, shadowy alternate reality that I was beginning to despise. We were between the echoes again, one half-step to the left of the flow of time.

‘That’s one way of watching over us,’ said Jay with a grimace.

I watched Indira, poised to assist, for I didn’t think she had experienced this particular strangeness before. But she was absorbed in her task, oblivious—or at least, unflappable. A third regulator took effect: one to go.

And the environment was stabilising by the minute, the surge rushing away like the outgoing tide. The regulators were humming, a melodic fizzing in my ears, my bones. ‘Jay,’ said Indira, his name a summons, a plea, and he went to her.

I left them to it, for they didn’t need me for this. I picked up my lyre, and cradled it with momentary tenderness. I think I knew, somewhere in me, what was to come…

‘Ves,’ said Indira, softly. ‘They’re in.’

‘Good.’

‘But—I don’t know if you understand. Magick can’t just dissipate. It has to go somewhere. There’s only so much the regulators can do—’

‘I know,’ I said. ‘It’s okay.’ I was already turning my mind away from the regulators, from the clever and capable Patels; from the library cellar, writhing with infestation, and from the silent guardian who attended our efforts to save it. I spread my awareness like a net, out through the silent ruin of the library, and down, down, deep into the rock beneath. My fingers plucked a plaintive air from the strings of the argentine lyre, each rich note reverberating through the air, through the floor, through me.

It was worse than stepping into the midst of the ortherex—worse than wading barefoot through the mess and the mass of them. As I opened my mind to the land around me, feeling the cold earthiness of rock and dirt, the clear dampness of groundwater, the bright, surprising freshness of roots winding down from above, I felt the ortherex, too: felt them like a cloak of ants crawling over every inch of my skin. They bit at me, raged at me, a million motes of wrongness and disease.

I shuddered, shaking with the effort to curb my revulsion, to hold my mind down there in that terrible space. There was too much magick, still, swirling in airy currents, like gusts of wind: I could feel it with a startling clarity, the Merlin in me recognising it, welcoming it. The magick was ancient, here; almost as ancient as Merlin himself. It called…

No. This magick was not for me; I was not for it. I was here not to lend it my strength, call it back to all its former potency, but to do the opposite: to dampen it, shutter it, drain it away. Every natural impulse in me rebelled at the idea, and rebelled again: the magick belonged here, deep in the bones of the land, and it was my task—Merlin’s task—to protect it. To help it grow.

‘I will,’ I promised it, distantly. ‘Later.’

I bore down with a will, encouraged by the pulse of the regulators around me, my lyre joining with their delicate hum, carolling a dulcet lullaby. If it could not be removed, then perhaps it could be lulled; sink itself down into the bowels of the earth, far below the beleaguered city that was Farringale.

Go, I bade it, and added, pitifully, please.

It reacted instead with a surge, a flourishing. It drew me deeper into its flow, made of me a link in its web, a thread in its tapestry of power. More gathered around me, faster and faster; I became a brightening core, a burgeoning nexus of wild magick.

Giddy gods. This was like the lyre, but worse. The magick in me—Merlin’s magick—attracted that of Farringale; like spoke to like; I was making it stronger.

A tactical error, I thought with distant hysteria. I’d been wrong. I wasn’t the best person for this task, I was the worst; what I had thought to be an advantage proved to be the opposite.

And I was stuck down deep, melded with the sleeping earth below Farringale as magick sank into the very essence of me, and shone.

This was what it was like to be a griffin. Perhaps that had been an error, too; deprived of its foci, the magick of Farringale had not disappeared, but rather altered in shape, in sense, in current; had seized me, their substitute, and would not let me go.

I couldn’t fight it. I was strong, but my strength was no asset here: together, we were stronger still, in all the wrong ways.

Well. So.

An alternative idea drifted through my labouring thoughts, and at first I rejected it, utterly and completely. Every cell in me revolted at the notion, strained as I already was. The regulators were beginning to affect me, too, merged as I was with magick: they pulled at me, dragged at me, smothered the spark of my life in thick, grey dullness.

I didn’t have much time. I couldn’t say what would become of me, under all these competing forces, but I felt frayed like an old blanket, coming apart at the seams. There wouldn’t be much of me left, soon.

I searched my sluggish mind for another idea, any idea at all, and found nothing. There wasn’t another option.

Focus, Ves. I could bear it—probably. Hopefully.

In the space of a single breath, I stopped resisting the influx of magick, stopped pushing against it, stopped warding myself against the inexorable onslaught. If it wanted me, very well: let it have me. All of it.

I opened myself to it entirely, without barrier, and it came to my call: a vast, onrushing flood of it, drowning me in power—in possibility—in life. I had drowned like this once before, in Vale, when I’d first taken up the lyre; but this, this, was as the ocean to a lake: unimaginably immense, and far beyond my capacity to contain.

Were it not for the regulators, and the griffins’ absence—had I attempted it with the surge at its highest—it would undoubtedly have destroyed me.

As it was, I held it—barely, and briefly; I needed only to focus my attention, frame my intent, fix everything I had upon that other devouring sea, the ortherex.

Power arced about me in a haze of lightning, lethal starfire exploding from the very core of me, setting me alight; I screamed, and screamed again, but it wasn’t agony, not quite—

As all the magick of Farringale spiralled and built and blazed around me, I gathered one last surge of will: let it blaze, then, let it burn.

Magick tore through me, and I shattered; into a thousand motes, into a million. A current ripped through Farringale, stronger, far stronger, than even the most potent of its surges: stones thundered and crumbled around me.

And with every pulsing wave that shuddered through the ground, ten thousand ortherex flared with starfire, and winked out.

The Fate of Farringale: 12

‘I don’t think you’ll like what I’m going to do with it,’ I felt obliged to add, as Jay’s face broke into a smile of relief.

The smile vanished. ‘All right, break it to me gently.’

‘No time.’ The sight of so many of Fenella’s people guarding the bridge had rattled me. What were they doing in there, that required so heavy a defence? The Society would be arriving any time now—they’d got royal permission to use the old troll roads; they’d be practically flying along—and they needed to be able to get straight in. I didn’t have time to negotiate with Jay.

By the time those two terse words left my lips, I was already at work. The gate was entirely defunct—no surprise there. I couldn’t tell what had functioned as the portal, long ago; probably a boulder or some other, like object, those were popular choices. Doubtless it had been cleared away when Farringale was sealed up. Nothing remained, then, for me to reawaken, and I had neither the time nor the knowledge necessary to create a fresh new gate here.

But we had encountered a similar problem recently, and I’d solved it. Inadvertently, yes, by way of an involuntary burst of magick I did not immediately know how to replicate. But if I’d done it once I could do it again.

I did as I had then, and sat down, putting the greater part of myself in direct contact with the ancient earth and its faded memory of magick. Not so difficult, really, to imagine myself a part of it; to lose myself in the peaceful sway of verdure, the soft and sharp smells of loam and sap; to join the dulcet notes of my lyre and my magick to those lacing the landscape around me. I heard, and felt, Jay shift beside me: an attempt to stop me, hastily suppressed. He would guess what I proposed to do, wouldn’t like it; would nonetheless accept, as I had, that the need was great and options few. I felt a stab of compunction as he settled again, and I turned my attention from him: how often had I cast him into torments of worry on my behalf? How often had I outraged his sense of caution, worn out his patience, ignored his fears—I’m sorry, Jay, I thought distantly, but I couldn’t say so, couldn’t even think about it right then, for I was shifting—bleeding into the landscape bit by bit—soon I was scarcely Ves any longer, naught left of me but a stray wisp of awareness, like a dream fraying away upon the wind.

***

It happened fast. Too fast. One minute she was Ves, seated at my feet, smiling apologetically at me with that damned lyre in her lap and magick wreathing round her like moths to a flame—and then she was gone, and there sat a Ves-sized rock, a craggy old boulder that looked for all the world as though it had been there since the dawn of time.

No ordinary boulder, of course. This one had motes of a purplish crystal laced through it, with flecks of silver—and, incidentally to its appearance, a profound magick about it, as old as Farringale itself (apparently) and very much functional.

‘A Fairy Stone,’ I sighed, and felt a stab of pain lance through my temples: a migraine on the approach. Perfect.

‘Okay,’ I said, and laid a hand against the cool, rough stone where Ves’s head had so recently been. ‘It’s okay. I’ll get you out of this—later.’

The incident with the chair, not to mention the tree, had proved all too clearly that the risks of Ves’s latest methods remained considerable. She could get herself into these messes; she needed me—us—to get her out of them again.

Later. She’d done this for good reason, and the next part was my task.

I called the number Milady—Mab—had recently given me, for just this purpose. She answered in seconds. ‘Jay?’

‘We’ve got a way in,’ I said without preamble. ‘She’s done it. I’m sending you co-ordinates.’

‘Thank you.’ Brief words, but a world of relief lay behind them.

‘Hurry,’ I said. ‘And avoid the main gate. It’s heavily guarded. Don’t let them see you.’

Nothing to do, then, but wait: and worry. About the progress of Ancestria Magicka’s plans, inside Farringale where they were, for the moment, unopposed. About my colleagues at the Society, about to face a unique challenge we may or may not be truly prepared for.

Most of all, about Ves, inert at my feet, so bound up in her myriad magicks that she might not, this time, ever get out of them again.

Not the most tranquil hour of my life.

Time moved agonisingly slowly, but Milady, thankfully, didn’t. I heard sounds of approach, and tensed, alert, heart pounding—ready to defend Ves and Farringale both to the limits of my ability—but it was Rob, striding over the heath towards me looking grim as death, and around him some twelve or fifteen of our colleagues. He’d trained every one of them, I knew: they were the best of us at the direct arts. By any other name, fighting. The advance force. Of course they’d be going in first.

