The Fate of Farringale: 18

‘It’s done,’ I said a little later. ‘I think. So I suppose you can go home again.’

Mum rolled her eyes in wordless contempt.

‘Not that it wasn’t amazing of you to come,’ I hastened to add. ‘Super appreciated.’

‘Farringale has been dead for centuries,’ she informed me. ‘And I don’t mean metaphorically dead. I mean actually dead. If you think it’s going to be easy to drag it into the modern world then you have bats for brains. They are going to need us.’

We were still in the library, though we’d ascended out of the cellar. We found a crowd gathered there, apparently not waiting for us: our appearance came as a surprise.

A welcome one, to Indira and Rob and Zareen. I was hugged again, quite a lot—even by Indira. ‘I found Mab,’ she said to Jay, who had not left my side. ‘She was—busy.’

‘Busy.’ Jay’s brows went up, though he spoke distractedly. I believe he was preoccupied with making sure I didn’t fall over, which was no easy task. My legs felt about as sturdy as lightly blanched asparagus.

‘There’s, um. A new tree.’ She waved a hand vaguely. ‘Where the griffins were.’

‘A new tree? Freshly minted?’ said Jay. ‘Out of what?’

‘Mab’s turned into a tree,’ I surmised, less surprised by this than I might have been a week ago. I’d rather liked being a tree, myself.

But Indira shook her head. ‘Turned someone else into a tree. Take a guess.’ She was grinning, standing there with a smile of pure mischief on her youthful face and stone dust all over her hair: a vision less like cool, reserved Indira I had never seen.

‘It’s Fenella,’ said Zareen, before I could make any sense out of my sluggish thoughts. ‘Rob took the regulator off her, which didn’t make her happy. Then she lost the griffins, too. She came back with murder on her mind, but Mab got to her. Just said “no”, like that, and “I’m afraid I have run out of patience,” and turned her into a tree. She’s a willow. Quite pretty, actually.’

‘A weeping willow,’ Jay mused. ‘Appropriate.’

‘Miranda came through, then?’ I asked. ‘With the griffins, I mean.’

‘Probably,’ said Zareen. ‘Somebody did, anyway. Rob and Melissa and that lot intercepted them. They’re coming back in now.’

‘I also, um,’ said Jay, awkwardly. ‘Stuck a tracker on Miranda’s back when she went past me. Seems she didn’t notice.’

I beamed blissfully at the wonderful man that he was. ‘You’re a wonderful man,’ I informed him, and yawned.

‘Someone get her Home,’ Zareen suggested. ‘You need a week of sleep at least, Ves. You look bloody awful.’

‘Thanks,’ I said, still beaming.

‘We’re okay to go, soon,’ Indira offered. ‘Just waiting to make sure the griffins are safe.’

‘Well,’ Jay interposed. ‘That’s what we’re doing. Your Mum’s reorganising half the world, by the sounds of it.’

I could hear her, distantly, barking orders in the crisp tone of a woman who expects to be obeyed, instantly and without question. And she was. Her Yllanfalen contingent were marching out of the library again in twos and threes, dispatched on various missions of rehabilitation.

Their Majesties would probably be pleased, on the whole. There was no one like Mum for getting things done. This time next week, she’d have it spick and span and well on the way to habitable.

‘Mum,’ I said, and repeated it a bit louder when she clearly didn’t hear me.

She appeared at my side. ‘Ves.’

I blinked at her, momentarily stupefied. ‘You called me Ves.’

By way of answer I received a blank stare. ‘And?’

‘You’ve never done that before.’

‘Did you want to say something? Because I have a lot to do—’

‘Right. Um. Surely it’s a bit late to be—you know?’ I made a hand-wavey gesture, meant to encompass the entirety of everything she and her entourage were doing.

‘Yes,’ she snapped. ‘It’s a bit late. It’s four hundred years late, to be precise, and if we want to get this kingdom rolling again there’s no time to lose.’

‘Right,’ I said meekly. ‘Carry on.’

I mentally resigned the whole problem of my mother to Mandridore. They’d asked for aid, and they had got it.

Mum stalked off, evidently forgetting my entire existence again between one purposeful stride and the next.

Jay’s hand stole into mine, a warm, strong clasp that conveyed far more than words. Faith and love. Comfort. Stability. I carried his hand to my lips and kissed it. ‘You know,’ I said mistily, ‘I really would like to go Home.’

The Fate of Farringale: 17

The purging of Farringale took a long time; time that seemed boundless, endless, in that state, and it seemed to me that I had always been down there among the rocks and roots, a part of the city as ancient, as immoveable, as time itself—and as relentless. I ran through the undercity like a wildfire, like a plague; and when, at long last, I was spent, the city rested in a profound, half-shattered silence.