Rob nodded at me, and looked around, nonplussed. Expecting to see either Ves or something that obviously looked like a gate, if not both.

I indicated the Fairy Stone, and Rob stared at it, frowning. ‘Ves hasn’t gone in alone, has she? She’s extremely competent but it’s far too dangerous—’

‘That’s Ves,’ I said. ‘She’s the gate.’

Rob was silent a moment, and then said: ‘You seem to be taking it well.’

‘It does seem that way, doesn’t it?’ I answered tightly.

He gave me another terse nod, this one tinged with sympathy. ‘We’ll be quick.’

And then he was gone, one hand planted firmly atop the stone-that-was-Ves, once. Magick surged as the members of his unit went in after him, one after another in a steady stream. By the time they were through, another group were arriving, and streaming into Farringale; faces blurred together as they went by me, too many to note, and I wondered whether it hurt Ves, whether she was even aware. She was strong, but she’d only done this sort of thing for a few of us before; now for fifty, seventy, a hundred…

Milady was among the last to arrive. Rob was her general, leading the charge: she was the shepherd, keeping everyone together, watching the rear.

She had Miranda with her, which was interesting. Miranda looked pale, tense and resolute. I wondered whether Milady kept her close out of trust, or its opposite, and perhaps she was wondering the same thing.

‘Thank you,’ Milady said again, to me, just before she went through. ‘Dear Ves. I hope she has not overreached herself.’

So strange, still, to look Milady in the face—and such a face; not young, not old, not human—more distinct by its lack, of anything I could call familiar.

Queen Mab indeed; I could have cast myself at her feet, and gladly. ‘She has,’ I answered. ‘She always does. I hope you won’t need the gate again, because I’m getting her out of there.’

Milady nodded. ‘Follow when you can,’ she said. ‘I’ll have need of you both.’

A grace period for Ves, then, albeit a small one. Good. Had I been ordered to haul her straight into the fray, I wouldn’t have been obeying it.

Milady awaited no response. In an instant she was gone, Miranda with her, leaving me alone with the inert lump of stone that was my maddening, alarming, adored and magnificent Ves.

I crouched down by her, set a careful hand to her lichen-covered surface, and spoke low and soothingly. She would be suffering, right about now. ‘I’m going through. And then we’re done. Okay? Just a couple more minutes and we’ll get you out of there.’

No response, of course: I wasn’t expecting any, though a faint hope withered and died. One last surge of magick, and magick took me, whirled me away: I entered Farringale Dell.

I looked around, oblivious to the landscape, to the knots of Society agents still in the process of disbursing. My only thought was for Ves: specifically, the appalling and impossible absence of her.

The Fairy Stone was not here.

How was that possible? Surely it could only function as a gate because it spanned the gap between the outer world, and the Dell: like a door, or a bridge. It had to be here—she had to be here—but it wasn’t. She wasn’t.

And because the stone wasn’t there—the gate wasn’t there—I couldn’t go back through and find her, either.

She was stuck, lost, and I’d lost her.

***

It occurred to me, distantly and belatedly, that we really ought to have warned Baroness Tremayne before we returned in force.

Not that the thought caused me much alarm. It’s difficult to feel distress, as a rock. There’s a stolid placidity to stone that one cannot help but absorb, even when one is only mostly a rock.

I had forgotten her altogether—Jay, too—everything, really, beyond the perimeter of my own boulder. A peaceful interlude, altogether. But a voice intruded upon my dreaming serenity, an insistent voice that vibrated through the core of me, demanding attention.

Cordelia Vesper, it said, over and over again, and I remembered that was my name.

Yes? I answered, cautiously.

Is that you?

Was I Cordelia? Distantly, I thought so. Ves, I answered. I’m Ves. I think.

Palpable relief; the voice made some wordless sound, a swiftly expelled breath. A sigh. Thank goodness. I had thought—there are so many of you.

I focused, gradually, and remembered. Many of us. Yes. Milady, and the Society, in force. It’s all right. Those are Mab’s troops. They’re here to help.

I should have said “we”, I suppose, for I, too, was there to be useful. Hopefully. But stone feels no sense of either agency or urgency, and mine were all gone somewhere. I drowsed in a lake of my own magick, lulled and sun-warmed; in seconds, I’d forgotten the baroness again.

Cordelia Vesper, came the voice again, with the insistent note of one who has repeated the same phrase several times, and failed to win a response.

I gave myself a strong mental shake. Yes! Sorry. I’m Ves.

We have established that.

Right.

Think you to remain a Fairy Stone all your days?

I thought about that, a bit. Not so terrible a prospect, honestly: quite peaceful. No? I ventured.

Your duty is fulfilled, methinks. None now linger about you, save one, at a remove.

One lingered. One! Jay must be the one.

At a remove? What does that mean?

She did not answer me, precisely, only said: Is it your wish to follow in Mab’s train?

Yes, I said, thinking of Jay more than Mab. I hesitated, struck at last by my predicament: I was a Fairy Stone, and my body seemed to think it had always been a Fairy Stone.

The same problem I’d encountered at Silvessen, not to mention the chair incident. And the tree. How easily my body and mind resigned their customary state, and adopted another’s; how difficult it was, afterwards, to think my way back into me.

Ophelia might have some idea as to why, but I didn’t. I’m stuck, I admitted. I needed Jay, or Zareen, or somebody, to pull me out of it again. And Jay was there—at a remove.

Excruciating pain, suddenly: my thoughts dissolved into agony. I felt uprooted, as though grabbed by the hair, and pulled.

And I burst out of the stone, the land, the magick, like a weed wrenched out of a vegetable patch—and woke up, screaming, to find Jay’s terrified face looming above me.

The Fate of Farringale: 7

The last time I’d experienced one of Farringale’s magickal surges, the effects had been entertaining as much as they’d been alarming. Indira had flown, quite literally, like a bird. Rob had conjured creatures of scintillating light out of the tip of his Lapis Wand, and sent them soaring about the library. I’d turned myself into a pancake. The fact that we’d all been so totally out of control of ourselves hadn’t been great, with hindsight, but none of us had been inclined to do anything dangerous.

This, though. This was something else.

My lovely, flourishing trees, books hanging from their branches like streamers, roots tearing out of the earth with appalling rumbling, crashing, cracking sounds—those trees were angry.

‘Oh,’ I said numbly, spellbound with horror. I watched as several trees mustered themselves into formation and—eight thousand books screaming in cacophonous concert—ran at the hapless looters.

Not that so many of the latter had stuck around for it. About half had left the library after my impromptu intervention, probably to seek advice, and most of the rest had sensibly legged it the moment the first tree had torn itself loose.

George Mercer was among the foolhardy souls who remained. For a split second, I felt glad—let him pay for his many offences, a good skewering wouldn’t be undeserved—but I thought better of it almost immediately.

I was responsible for this.  If I hadn’t interfered, there might have been no surge happening at all; and if there had, there’d have been no ornery oaks on the warpath, feeling a wee bit bitter about being hacked down and turned into shelves. I didn’t want to be the reason somebody died today.

An enraged oak thundered past far too close—Jay hauled me out of the way, thankfully before we could establish whether or not their fury extended all the way through the echoes of memory and time. I felt a strong whoosh of air as it passed; shock had me clinging, just for a moment, to Jay.

‘Thanks,’ I gasped, and took off running.

What I was planning to do, I couldn’t have said. I couldn’t hear Mauf anymore, not over the tumult of vituperative voices, but his indignant presence at my side was an extra spur as I shot into the heart of the library, dodging warring trees and fleeing agents of Ancestria Magicka. At least I had thoroughly disrupted their plundering party: nobody would be trying to touch those books anymore.

I ran through chambers that had once held thousands of books, several somnolent birch or elm or ash trees still slumbering in the corners. I was making for the room we’d come to think of as the museum: an unfathomably tall-ceilinged space filled with artefacts behind glass, the lost relics of a vanished Troll Court. There would be no trees in there, most likely, for there hadn’t been any bookcases: only starstone and glass.

I found it intact, and—relatively—peaceful. The cacophony of disaster went on beyond the rounded archways, all too audible; I winced at a particularly devastating crash. Small hope that the books weren’t coming to collective, and terrible, grief: my fault, too.

‘Mauf,’ I gasped, dropping to the floor, and hauling him out of my satchel.

‘I cannot sufficiently express the extent of my disappointment,’ shouted the book, and snapped—actually snapped—at my fingers.

‘I know, I know. I’m sorry. I intended none of this to happen, and you’ve got to help me stop it.’

‘It cannot be stopped!’ shrieked Mauf, rather hysterically. ‘These blundersome, quarrelsome creatures are beyond anyone’s control.’ He began, shockingly, to sob. ‘My books. My poor, poor books…’

‘Never mind the books right now,’ I snapped back. ‘We’ll mend them. Later. We need to focus on the trees.’ I thumped the heavy weight of him smartly against the floor: the equivalent of a ringing slap. ‘Focus, Mauf. I need your help here.’

The wrenching sobs stopped, to my relief. A long moment’s silence followed, before he said, much more coolly, ‘Logic suggests that, when the surging of magick in these environs should ebb, then the trees will settle.’

‘It does suggest that,’ I agreed, ‘but that may be some time in happening.’

‘Then the best thing to do would be to turn them back into bookcases—’ His words cut off as I abruptly slammed his covers closed again, struck with a piece of genius I hadn’t, in the end, needed Mauf for.

‘I could,’ I answered him rapidly, ‘I think. Maybe. But that would just put us right back where we were, wouldn’t it? This is Ancestria Magicka we’re dealing with. They aren’t going to slink away like whipped dogs just because a couple of trees tried to butcher them like pigs. The moment the trees are gone, the shelves are back, and the books are accessible, they’ll be out the door with the lot.’

Mauf uttered something, rather muffled. ‘—fear you are contemplating further madness—entreat you to see reason—’

‘You’re quite right,’ I told him, stuffing him back into my satchel. ‘I am contemplating madness.’ Possibly the magick was getting to my brain by then, for I was far too pleased with myself, grinning like an idiot, and nowhere near as sensible of the risks as I should have been.

I laid my palms against the buzzing starstone floor, felt the ripples and waves of burgeoning magick shocking the atmosphere. It was easy, in that environment: barely cost me a thought.

Poor Jay came haring into the museum just an instant too late. I was already growing taller—much, much taller—my trunk thickening, arms and tendrils of hair lengthening into lithe, supple boughs. My eaves bristled with a glittering crop of silver leaves, and as I shook myself a spray of purple fruits flew out and splattered across the walls.

‘VES!’ Jay bawled at me from a long way below. ‘You can’t do this—come back from there, this is insane, what are you thinking—’

I heard no more, for I picked up my winding roots and stomped off, causing only a little damage to an unoffending wall in the process.

I’d already noticed that these trees seemed to possess the capacity to order themselves. They’d formed up like a battalion, attacked in concert—and that meant they could be lead.

By, for example, me.

‘FORM. UP,’ I roared, though it wasn’t words that reached them. I rumbled and crashed in a cacophony of bough and branch, a roar of spraying earth and shaken, shattering leaves: and they heard.

I’d popped out from between the echoes, I distantly realised—burst out of it, a shattering tide of magick too vast to be contained—swollen with Farringale’s own disordered currents, burgeoning into an unstoppable wave.

Nobody stopped me. Nobody could have, in that moment. I stomped out of the wreck of the library and away down the bright white boulevard, a pied piper of the forest, with a legion of irate trees stamping along in my wake.

What tales they might tell of this in days to come: the thought came to me dimly, prompted by the awed stares—nay, flabbergasted—I was receiving from Ancestria Magicka’s rotten agents as we passed (just before they scurried out of my path, like rats deserting the proverbial sinking ship).

The legend of Farringale, already a place of myth, story and song, had just grown a little larger and more improbable. I smiled to think of it, somewhere beneath leaf and bark, for as strange a story as they’d tell of this day, the truth was stranger still.

We were out of Farringale and halfway to Winchester before I faltered, paused, and, ultimately, stopped. Fields surrounded us, rippling with burgeoning wheat, or barley, perhaps: a verdant blanket of growth, dotted with copses of my fellow oaks and birches and yews. I turned about, spirits sinking with the velocity of a brick turfed off a tall building.

‘Um,’ I uttered in a rustle of silverish leaves. ‘Does anybody know the way to Mandridore?’

***

The day may yet come when I’ll be so used to Ves’s antics as to feel no surprise, however mad her methodology.

That day is a ways off, I reckon.

Yelling sense at Ves as she turns herself into a gods-forsaken tree and strides away: why did I imagine that would work? Off she went regardless, tossing her leafy canopy in a maddeningly Ves-like gesture despite the arboreal format and for a painfully long minute, Rob and I were left in frozen silence.

Rob permitted himself an audible sigh.

‘What’s interesting is,’ I said at length, ‘she seems to have taken most of the magick with her.’ The magickal surge that had been steadily building was ebbing away again, and perhaps that wasn’t so surprising. I couldn’t even dimly imagine the power it must have taken Ves to perform those several improbable feats in such quick succession.

‘She’s going to need help,’ said Rob.

I blinked, and straightened. Good point. Where in the name of her giddy gods did she imagine she was going with the library of Farringale? ‘Perhaps she can, I don’t know—’ I spread my hands in a hopeful gesture—‘Merlin her way to somewhere?’

Rob just looked at me.

‘Right. No, you’re right.’ Ves might be magickal beyond sense, marvellous beyond reason, and impossibly, dazzlingly competent, but she was still Ves. She’d be lost inside of half an hour.

I succumbed to a momentary burst of panic. I wanted to dash after her instantly—she needed me—but I couldn’t just abandon Farringale. Ves herself would kill me if we bombed out of there without completing the mission.

We’d have to get a move on.

‘Regulators first,’ I said. ‘Then Ves.’

‘Thought,’ said Rob. ‘Griffins.’

I nodded. The notable lack of them as we’d come in had struck me forcibly, only to be swept out of my mind by the chaos that had immediately ensued. There were several that lived atop Mount Farringale, not far beyond the borders of the city. They’d violently opposed our entry, the first time we’d stepped through the portal. Why hadn’t they dealt with Ancestria Magicka?

‘Oh no,’ said I, struck by a horrible thought. ‘You don’t suppose they used the regulators—?’

I couldn’t finish the thought in any detail: just what might they have used the regulators to do as regarded the griffins? Something, anyway: the likelihood that those regulators were here and the griffins unaccountably missing, purely by coincidence, was slim. They had to be related.

Rob nodded grimly. ‘Baroness? Do you know what’s become of the griffins?’

A long pause followed, and I began to fear we’d lost her somewhere. But then she spoke: ‘One is no more; two are captured. The rest bide yet in Farringale, but they are ensorcelled.’

I wished, fleetingly, that we had brought Indira after all: my sister would know at once how they had used Orlando’s regulators to ensorcel—or capture, or kill—a griffin. ‘Where are they?’ I asked.

Come,’ she said briefly, and the shadowed shape of her flickered into view, limned in pallid light. She led us away from the library, through streets largely deserted, now; wherever Ancestria Magicka had gone, their attempts to divest the city of its knowledge had been permanently foiled, to Ves’s credit.

We didn’t need to go far. A few minutes’ slinking around shadowed corners brought us to a kind of stables, or mews: rows of tall, handsome stone buildings arrayed around a square courtyard, grand in both size and style. Once upon a time, horses and perhaps even unicorns had resided here, I supposed, along with those who cared for them.

The stalls stood empty, as far as I could see, but the courtyard bustled with activity.

Three griffins crouched there, bound in a strange kind of lassitude: not asleep, quite, but fuddled, dreaming. So secure was their confinement that they were not even bound, save by a shackle chained around one furred leg, and attached to the stone walls.

Several people lingered near them, only a little wary of demeanour: with a wave of fury I recognised Fenella Beaumont. She was playing overseer, three of her henchmen engaged in the operation of one of Orlando’s regulators: I could feel the odd pulse of its magick thrumming through the floor.

It took me a moment longer to realise what else was so wrong with this scene. The griffins, hunched in their demi-slumber, lay inert: not so much as a flicker of lightning wreathed those handsome, feathered forms. That was what the regulators had done; of course it was. The griffins were the magickal heart of Farringale, the source—we surmised—of its deep, wild magick, and the regulators had—well—regulated them.

Helped along, doubtless, by Ancestria Magicka, with the specific aim of subduing them.

I took a long, slow breath, too consumed with fury to speak—at least for a moment.

‘Well,’ I said at last. ‘It’s maybe a good thing Ves isn’t here to see this.’

The Fate of Farringale: 6

‘What’s the plan,’ Jay whispered to me as we stood there, frozen with horror amidst the destruction of the great library of Farringale.

‘I don’t know,’ I admitted, already reaching with those other senses, hooking my mind and my heart into the landscape around me. ‘I think I’m about to wing it.’

If he replied, I didn’t hear it. My consciousness winged away from him, from Rob; away from the hideous spectacle of looters emptying those long-neglected shelves; brushed past Mauf, still asleep in my satchel—a mercy upon him; I left him undisturbed—past Baroness Tremayne, a distressed shadow haunting the scene, just out of sight or hearing; sank at last into the bones of the earth below.

Trees. I joined a tangle of their deep roots, a web running beneath the paved streets and stone houses, oak and ash and elm; we’d seen some few of them flanking the library, their heavy boughs still shading the deserted boulevards, long ages after those who had planted them had gone.

Something else lingered there: a memory, a ghost; trees-that-were, once; had ceased to grow, ceased to soak up the sunlight and rainfall of Farringale. The last of their sweet, spring leaves lay far behind them: hundreds of years had passed since they had last borne fruit, borne seed, let their green leaves turn the colour of amber and drift down into the slow death of autumn.

They had not forgotten. The memories lay locked inside every knot, every whorl, and I realised at last what it was I had encountered.

Shelves. The bookshelves of the library of Farringale had been built here, out of the siblings of those same trees that rose so proudly outside: and they were trees still, somewhere inside.

An idea unfurled in my own mind, like a leaf in spring: fresh and lovely and perfect. It was the work of a moment to touch those slumbering sparks with a thread of magick, to whisper to them of light, and fresh-fallen water. They responded, stretching themselves as they woke, reaching with fresh life and growth for the heavens.

And the leaves of Farringale—the thousands, hundreds of thousands, of bound and inked and printed pages, each one pressed from the mulch that had once, also, been a tree—these they carried with them, unfurling them like banners, opened to the sun.

I came back to myself slowly, through a greater exertion of effort than it had cost me to lose myself, for that little space of time. How simple, how easy, the life of a tree: the slow turning of the seasons around me, the crisp freshness of rainwater, the dulcet warmth of sunlight upon my upturned leaves…

In what stark, sharp contrast, the life of a Ves: hurry and haste, pain and turmoil, pressure and distress—I liked being a tree, could easily come to prefer it over any other shape—I fought to grasp the beauties of my little human life, the details: strong cups of tea in the morning, with lashings of milk; carrot cake, and Bakewell tarts; dance parties at midnight, when I couldn’t sleep—hugs, preferably from Jay; the velvety softness of Addie’s nose; the snap in Milady’s voice when I’d displeased her—

I flailed, halfway Ves and halfway tree, and then someone was shaking me, shouting my name in my ears and—

I had eyes again; I felt them; I opened them.