The infestation was gone. The city had suffered for it, somewhat, but it would stand: time lay spread before it in welcome, bursting with potential, with possibility. The ortherex were a part of its past, now, purged from its present and its future. The people of Farringale could come back.

Great, I thought, weakly; a ghost of something like satisfaction, like joy, passed over my exhausted heart, and faded.

I was spent. I had nothing left, which was good; nothing to draw the magick of Farringale back to me, to keep it about me. I was an echo, a whisper, everything I had once been poured into the earth and stone; and the magick followed, rippling through the city like spreading water. Mine; Merlin’s; Farringale’s; magick, old and new, sank into the bones of the city and held.

A thought stirred, distantly. Baroness? I called, weakly.

Is it time? Came the answer.

Yes.

She withdrew, out of the echoes and into the light. Somewhere above, she would be bringing her own arcane arts to bear, taking on the mantle I had so recently occupied. A griffin would sail the skies over Farringale once more, and all the latent magick of the city would rise up to welcome her.

The rest would return, too, soon enough, and Farringale would be restored in full: its people and its magick, thriving as they always should have done.

Me, though. I was—tired. I was rainwater and dirt, I was weathered stone and the roots of tall trees. I was magick, old and slow, permeating air and brick and rock.

My consciousness faltered, and winked out, snuffed as thoroughly as the parasites I had destroyed. Darkness, thick and serene, enveloped me, and I was gone.

***

The earthquake lasted long enough to shake Farringale down to its foundations. It ought to have brought the roof down on us; how the walls held I’ll never know. The whole world shook in a deafening roar of distressed stone, and all I could do was cling to Indira and pray.

It passed at last, settling into a shocked, hushed silence. Dust and dirt and plaster rained down from the ceiling, centuries of detritus suddenly dislodged. For a time I couldn’t see through it—or breathe; we pulled our shirts up to mask our mouths, and choked.

The haze dissolved, bit by bit, until I could see—somewhat. The cellar had gone dark, which, I vaguely realised, was a very good thing. That weird, sickly light was gone, which meant the ortherex were, too. Several long moments passed before my eyes adjusted, and the full impact of what I wasn’t seeing hit me.

‘Ves?’ I called. The word echoed off the blank, bare walls, and no answer came.

Indira summoned a wisp of light with a snap of her fingers. I was already scrambling to my feet, running forward, hoping against all the evidence of my eyes that I’d find her back there. Somewhere. ‘Ves!’

‘She’s not here,’ said Indira tightly.

‘What do you mean, not here. She has to be here.’ I looked around wildly, my heart pounding with fresh terror. ‘Where else could she possibly be?’

Indira looked hard at the neat, square flagstones that covered the floor, and probed at one with the tip of her shoe.

‘Gods, no,’ I gasped. But it was all too probable, wasn’t it, she’d ended up as a stone before—more than once. I might be standing on her.

I backed away from where I’d last seen Ves, horrified—and fell over something. My elbow cracked hard against the floor, my head hit the wall, and for a dazed instant I couldn’t think.

‘That’s—’ Indira darted towards me, and fell to her knees before a dim object sticking out of the stonework. ‘It’s—’

‘The lyre.’ Ves’s moonsilver lyre, the beautiful, dangerous instrument we’d unburied from Ygranyllon. I’d never seen it other than luminous, bright silver like the moon, and now it was dead and dark and embedded into the floor of the cellar like it had been there for centuries.

I grabbed it, and tugged uselessly. It didn’t budge.

‘It’s completely inert,’ Indira said, wrapping both her clever hands around its frame. ‘It’s like—normal silver. Like it never had any magick at all.’

Normal silver, swept bare of magick, and grievously tarnished. Its strings were gone; it would never play music again.

‘You don’t think…’ I stared at Indira in horror. ‘You don’t think the same thing happened to Ves?’

She stared back, appalled. ‘That she was—no. Surely not.’

Ves had more in common with Mab than the rest of us, these days: a creature of overwhelming magick. What would happen if something had taken that away? Would she end up like the lyre? Inert. Used up. Dead.

I couldn’t think about that for too long. I pushed the thought away, and clung instead to that knowledge of Ves’s recent escapades that gave me hope. ‘She’s just ended up—stuck,’ I said, with as much confidence as I could manage. ‘Like the Fairy Stone. And the chair.’

‘And the tree.’

‘Right. We just need to figure out which one she is, and—we can probably snap her out of it.’

Indira and I stared in helpless silence at the wide expanse of the cellar, paved with hundreds of identical stones.

‘We’re going to need help,’ said Indira. ‘I don’t have anything that… I don’t know how to find her.’

I didn’t either, but I hated to admit it. Hated to walk away and leave Ves there, even temporarily. Was she aware? Did she know she was stuck? She might be frightened. She’d certainly be exhausted.