Jay, a vision of concerned fury. I was still a creature of heightened and layered senses, every pore tuned to the myriad cues of my environment. I felt every wave of Jay’s distress, felt it begin to ebb, when he saw me looking back at him.

‘We are really going to have to talk about this,’ he growled at me, his fingers digging into my shoulders where—I concluded—he had been shaking me.

‘Agreed,’ I breathed, gulping air. The ease with which I meld with landscapes, turn myself into boulders and bridges and chairs—it’s exhilarating, in the same way as a rollercoaster, the kind where you’re only mostly certain that you aren’t going to go hurtling off the rails at the next corner, and sail off into oblivion, screaming.

If I could only turn myself back with the same ease I wouldn’t mind it half so much.

‘Was I a tree?’ I whispered, half afraid of the answer.

‘Something like that—’ began Jay.

‘Ves,’ Rob broke in, and I tore my gaze away from my fascinated scrutiny of Jay’s expressions. ‘Was that you? I really hope that was you.’

He gestured, widely, and I beheld, with some awe, the fruits of my impromptu labours.

The library-as-was would, in all likelihood, never be the same again. The bookcases were gone, the very walls had shifted, and the roof gaped open to let the sky in; I wondered distantly what had become of the rafters, not to mention the roof tiles.

A forest had sprung up out of the earth. Chiefly oaks, these handsome trees: not so very old yet, their trunks still slight and lithe, but they were growing, thickening: changing, changing back, into the grand old trees they had been long ago, before men of Farringale had come with axes, and chopped them down.

A thick canopy shaded us from sun and wind: a rustling, green arbour, smelling of spring, and among those unfurling leaves there were: books.

I breathed out, a note of relief, for I had not, in my haste and carelessness, disassembled every book in the library, turning every separate page into roots and leaves. The books looked intact, as far as I could tell from some distance below: hanging from the branches like tempting fruits, far out of reach.

I watched as a quick-thinking looter jumped, reaching for a low-hanging tome; his hands never closed upon it, for the tree snatched it back, quick as lightning. The earth shook in palpable warning.

‘Yes, but before you ask,’ I informed Rob, and Jay, ‘No, I don’t have the slightest idea how I am going to get them down from there.’

‘Noted,’ said Jay.

‘But they seem to be safe, for the moment.’ So I fervently hoped; it was always possible that I had done as much damage to the books with my magick as the thieves had with their careless, grabbing hands, but I couldn’t think of that now. It was too late. I would have to hope that the love and fear I had laced into my magick had preserved them; the trees’ obvious protectiveness of their bookish burdens boded well.

Of course, I had been anything but subtle. Only some of the book thieves’ attention remained upon their prize, now hanging out of reach; others were raising the alarm, shouting questions at each other, beginning a search for the culprit. For me.

They wouldn’t find us: not yet, not while we remained tucked behind the echoes of space and time, swaddled in shadows and silence. But we couldn’t stay that way, and we had other objectives before we could hasten back to the Society.

I paused long enough to watch as several more energetic souls attempted various methods of retrieving the hanging books: jumping; boosting each other on cupped hands, or shoulders; climbing into the boughs of the trees themselves. All failed: the trees retaliated, swatting and swiping away the climbers, or shaking the looters out of their branches.

‘Right,’ said Jay, shaking himself out of his absorbed appreciation of the scene. ‘We need to find out what’s become of the regulators.’

The regulators, freshly ripped from Silvessen and—what? What were these people intending to do with them in Farringale? Whatever it was, I didn’t think they had yet deployed them. Surely there would be some sign already, some shift in the conditions of Farringale. Or would there? Could two regulators have much of an effect on an entire, magick-drowned city?

Someone passed by me, almost close enough to touch, and my train of thought shattered—I knew him, I was sure of it—shadowed as he was in my sight, his movements juddery and jerky, the strange effect of my disconnected state—even so—I followed him at a trot, noting his height, the breadth of his shoulders, the public schoolboy cut of his hair—

‘That’s George Mercer,’ I hissed, and stamped my foot in sheer rage. ‘Ancestria bloody Magicka.’

‘You’re certain?’ Jay called, following me.

‘Yes. I suppose he might have defected to some other soulless organisation devoted to the plunder of magickal heritage, but I doubt it.’

Jay seemed unsurprised, and so was I. Fenella sodding Beaumont: she just couldn’t go more than a month or two without kicking up fresh trouble.

Rob was hulking. It’s a squared-shoulders, chin-raised, threatening sort of posture he does when he’s contemplating destroying someone (to do him justice, he hardly ever actually does).

‘Now’s not the time,’ I told him. He’d have to step out from behind the echoes to actually lay hands—or Wands—on Mercer directly, and we were vastly outnumbered in here.

Rob gave me a terse nod, and his shoulders relaxed. ‘We’d better get a move on,’ he told me. ‘I may be wrong, but I think we have a surge coming on.’

I glanced at what was left of the library’s mullioned windows, forest-bound as they now were. I might have imagined it, but was that a slow flush of pale colour creeping across the glass? A soft, palpable hum of magick building in the air?

‘That seems—’ I began, but was unable to finish the sentence for the sheer sinking of my heart. It seemed like improbably prompt timing, but what if it wasn’t random? I had just unleashed a small tidal wave of magick in the great library. I’d turned the previously inert bookshelves into Merlin-trees, and now that I had occasion to think about it they were rather fizzy with magick—

‘Oh, dear,’ I sighed, exchanging one fraught glance with Jay. The same realisation was written all over his face.

‘It’ll be all right,’ he said reassuringly. ‘We’ve weathered these surges before.’

We had, but that was before I’d emerged from the fifth Britain in a state of dangerous magickal excess. Before I’d set eyes—or hands—on the strange old lyre from my mother’s Yllanfalen kingdom. Before I’d become a Merlin. No one could say what the effect would now be upon my shrinking self.

I had two choices. Wait and see—or run away.

I took a big breath, squared my shoulders, and hulked. ‘It’ll be okay,’ I echoed Jay, trying to sound like I meant it.

I could feel it now, pulsing through the floor under my shoes and thrumming in the air.

From the depths of my satchel, an irate voice began shouting. ‘Miss Vesper. Permit me to ask—with the utmost esteem and respect for your ordinarily unimpeachable judgement—what in the name of every conceivable god have you done to my LIBRARY.’

Mauf had woken up. And I saw his point fairly quickly, for quite apart from the unusual elevation of the formerly neat rows of books there was something else going on. They were—swaying. Their pages were fluttering, as though riffled by invisible fingers. As I watched, a cloud of butterflies erupted from the pages of one handsome old tome, and exploded in tiny flashes of light.

A discordant chorus of babbling voices rose in volume, rising with the magickal tide: the books of Farringale were gibbering, cackling, screaming in rage—

–And then, horror of horrors, the bright young oaks I’d conjured out of the bookshelves ripped their roots out of the earth and began to walk.

The Fate of Farringale: 5

Whisht.

The sound broke in upon my reverie. Light splintered.

I woke up, partially.

I wasn’t Ves just then. I couldn’t have said what I had done with my eyes or my limbs or my fabulous hair, nor what shape I presently wore. I felt at ease with the landscape, as though I had grown there. Perhaps I had.

Cordelia Vesper, came the voice again, and I had regained enough of myself to recognise Baroness Tremayne’s tones.

How she perceived me in that state, I couldn’t imagine.

Baroness? I attempted to reply.

I sense you but I see nothing of you. How comes this about?

I mulled over how to answer that, when I had so little information myself. What had I done, exactly? What did I look like, just then? I’ll explain later, I decided, for time pressed, and I had no idea how long I had spent in my sunlit haze. Can you get Jay and Rob in, without their being seen? They’re waiting just outside the portal.

Cannot you?

Fair question, that. Since I had no real idea what I had done to myself, I had no real idea how to do the same to anyone else—nor even if it were possible. I was hoping you could take all of us into the echoes, I went on, ignoring that question too.

A moment.

A flash and a sickening shift; I felt wrenched out of the earth, like an uprooted tree.

Golden light dimmed to a pale, muted silver, and the soft sounds of the city—birdsong, the wind through ancient eaves, and, somewhere, voices—faded. I felt swaddled in mist, my senses muffled.

I had passed into the baroness’s strange world.

Ves,’ someone was calling, thin, distorted sounds, as though we hung suspended underwater. Jay. He was here somewhere.

I steadied myself with a breath or two, and looked about me. The baroness had moved me in distance as well as time; I stood in a white-walled room, small by troll standards. A single armchair rested, lonely, in a corner, besides which the chamber bore scant decoration: a plain stone mantel crowned a narrow fireplace; shelves built into the walls might once have held books; the bare boards of the floor might once have been covered with a cheerful rug. Perhaps I was in one of those modest merchant’s townhouses I’d seen on a prior visit. Shadows flickered oddly in the corners, light crackled and shifted; I blinked, shaking my head. I don’t know how Baroness Tremayne has contrived to live in this odd, mutable space for so many years. Perhaps she finds solidity disconcerting, now.

A door stood open opposite me, and in another moment Jay barrelled through it. ‘There you are,’ he said, with palpable relief.

My heart eased a notch at the sight of him. ‘Is Rob with you?’

He jerked his head in terse reply: behind him.

I couldn’t see the baroness, but this was her turf: she, of all of us, could be relied upon to handle it.

Her voice emanated out of nowhere even as I framed the thought, and I jumped. Art prepared?

Were we prepared. For what? Disasters innumerable and unnameable? Almost certain catastrophe? Slight, but not insignificant risk of actual death?

Eh, probably. I’ve got used to calling that “Tuesday”.

‘Art prepared,’ I answered firmly. ‘Ready for mission briefing.’

This puzzled the baroness; there was a palpable pause. I’d forgotten, for a moment, how she lived—giving new meaning to the term “out of touch”. ‘Occupation,’ she said after a moment, ‘seems centred around the library, though there are pockets of activity in other places.’

The library. Of course, the first thing these people had done upon invading Farringale was take control of the library.

Although… I frowned, rapidly revising my ideas. The first thing I would do upon invading a sovereign territory—however empty—would be to take over the library. But this wasn’t me. ‘Who are these people,’ I muttered, though I was beginning to develop an idea. If the library was their first, or even sole, objective, then they were a lot like us—only more ruthless.

‘Three guesses,’ said Jay.

‘Too generous,’ put in Rob.

I was beginning to agree. If I didn’t find Fenella Beaumont somewhere at the back of this mess, I might be eating a couple of hats.

I sighed. ‘Let’s go to the library, then,’ words I usually uttered with more genuine joy, it has to be said.

I braced myself against another sickening lurch through space and time, but nothing happened. ‘Tis but a short distance,’ the baroness told us. ‘This is the librarians’ quarters.’

I imagined a complex of dormitories, like a university campus, all housing the multitudinous librarians that must once have staffed the sprawling archives of Farringale: part of a bustling hive of intellectual activity, the likes of which the world may never have seen again. The shattering tragedy of its loss hit me afresh.

‘Oh,’ said Jay, realisation dawning, as I continued to stand there. ‘I’m up.’

‘Delighted as I generally am to lead,’ I confirmed, ‘I’m still me.’ Merlin or not, I still couldn’t find my way out of a paper bag without assistance.

Jay went to the door and passed out of the room, Rob motioning me to follow. He brought up the rear, guarding us, I supposed, from threats materialising behind us. Strange feeling; Farringale, as yet, seemed almost as empty as it had ever been, the only signs of other life hitherto being a faint babble of voices—and only then when I’d been merged with the land, Merlin-style. It felt almost like playing some kind of game; let’s pretend we’re on a quest to save a lost kingdom from a terrifying threat. I’ll be Merlin, you can be a Waymaster of indescribable power…

I followed Jay into a large vestibule, high of ceiling, with a pair of griffin statues flanking the tall door to the outside. Jay went straight out; I paused only to pat one of the statues on its smooth stone head as I passed. I couldn’t have said why. It seemed friendly.

The moment we stepped outside, all my comforting notions of make-believe fell into tatters.

Someone whisked past the librarian’s house, close enough to touch Jay: he halted abruptly. My heart stuttered; for an agonising moment I expected to be seen, to be caught; then the odd dimness of the noontide light, the shimmering, flickering haze over everything we saw, reminded me that we were undetectable. Hopefully.

We waited in brief, frozen silence, immobile—my mind spiralled back into childhood games and Granny’s Footsteps—a most inapposite desire to giggle rose in me, and I choked it down. The pressure was making me hysterical.

The person, whoever it was, passed by at a near-run, and it struck me that the hive of activity I’d been imagining moments before had returned to Farringale after all. If only they weren’t uninvited, irresponsible, and destructive—

‘This way,’ Jay whispered, stepping confidently out. I trailed after, heart pounding—it takes serious nerve to wander down a street, out in the open, and just trust that nobody will be able to see you.

Nobody did, but we saw plenty. Jay led us on a short, winding route around a cluster of stone-built houses—the rest of the librarians’ quarters, I supposed—and several people passed us, moving at considerable speed.

Now that we were closer, I was able to see that they were carrying armfuls of stuff. Books.

‘They’re stripping the library,’ I hissed, a surge of such rage swelling my heart that I couldn’t breathe.

‘I feel bound to point out that we did the same thing,’ Jay said. ‘Not that I mean to defend them, of course.’

‘We did not. We took several books, and only to save them. They’re taking—everything—’ I shut up, and breathed.

‘Maybe they’re saving them,’ Rob put in, but in a dry tone.

I scoffed audibly at that. ‘Of course they are. Zero personal interest involved.’

They were all human, these bustling thieves, which did not surprise me. Though the notable lack of any trolls did interest me a little: was that mere happenstance, or had these invaders known about the state of Farringale, known that any trolls they brought here would be in severe danger?

The existence of the ortherex; the fate of Farringale, and other Troll Enclaves; these things were not secrets, exactly. It had taken a huge, concerted effort to save some of the beleaguered Enclaves, involving the Society, the Troll Court, and other organisations; word of it must surely have spread.

Still. This was looking more and more like a carefully planned operation by somebody with considerable information. Someone who’d been paying close attention to what we had been doing this past year.

We turned a corner, and the library rose before us: a statuesque construct, a cathedral to knowledge, its gleaming white walls glittering with glass. Another person came barrelling out of the entrance as we watched and hurtled down the steps, a woman with soft brown hair, an armful of books, and a harried expression. They weren’t wasting any time: clearly they expected this incursion wouldn’t remain a secret for long.

Was this their only goal? Robbing the library?

Would that alone have rattled the unflappable baroness so?

Jay stealthed up the wide stone steps to the entrance, neatly evading further bandits dashing out with more books. I wondered where they were taking them, pictured trucks driven up to the gates of Farringale somewhere and filled up with stolen material. What a coup—if they could pull it off.

I smothered a rebellious corner of my soul that traitorously wished we had thought to come here with trucks and empty the library—there were reasons why we hadn’t, we had ethics and standards and we didn’t do this sort of thing, let it go, Ves—and followed Jay up the stairs.

Inside, chaos reigned.

On our last visit here, the library had been shrouded in dust and silence, like Sleeping Beauty’s enchanted tower. Spellbound, as though the city had fallen asleep, and might wake at any moment.

Now it bustled with the worst kind of activity. Easily twenty people were looting the shelves, hastily, haphazardly, scooping armloads of delicate tomes onto the floor and shoving them into boxes. Others merely grabbed eight or ten off the nearest shelf and ran for the door. I winced at the thud, thudding as more and more books fell off their shelves and landed in crashing heaps, sending waves of dust into the air.

Rage set my heart afire; I could have screamed my fury.

As much as I could understand the desire to loot every single page of precious knowledge out of the lost library of Farringale, I could never condone this—this—this travesty, this piracy. Nobody cared if the books were damaged during this shambles of a process; nor did they care that the right of ownership over them was emphatically not theirs.

They weren’t emptying the great library of Farringale; they were destroying it.

My feelings were echoed in Jay and Rob, for the three of us stood frozen in shared horror for some minutes. It defied belief, that anybody with a value for knowledge could treat the place with such a total lack of respect—how could they—

‘Right,’ I said, crisply, and the syllable contained worlds of steely resolution.

‘Right,’ Jay agreed, grim as death.

Rob merely nodded. We were agreed. Whatever it took, we were stopping these people.

But we were here on reconnaissance only. We didn’t have the numbers to mount a counter offensive, and it would take days to muster that kind of a force and get it all the way down here (we had only the one Waymaster, and there was no conceivable way Jay could be expected to cart a hundred Society members across such a distance).

By the haste with which these thieves were working, they knew this. They weren’t planning to be here in a few days’ time; they were getting the goods and getting out. By the time reinforcements arrived, it would be too late—at least for the library.

If there was ever a good time to go catastrophically, devastatingly Merlin on somebody, this was it.

The Fate of Farringale: 4

An odd feeling, retracing the steps of our first (and at the time, secret) mission to Farringale. We were almost the same company again, missing only Alban; the journey through the Ways was the same, bringing us out on the same sun-dappled hilltop near Winchester. Even the season was the same: had it really been a year ago? A whole year! And yet, only a year. We might be the same team on the same mission, but we were not the same people.

I wasn’t the same Ves.

Nor was this mission conducted in the same exploratory spirit as before. Where previously I had felt excitement, curiosity, a twinge of guilt (see: aforementioned secret status), now we were tense and focused, prepared to encounter a very different Farringale. I scarcely noticed the vivid yellow-flowered shrubs, or the shimmering blue bowl of the sky. I went straight for my syrinx pipes, played a distracted melody thereupon: down came Adeline, for me and Jay to ride, and her larger, darker friend for Rob.

Jay, once rendered almost prostrate by the effort of carrying three or four people through the Ways, stood superbly composed and in control: not even the prospect of a horseback ride through the skies had the power to unsettle him now. How far we’ve come, I thought, with an odd twist of pride; a feeling I had no time to indulge or to share, for we were in a hurry. I paused only to touch noses with Addie before I mounted up, and Jay scrambled up behind me. Rob took the lead, a godlike figure enthroned upon stallion-back: I spared momentary wisp of pity for whoever had been so unwise as to mount a foray in Farringale. They were going to regret it.

Ten miles or so winged away in no time at all; ten miles of crisp, clear air, Addie’s velvet hide shimmering in the sunlight, and Jay a warm, comforting weight against my back.

Then we were spiralling down and down, alighting near Alresford, at the bridge over the River Alre. How sturdy, how dependable a construct, this thing of dark bricks and weathered stones: staunchly guarding the entrance to Farringale for hundreds of years, immoveable by time or mischief; untouched, and untouchable—

These high-blown musings upon time and change came to an abrupt end as Addie planted her four silvery hooves upon solid ground, and I got a closer look at the agèd bridge.

Not so untouchable after all, and not untouched. It’s the type of bridge that looks like half a small castle: built from pale grey stone in great, heavy blocks, with a handsome pointed arch spanning the river beneath. It’s been there for eight hundred years, probably, and you’d think nothing could touch it, but something had.

That majestic arch lay shattered in several pieces, each one as large as my entire body. The back half of the bridge had crumbled, fallen in, lay blocking the river; water was forming a new path around the obstacle, split into a streaming fork. It was as though the hand of some kind of god had smashed it in a fit of pique: a single, stunning blow, and an irreplaceable piece of architectural history lay in ruins.