‘We’re coming back,’ I said, loudly and firmly. ‘Ves? All right? We’re coming back for you.’

Nothing answered me, and another shred of hope died. I shook my head, made myself turn my back to the devastated lyre and walk away. We needed to find Milady. She would know what to do. She was Mab, magick incarnate.

I hadn’t noticed my physical state until I started up the stairs. Then it came crashing in upon me that I’d suffered through an earthquake, not to mention falling and hitting my head afterwards. I had aches and bruises in too many places, and I shambled and staggered up the stairs like an old man of ninety. Indira, spared the embarrassing fall, fared a little better, but she too groaned in protest as we started up the second flight.

When we emerged at last into the open air, breathing in great, gulping gasps, we found a darkening sky. Twilight glimmered overhead, a dim scattering of stars beginning to shimmer. A great, raucous cry split the silence, and a dark shape wheeled overhead, lightning crackling in bursts over its feathered hide.

A griffin. Despite my fear for Ves, something in me smiled, for a moment: magick was coming back to Farringale at last, the way it should always have been.

‘She did it,’ said Indira, watching the griffin’s progress as it banked and wheeled far above. ‘She saved Farringale.’

‘And now we need to save her. Come on.’ I turned away from the griffin’s majestic flight, and headed back towards the mews.

It was deserted, empty and still. No sign of Milady, or Rob, so they had moved her after all. But where to? I felt a rising frustration, and choked it down: I had to stay in control. ‘The guardian,’ I said, suddenly remembering. He had said he would watch over us, but he’d been gone by the time the earthquake had ceased. For a little while I’d forgotten him.

‘Let’s go,’ Indira agreed, and set off at a run for the library once more. I followed with a stifled groan, my abused muscles protesting at the punishing pace.

We clattered back through the streets, clambered over the remains of the wall Ves had bashed her way through when she’d been a tree. In minutes we were back on the stairs. ‘Um,’ said Indira. ‘Did you catch his name?’

I hadn’t. ‘Baroness Tremayne?’ I tried, in case it hadn’t been her we had seen in the skies. ‘Or—anyone?’

Silence, for three agonising breaths; nothing moved.

Then—

‘Yes,’ came a voice, a whisper, so faint I could barely hear it. A shape emerged, a wavering outline lightly etched upon the air. Our guardian friend, but—diminished, fighting for breath, bent almost double under the weight of a kind of suffering I couldn’t imagine.

‘Are you well?’ Indira rushed forward to help him, but her outstretched hands passed through empty air.

‘I—may be,’ he answered weakly. ‘In time.’

Time. He had already endured so much of it. ‘Is there something we can do to help?’ I asked him.

He waved this away, and said, between gasping breaths, ‘You seek your—companion.’

‘Yes,’ I said instantly, hope flaring back to life. ‘Is she—can you reach her?’

‘She’s not—’ Indira started, and hesitated over the terrible words. ‘She isn’t—gone, is she?’

‘She remains.’ Two little words, but they brought such a world of relief. ‘She remains,’ he said again, ‘but she is… distant. I do not know how to recall her.’

‘Can you tell us where Mab is?’ I tried. I wasn’t sure how I expected him to know, but he was tied into the fabric of Farringale in ways I didn’t understand. The baroness knew things, sensed things, that I never could have: would this, her fellow guardian, prove the same?

‘Mab,’ echoed the guardian. ‘Yes. Mab, old as the stones themselves. Her light is—brighter.’ He took a breath, steadied himself, and added, ‘She lingers at the gate.’

Hoofbeats interrupted anything else he might have said, and a shimmering unicorn came cantering up the street towards us, shining like the very stars and evidently pissed off. She came to an abrupt halt before me, stamped a hoof in pure temper, and snorted.

‘I know,’ I told her, not daring to touch her when she was in such a rage. ‘We don’t know where she is either, exactly, but we’re working on it.’

‘Can you take us to the gate?’ Indira said, and was bold enough to approach.

Addie stood quietly as Indira swung herself up, and snorted at me when I didn’t.

‘Okay, okay,’ I sighed, resigning myself to one more bruising, alarming horseback ride, and without the comfort of Ves to hang onto.

She was fast, though, so it was worth it. We left the beleaguered guardian with promises of an imminent return, and thundered through the shadowed streets to the gate.

A small crater made a blank, black hole in the earth, surrounded by debris: the spot where George Mercer had blown the regulator into the sky. Addie skirted easily around it, and came to a halt around the corner, near the elegant archway that marked the gate itself.

A great many people were gathered there, an entire crowd, many talking at once. After the eery quiet of the rest of the city, I found it a relief.

‘Mab,’ I was already shouting as Addie halted. ‘Please, we need Mab. Anybody seen her?’