I stared at the devastation, too numb with shock to think, let alone speak. ‘Who—’ I began, but words failed me. I felt a tear spill down one cheek; more in anger than grief, though surely some of both.

Who could have committed an act of such wanton destruction? Who could have so little respect for history, for heritage, for art—

I’d forgotten Farringale, for a moment. I was recalled to duty by Rob’s grim pronouncement: ‘Well. We know how they got in.’

‘What?’ I looked up, away from the tumbled mess of stone and time. ‘But—just destroying the bridge shouldn’t open the gate, surely. It should make it inaccessible.’

‘I know it should,’ Rob agreed. ‘But it hasn’t.’

I saw what he meant. A nimbus of light hung somewhere under the remains of the bridge, a light I recognised: we’d passed through it before. On the other side lay Farringale.

Whatever they had done, it hadn’t been a physical act of destruction. The bridge had been wrecked by magick, and whoever had done it had hacked the gate open by the same means. A vicious, brutal, graceless stroke, committed by one whose only goal was to get inside, and hang the consequences.

Jay was already on his phone, talking in crisp, short sentences to someone from the Society. ‘—completely wrecked—gate’s clearly accessible—seriously urgent—’

I stepped nearer to the destroyed gate, my stomach flipping with alarm. Baroness Tremayne had talked of many intruders, too many to count, but hearing about it at some distance was one thing: seeing the evidence of this savage incursion was quite another. This was an invasion indeed, the destroyed bridge the kind of collateral damage inflicted by a hostile army.

‘Shit,’ I whispered, my head spinning. Farringale was in deep trouble.

Rob had been quiet for some minutes. At last he said: ‘This is much more serious than we anticipated. I’m half inclined to abort mission. Come back with greater numbers.’

I saw his point. We were woefully overmatched. But on the other hand—

‘We aren’t here to try to remove these people, yet,’ I reminded him. ‘We’re here to get a clear picture of the situation, so we can counter them more effectively later. What are we going to tell Milady, if we walk away now? We’ve learned almost nothing.’

‘Ves, there are three of us. Three, against—’ He waved a hand illustratively at the destroyed bridge, unable to specify precisely what the three of us faced.

And it was that very vagueness that worried me. ‘We’ve got to learn more,’ I argued. ‘Who are these people? What do they want with Farringale? Giddy gods, how did they get past the griffins? If we’re to have the slightest hope of besting them then we’ve got to answer these questions.’

Rob gave me one of his grim looks. I don’t mind admitting that it is a little intimidating. ‘And how do you propose we proceed? We’ll be spotted as soon as we step through that portal.’

‘Not necessarily.’

Rob stared at me, waiting. Unimpressed.

‘Did I never tell you how I first met Baroness Tremayne?’

‘Not in any great detail, no.’

‘She was—she doesn’t exist in the real world, precisely.’ I held up a hand as he made to object. ‘Yes, I know she does; we saw her, not long ago. But she’s ancient, Rob. She’s hundreds of years old. She’s survived by existing outside of our reality, for the most part. She calls it between the echoes. I was in there with her, for a bit. It’s like—you can’t be seen by anyone outside of it, not even if you’re standing right next to them. She can pull us in, she’s done it before, and we can sneak around as much as we need to.’

A light of interest dawned in Rob’s dark eyes, and I knew I had him. ‘Are you sure?’ he said, ever the health and safety manager. ‘There’s no danger?’

‘There’s probably some,’ I admitted. ‘But not much.’

Rob’s mouth twitched in a smile, mostly suppressed. ‘Right,’ he said.

‘It’s too much to hope for no danger. I mean, when was the last time that happened?’

He answered with a shrug, or perhaps he was merely rolling his powerful shoulders, preparing for action.

Jay appeared at my elbow. ‘They’re sending some people to have a look at the bridge situation,’ he informed us.

‘We can’t wait for them,’ I said. ‘There’s no time to be lost. Who knows what they’re doing to Farringale while we’re dithering out here.’

‘I told them we can’t wait,’ Jay agreed. ‘This mess is out of our hands. That mess—’ he pointed at the portal—‘is entirely our problem.’

Right. I squared my shoulders, too, a smaller, feistier version of Rob. ‘I’ll go in first,’ I said.

Both men looked at me, and I could see questions and objections crystallising in their faces.

I held up a hand. ‘Hear me out. I know I said the baroness will help us, but we’ve got to reach her first. And you’re right, if we waltz straight through we’ll probably be spotted immediately.’ I wondered how Baroness Tremayne had got in and out, presumably without being observed. But she was a griffin. She had other, skyborne pathways. ‘I expect Milady told her where we’d be going in. She’ll be waiting for us nearby. So I’ll just—Merlin in, and let her know we’re here.’

‘Merlin in,’ Jay said.

‘Yes.’

‘I wasn’t aware that “Merlin” was a verb.’

‘If that’s an oblique way of asking me how I propose to accomplish this feat, I can only tell you: accidentally, via means I can neither anticipate nor plan for.’

I saw the escapade of the Fairy Stone pass behind Jay’s eyes, not to mention the episode with the chair. ‘This is—haphazard,’ he objected.

‘I know.’

‘Disorganised, uncertain, chaotic, and therefore dangerous.’

‘That’s me,’ I agreed.

He smiled in spite of himself. ‘I meant dangerous to you.’

‘Do you have a better idea?’ I hated to challenge him with the deal-breaking what-else-would-you-suggest manoeuvre, it’s crude. But we were not furnished with a great many options, nor with a great deal of time in which to laboriously reject most of them.

Jay didn’t like it either. His smile vanished into grimness: his stare was flinty. ‘If you get killed,’ he said ominously, ‘I’ll—’

‘Get Zareen to wake me up just so you can kill me again,’ I finished for him.

‘No. I’ll mourn you for the rest of my life.’ It was said very seriously, with real feeling.

Ouch. That hit me where it hurts. ‘I promise,’ I said, really meaning it. ‘I’ll be careful as pie.’

‘As pie? Careful as pie? Pies are easy but I never heard they were careful—Ves!’

While he was busy muddling his way through my very mixed simile, I was off, striding for that beckoning nimbus of light with all the courage I couldn’t quite muster. I’d spoken with outrageous certainty, as though I had any real control over these accidental brilliancies of mine. I hadn’t been trying to turn into a Fairy Stone, or a chair either; what made me think I could accidentally-on-purpose stealth my way into Farringale via some mysteriously mystical means, and without getting caught?

Only the fact that I’d lucked or catastrophised my way into—and out of—a lot of interesting situations already. And that was before someone had been mad enough to make a Merlin of me.

This jumble of doubts and hopes drained away as I neared the portal, for I was assailed by a—by a deep, shimmering, compelling awareness of it, and of the land beyond, that briefly shocked me into immobility. This certainly hadn’t happened before. My senses were awash with magick, and with Farringale: the scents and sights of its golden-paved streets and overgrown gardens; water, fresh and chill, or sharply, greenly stagnant; the mulch of old earth, the perfume of spring roses—those damned roses were everywhere—I inhaled, closing my eyes, and I could almost see the winding streets, the grand boulevards, the timber-framed townhouses. That sky. That sky, twilight-coloured and roiling with angry, devastating, glorious golden clouds.

Warmth wreathed my limbs, a warmth that came—I thought—from the light itself. The gentle warmth of an afternoon in early summer, like bathing in liquid sunshine.

I felt no movement; there was no sensation of passage. Time passed, and I knew, in some distant way, that I had gone out of England, and into Farringale; that I was a part of it, like a tree rooted in the deep earth; like a stream rushing, bubbling through grassy banks; like a rose, petals unfurled to drink in the sun.

Dancing and Disaster: 10

I’m not sure I’ve ever felt so alone in my life. The silence was so profound, I might have been the only person on the planet, never mind in the room. The darkness was absolute, save for a faint glimmer of pale, sickly light here and there, showing me where to go. I felt frozen to the marrow of my bones, shivering as I stepped forward.

I was hoping my esteemed colleagues might follow my example and take the bull by the horns, so to speak.

Failing that, I was hoping they might choose to come with me. You know, to back me up.

But nothing broke that terrible, depthless silence, and I knew I was alone. Not even Jay had followed me.

I wasted a moment in pointless self-pity as I pictured my companions piling out of the hole Jay would shortly open in the front door, leaving me behind. Following which, they would go back to their bright, sunny lives, full of purpose and potential and loved ones, and forget me entirely.

Jay would marry the girl he’d been dating and wouldn’t talk about, and produce the next generation of impossibly talented, slightly Ylanfallen children. Indira would become the head of the Hidden University by the age of twenty-five, after which she would take over the planet and rule (benignly) as Empress of Everything. Emellana would embark upon a fresh slew of exciting adventures, adding to the already living legend that she was, and Zareen… Zareen would kick George Mercer out of her life once and for all (if she hadn’t already), become a stable, healthy human being, and go on to exorcise many another irate spirit or enraged poltergeist.

I, meanwhile, would be stuck in here forever, alone and unregretted, which was probably what I deserved…

A tear slid down my cheek. I’d stopped walking at some point and stood with my arms hanging down and head lowered, helpless and hopeless.

Which really isn’t like me.

My chin came up. ‘Okay,’ I whispered. ‘You’re okay, Ves. You may not be married with kids or the Empress of Everything, but you live a life full of meaning and your hair is truly excellent. And your friends love you and would never leave you behind.’ I thought for a second. That about covered everything.

The feelings of bleak hopelessness faded a little.

‘Okay!’ I said louder. ‘Nice try, but it didn’t work.’

A soft sigh of wind gusted past me, a hollow sound, which, by way of courtesy, brought a freezing chill with it. I began to shiver, but at least the terrible weight of my own black self-pity disappeared.

‘Thank you,’ I said. ‘While we’re talking, perhaps somebody would like to explain to me what you’ve done with Jay.’

A mote of light appeared before me, and spread, rippling like water. A vision shimmered there: Jay as I’d last seen him, cross-legged on the floor in the echoing hall and enjoying a custard cream. But as I watched, something changed, and I realised this wasn’t quite my Jay. He was looking at me with an expression of such utter exasperation, one might even term it… contempt. I could practically see the thoughts passing behind his dark eyes: What a fatuous idiot. Serving biscuits and chatting when there’s a severe threat to deal with. I can’t wait to leave this fool behind and move on to better things.

I might have flinched a little.

I’m fairly sure Jay didn’t take me very seriously when we first met. I was colourful and jaunty and fabulously dressed and I don’t think Jay associated any of those things with competence or skill.

But that didn’t last long.

‘Still doesn’t work,’ I said, raising my voice. ‘Where is he?’

The vision rippled, and changed. Jay was striding down a shadowy corridor, its walls painted white and streaked with something dark. A light flickered oddly ahead of him, bobbed and danced, emanating a shimmery, shivery ghost-light: some kind of will-o’-wisp. He was following in its train, eyes fixed upon it, and as I watched, a nothingness opened in the floor before him, fathomlessly black.

He walked straight into it, and disappeared.

I heard him scream.

‘I doubt it,’ I said, as stoutly as I could manage. The vision was more persuasive than I liked.

I was shown an alternative. Jay found a door leading outside, but when it opened, he was several floors up. He didn’t seem to notice, but stepped over the threshold — and fell, screaming. I watched as he hit the hard, frosted ground and the scream abruptly cut off.

Another alternative. Jay exploring some kind of ballroom, a big, echoey chamber with a begrimed, tiled floor and a dark-painted balcony for a long-vanished orchestra. As he stepped forward, the balcony wobbled and fell, crushing him underneath.

Another. Jay had found the house’s kitchens, and was poking industriously into cobweb-ridden cupboards streaked with soot. A hellish wight appeared behind him, soundless; Jay didn’t notice, so he didn’t move. A shimmering cord wound around his neck, and strangled him to death.

I watched several more possible scenarios, involving an abrupt and vicious stabbing, an imbibing of poisoned beverages, and a burning alive (the latter including a particularly creative use of sound; Jay’s agonised screams echoed through my ears in three-part disharmony). I neither moved nor spoke, and I didn’t flinch again.

Eventually, the visions stopped.

‘The torment doesn’t seem to be working,’ I said to the empty air. ‘So you might as well skip it.’

I waited, but nothing and no one answered. Neither did the horror show start up again, though, so I considered it progress.

‘Perhaps you’d like to save everybody a lot of time and energy and just tell me what you’re upset about,’ I continued.

Nothing. My tormentors were either unable to communicate clearly, or they were having too much fun messing with my mind to bother doing so.

I heaved a sigh.

Focus, Ves. If the glaistigs don’t want to play nicely, ignore them.

My mind cleared a little as I formed the thought.

It really was terribly dark. Why hadn’t I done something about that already?

I summoned a tiny ball of light, bright as a miniature star, and stood blinking in the sudden white glare.

I’d made it halfway down a short passage. I had immediate cause to regret my light show, for the place was in a skin-crawling state of disrepair. The walls and ceiling were probably whitewashed, once, but a thick, black mould now covered every inch. Giddy gods, what hideous spores was I imbibing with every breath?

The floor was spongy underfoot, and a short way ahead of me the wooden boards had rotted through. A dark hole yawned, ready to swallow me whole if I’d taken another step or two, so the light had been a good move after all.

I averted my eyes from the mould, and pressed on, skirting carefully around the gap in the floor.

Where was I even trying to go? Good question. I’d been lured this way, but perhaps that had only been for the sake of the torturous cinematics.

Still, the situation had to be resolved, and if mass exorcism wasn’t an option, then I’d have to come up with something else.

That probably meant tracking down the ethereal inhabitants, righting their wrongs, ministering to their woes, and sending everyone away happy. Ideally.

Tricky when they won’t talk.

‘I’d really like to help,’ I tried, marching at a smart pace towards a closed door at the end of the passage.

The door swung open, hard. It hit the wall with a sharp crack, and shattered, falling in splintered chunks to the floor.

Hm.

‘I see that you’re angry,’ I observed, stepping over the mess. ‘And it was probably rude of us to visit without an invitation, for which I apologise. If you’d prefer for us to leave, we will.’ It cost me something to say this, for leaving without accomplishing our goals was a prospect to please nobody. Manners, though. Manners maketh man. And woman.

Nobody answered, except that the door ahead of me remained open, and the door behind me remained closed.

I took that for a polite rejection of my offer, and proceeded with some alacrity.

I was herded, by a series of unsubtle signs, around a corner, up a flight of stairs, along another passageway, up another flight of stairs, and finally into some kind of turret room right at the top of the house. Which was interesting, since I didn’t remember seeing any turrets or towers on the house as we’d approached.

‘Secret tower-top torture chamber,’ I enthused as I stepped inside. ‘Ladies, you have style.’

I was less impressed when I noticed a bone-chilling wind howling through the room, emanating from a leaded window that hung ominously open.

I peeked out. The ground was rather a long way below.

‘If anybody’s got any bright ideas about my leaving the building in some short, interesting fashion, think again,’ I said, stepping well back. The vision I’d seen of Jay, opening a door in the side of the house and plummeting to his death, sailed through my mind, and again I heard him scream.

Nothing happened. I wasn’t herded to the window by ghostly hands, nor shoved out upon a gust of wind, so I counted my blessings.

Instead, a door opened. Not the one I’d come through. I hadn’t even seen it, for it was thick with strange, silvery mould and indistinguishable from the walls.

Jay stood on the threshold.

‘Ves,’ he said, in some relief, and rushed forward.

I tried to stop him, but it was too late; the door slammed behind him, and a key turned in the lock.

‘As rescue efforts go, this one has suffered a setback,’ I observed.

Jay was too busy checking me for injury, apparently, for he had me in some kind of a death-grip and seemed unwilling to let go.

In fact, he seemed a little upset.

‘Oh,’ I said, as realisation dawned. ‘Let me guess. You’ve recently been treated to a montage of eighty-ways-to-kill-your-friendly-local-Ves.’

‘Not quite that many,’ he said into my shoulder, somewhat muffled. ‘Twenty though. Easily twenty.’

Come to think of it, I was feeling a little rattled myself. I realised this because I was in no more of a hurry to let go of Jay than he was to release me, so we stayed that way a while.

I emerged some minutes later, very thoroughly hugged, and a little eased at heart.

‘It was the screams that did it,’ I sighed. ‘Very realistic.’

Jay visibly shuddered. ‘Right,’ he said, squaring his shoulders. ‘Where have we ended up?’

‘A tower that shouldn’t exist, though at least I arrived in a sensible fashion, that being: I climbed some stairs. How did you get here?’

‘I went through a door from the dining room, which I’m pretty sure was on the ground floor. I certainly didn’t climb any stairs.’ He shuddered again. ‘Total Miss Havisham situation down there. I don’t recommend it.’

‘Table laden with a maggot-ridden feast, covered in cobwebs?’

‘I may need a complete decontamination when we get home.’

It was my turn to shudder. ‘I was expecting to find something helpful up here, but I seem to be out of luck.’ The turret room was empty, even of furniture, and nobody had manifested or tried to talk to me.

That being so, I wasn’t planning to stick around.

I went to the door through which Jay had emerged, and — cringing a bit, on account of the mould — I grabbed the ancient iron key, and turned it.

Slightly to my surprise, it turned easily, and I yanked the door open. We emerged onto a narrow, winding staircase, and ventured down.

I was braced for an eyeful of rotten food and dust-ridden furniture, but the chamber at the bottom of the stairs wasn’t the dining room.

‘I think we’ve found the ballroom,’ I said, stepping through a stone archway.

Jay followed me. Our footsteps rang loudly on the smooth tiled floor, echoing off the mould-silvered walls. I noticed the balcony that had, in my vision, tumbled down and squashed Jay beneath it. It looked capable of such a feat, for it sagged ominously, its encircling railings missing several spiralling wooden posts.

‘Don’t walk under that,’ I warned Jay.

He shook his head emphatically. We trailed into the centre of the dance floor, and stopped.

A door opened in the far wall.

‘Oh,’ said Zareen, and came through it. ‘You’re still alive.’

‘I haven’t fallen out of a window,’ I agreed. ‘Or been stabbed to death, or choked, or burned alive, or poisoned, or smashed to bits beneath a falling balcony.’

Zareen grimaced. ‘Or eaten by spiders.’

My eyes went very wide.

‘Have you seen Indira?’ Jay asked, either of me or Zareen, or perhaps both.

I shook my head. So did Zar.

‘But if we aren’t dead,’ said Zar, ‘then neither is she.’

‘So I figure,’ Jay agreed. ‘But I’d like to be sure.’

‘I haven’t seen Em either,’ I said, frowning. I was less worried about Ms Rogan than I was about Indira, though. There’s little that can daunt the likes of Emellana and less that could do her any harm.

‘Speak of the devil,’ answered Jay, and he sounded awed, which was odd — until I turned around.

Emellana, eschewing such mundane apparatus as doors, was entering the ballroom by way of the wall. In much the same way as might a patch of mould, or a puddle of water. She oozed.

The Magick of Merlin: 19

Two days later, and I had my gateway straight into the heart of Merlin’s grove all set up. Ophelia had constructed one for me in my own room, with a silver-shimmering pentagram drawn onto the floor by her own hand.

‘Oooh,’ I’d said, enthralled. ‘What does the star do?’

‘Shows you where it is,’ Ophelia had answered as she straightened. ‘So you don’t wander onto it by mistake.’

‘…Right.’

I hadn’t yet used it, except once to test that it worked. My apprenticeship would be confined to Tuesdays, except when I was out on assignment. We’re beginning next week.

After Ophelia left, my apprehensions reached such a height that I spent a full thirty-six hours out in the unicorn glade with Addie. Human doubts and fears don’t strike you the same way when you have hooves, a horn and a tail. I recommend it.

They all came flooding back, though, as soon as I regained my human shape. I felt bowed down under the weight of it, as though with my human hands and face and feet I’d also donned a heavy mantle of doubt.

I resigned myself to an unquiet couple of weeks.

Worse, I couldn’t even impose on Jay. Not that I should, of course. I’ve been making all kinds of resolutions in that direction of late; something about not behaving as though Jay is there for my personal convenience (even if he does call himself my sidekick). Jay has enough stuff of his own to deal with; he doesn’t deserve to have to support me through so much of mine.

Whether or not I can manage to stick to this praiseworthy resolution will have to go a little longer untested, for when I next saw him, he’d donned jacket and boots, and carried his motorcycle helmet in one hand. I bumped into him in the corridor outside my room; apparently he’d been on his way to see me.

‘Ves,’ he said with a smile. ‘I just came to let you know I’m out for a bit.’

‘Oh!’ I said brightly. ‘That’s great. Where are you off to?’

‘Family time.’

I nodded. He looked all set to go, and a certain restlessness about him suggested he was eager to be off. I confined my response to some murmured platitudes, and waited for him to be gone.

But he stood dithering.

‘I’ve got sort of… well, a date,’ he said.

‘Oh!’

‘I suppose you could call it that.’

Are you calling it that?’

‘I mean… that’s the idea. Yes.’

‘But…?’ I ventured, sensing a further hesitation.

‘Erm, it’s of an unusual kind,’ he said, not quite meeting my eye. ‘She’s the daughter of a friend of my parents. We knew each other pretty well as kids, and… well, I met her again several weeks ago.’

‘And hit it off,’ I said, beaming. ‘Great!’

‘Something like that.’

Jay looked fabulously uncomfortable, and I really couldn’t figure out why. ‘I’m sure you’ll have a great time,’ I enthused, possibly overdoing the delight just a bit.

He shrugged. ‘Our parents would be — I mean, they’re really into the idea, and…’ He shrugged again.

Why Jay was going into so much detail was as incomprehensible to me as his palpable discomfort. A frown was gathering upon my brow, which I hastily smoothed out. It wouldn’t do to seem displeased. ‘Are you okay?’ I said.

‘Yes!’ he said, flashing a megawatt smile. ‘I’m great. It’ll be great, I’m sure.’

‘Sure it will. I bet she’s lovely.’

‘Hope so,’ said Jay, so softly I almost didn’t catch it. He cleared his throat. ‘You’ll be seeing Alban?’

‘Not to my knowledge.’

‘Aha.’ He nodded. I wondered if that was either approval or relief I detected in his mostly impassive face, and gave up the attempt. The finer points of Jay’s inner feelings are too hard to read. ‘Something else?’ he said.

‘I beg your pardon?’

‘Are you doing something else?’

‘Not really. Just waiting to get started with Merlin. Might see if I can find out how Orlando’s getting on with the argent. You know.’

‘Work, then.’

‘Always.’ I smiled.

‘Ves. Don’t you ever leave Home?’

‘All the time,’ I said, frowning again. ‘You’re usually with me.’

‘I mean, for reasons other than work.’

‘Of course I do. Loads.’

‘Such as that time you…?’

I thought and thought, but failed to recall a single recent incident that wasn’t essentially work-related. Even that time we’d hared off at my mother’s request had been more to do with my Society position than my status as her daughter. ‘Well, maybe I haven’t in a while, true.’

‘How about ever?’

I folded my arms, a defensive gesture if ever I saw one, but I couldn’t help it. It was done before I was aware. ‘Just what are you getting at?’

He held out a pacifying hand. ‘Nothing. Sorry. I’m not trying to be critical. It’s just that I…’

‘Yes?’ I said.

‘…wonder if you’re happy. That’s all. And now that you’re to be taking on a challenging new role…’

‘Of course I’m happy,’ I said instantly. ‘I love my job. I love the Society.’

‘Most people have more than just work.’

‘Most people don’t have my job,’ I countered. ‘It has everything I need.’

‘Right.’ He nodded.

‘I may not have family gatherings, or siblings, or parents who set me up with the hot offspring of their friends, but I don’t need that stuff. I’ve got House, and everyone in it.’

He nodded again, but instead of responding to my litany of self-justification, he said: ‘Sometime, I’d… I’d really like you to meet my family.’

I blinked. ‘What?’

‘You’ve already met Rina and Indira,’ he rushed on. ‘You’d really like Anaya and Dev, I promise, and they’d love you. So would my parents.’

‘Jay…’

‘There’s Diwali in the autumn and we’d love you to join us.’

‘Are you… are you trying to share your family with me?’

He grinned sheepishly. ‘Not exactly?’

‘I hope this isn’t a pity party.’

‘Pity? Never.’

I nodded cautiously, aware that I was eyeing him with deep suspicion.

‘It’s just a thought,’ he said. ‘Think it over.’ He clapped me awkwardly on my upper arm and took off, his gait super casual.

‘Thank you,’ I called after him. ‘Have a great date.’

Jay waved without turning around. In another instant, he’d turned the corner and vanished beyond sight.

It was my turn to dither. I thought about visiting Val, but I’d bothered her enough lately. She had work to do. Plus, since I had as yet failed to secure the grimoire for her, I wasn’t sure I was up for another grilling on that subject.

I suppressed an unworthy urge to text Alban, and angle for an invitation. Jay’s observations had bothered me a bit, for all that I’d denied every one of them. And if he was going to have a date, well… couldn’t I have one, too?

Not with the married prince of Mandridore. No. I stood with my phone in hand for two minutes, finger hovering over Alban’s number, before resolutely putting it away and striding off.

I didn’t have any particular destination in mind, but two things happened on the way to nowhere.

The first was a bounding bundle of dandelion fluff, butter-yellow and yipping with delight.

Pup!’ I squealed, scooping her up, and burying my face in her soft fur. She’s been scarce since Miranda came back, and I’ve resented that a bit. But I haven’t interfered. Whatever my personal feelings about Miranda, I know she takes the best possible care of Pup. Probably better even than I do.

I heard Miranda’s voice, then, from somewhere at the other end of the corridor. ‘Ah, good, she found you,’ she said. ‘Jay thought you might like to see her.’

A tiny tear prickled behind my eye. Jay had arranged this?

‘Have you missed me, you bad Pup?’ I whispered into her fur. She certainly behaved as though she had; she was squirming with joy, and doing her best to lick my ear, my nose and my eyeballs all at the same time.

‘Thanks,’ I called, just as Miranda darted away again. She’d looked almost as uncomfortable as Jay, and that was definitely a hasty retreat she’d beaten. A faint sensation of guilt added itself to the roiling mess of my emotions. I’d made my resentment towards Miranda so obvious, she wouldn’t spend more than two minutes in the same room with me.

And I still didn’t really feel like I wanted her to.

Sighing, I set Pup down and proceeded on my way. Things certainly looked more positive when I had Goodie Goodfellow frisking along at my heels, and I sent Jay a silent thank you. This girl he was seeing had better be amazing.

I wandered along aimlessly, my thoughts far from Home, until at length I was halted by the sound of someone saying my name.

It was Rob. I’d ended up at the sanitorium. The door stood open, and there he was, on doctor duty today and smiling a welcome at me. ‘Morning,’ he said. ‘Were you coming to see me?’

I hesitated. ‘You know what,’ I said. ‘I think I was, yes.’

In went Pup and I. I took the plain pine chair he offered me, and Pup promptly jumped into my lap. She stood there, wiggling furiously as her tail wagged, and as I bent to pet her she barely avoided stabbing out my eye with her pointy horn.

‘You spoke of my maybe seeing Grace,’ I said, not looking at Rob. ‘A bit ago. Is… is that offer still open?’

‘Anytime,’ he said. ‘I can call her today and tell her you’re coming.’

I nodded my assent.

‘Right.’ He scrawled a quick note for himself, then sat back and surveyed me with his measuring gaze. ‘Anything I can do for you?’

I felt the warning prick of tears again, and could almost have immolated myself with frustration. Damn it, when had I turned into this weeping mess of a person?

‘It’s just tiredness,’ I said thickly. ‘And — and I’m a bit overwrought. It will go away, won’t it?’

He nodded with all the confidence I could wish for. ‘It’s natural enough. And considering the time you’ve had lately, I’d be surprised if you weren’t feeling unsettled.’

Unsettled. That was a word I could accept. It sounded normal and transitory, and not as though I was losing every shred of my gumption.

I took a breath. ‘Maybe we could talk?’

‘Of course.’ He got up and closed the door, shutting all my challenges and obstacles, potential failures and gnawing fears on the other side of it. In here, just for a little while, I didn’t have to face any of them.

‘Tell me how you’re feeling,’ Rob said, and I was struck again by how easily this man could go from grim, Scary Rob to patient and kind-hearted doctor.

How I loved my Society.

‘I think it started back in Vale,’ I began. I took a deep breath, and the words flowed and flowed. It was a long time before I stopped talking.

But Rob listened and counselled, and Pup wriggled and cuddled, and by the time I left the sanitorium the tears had receded and I felt much more balanced.

Onward, Ves, I told myself sternly. We can do this.

With Goodie at my heels, I trailed back to the first-floor common room and took my usual seat. Jay’s opposite chair sat empty and dreary, but one thing was there to welcome me: Milady’s silver chocolate-pot, pouring steam from the spout.

‘Thanks, Milady,’ I murmured, pouring a cup. ‘We’re going to be okay.’