I was answered, vaguely, in the negative, several utterances in the negative reaching my ears. Milady’s voice I did not hear, nor any other that I recognised—

No, that wasn’t true. One rose above the others, a raw, somewhat uncouth holler. Out of the milling crowd with a stride like a soldier’s came Delia Vesper.

‘Jay? Where the bloody hell is my daughter?’

‘She’s—’

‘And what the bloody hell has she been doing?’

Delia Vesper had arrived with an entourage. Half the people around her were Yllanfalen, brought, in all probability, from Ygranyllon; they were here to help.

No Mab, though.

‘She’s in trouble,’ I said. ‘We know where she is, sort of, but—well, it’s tricky to explain—’

‘Just spit it out,’ she ordered, and I did, pouring the whole story out in a muddled torrent while Ves’s mother glared daggers at me.

‘Right,’ she said when I’d finished. ‘Take me there.’

‘Can you—’

‘Just take me there, and don’t talk until we get there. I need to think.’

‘I’ll keep looking for Mab,’ Indira said, making go-forth gestures with her hands.

I went. Addie bore Delia and I back to the library with a kind of boundless energy born, probably, from rage—or fear.

The guardian was nowhere in sight when we clattered once again down the steps, and I didn’t call for him again. It had obviously cost him to materialise for us before, and besides, he’d told us all he could. It was down to me, now, and Delia Vesper.

That lady stormed into the cellar like it had personally offended her, and stood in the middle of it, staring wordlessly at the remains of the lyre. ‘Right,’ she said again, and sat down, her good hand pressed to the cold floor and her other arm draped over the lyre.

That’s right: Delia Vesper, the archaeologist (before she became a fairy queen), adept at detecting the lingering traces of past magick. The memory of it, so to speak. I waited in silent hope, hardly daring to breathe, as she did—whatever it was she was doing.

‘She is here,’ said Delia at last, and opened her eyes in order to glower at me again. ‘But it’s like she was here ten years ago, not earlier today. What exactly was it you did to her again?’

‘Er, nothing,’ I blurted. ‘Maybe that’s the problem, there was something I should have done in order to keep her—ground her, or something—but I didn’t know.’

‘Right.’ Delia tapped a fingernail against the tarnished silver of the lyre, making a tinny, rhythmic, pinging sound. ‘The problem is, the person most likely to be able to get her out of there is Ves herself. I don’t know anyone else who has the power.’

‘We thought Mab—’

‘Mab isn’t here. I am. And Cordelia is fading fast.’

‘Shit,’ I said, eloquent as only terror could make me.

‘Yes,’ Delia agreed. ‘I’m going to—’

The air flashed oddly, and fractured—I was starting to hate the way it did that, way too hard on the nerves—and a figure rippled into view: the guardian returned.

No, not the guardian—or, not the one we had spoken to before. Baroness Tremayne. And where her compatriot had been pale and faded, she was all vivid energy and colour. I knew with a sudden certainty that it had been she I’d seen in the twilit skies, revelling in magick and moonlight.

‘I can reach her,’ said the baroness, and my knees weakened in sheer relief. ‘But you must assist me.’

***

Stones dream. Did you know that? So does loam. Leaves and tumbling river-water, flowers and vines and trees—above all, trees. Everything dreams, after its own fashion.

I dreamed with it, for a time; a pebble in rich earth, a droplet of water in a downpour of rain.

Then came a sharp, fierce pain, and a bludgeoning force struck me: once, twice. Thrice.

Something grabbed me—hooked long, relentless fingers into every part of me, and, merciless, pulled.

I came forth out of the land in screaming protest, ablaze with searing agony—and then I was free, and whole, and separate, and the pain stopped as suddenly as it had begun.

I lay in a boneless, gasping heap on a very cold floor, blinking in blurry confusion at three figures looming out of the shadows.

Baroness Tremayne, straight-backed, resplendent in her wide-skirted gown: the source of the agony. And the reprieve. ‘Hi,’ I said weakly, and belatedly croaked, ‘Thanks.’

Ves.’ The second figure grabbed me, then thought better of it, touched me with gentle hands that shook a little. Jay. ‘Are you okay? Gods, I thought we’d lost you.’ Something was wrong with his voice: there were tears in it.

‘I’m all right,’ I told him, and said it a couple more times; he didn’t seem to be hearing me properly. I patted his shoulder, his hair, trying, with the little energy I possessed, to comfort him.

The third figure thrust itself rather rudely in upon this tender reunion: a familiar shape, with wild auburn hair and the kind of deeply-etched scowl left by three or four decades of near-permanent irritation. ‘Cordelia,’ my mother demanded. ‘What the bloody hell did you think you were doing?’

Then, to my utter astonishment, she threw her arms around me, and squeezed me so tightly I couldn’t breathe.

The Fate of Farringale: 16

It was a close-run thing. As we drew nearer, I could see the way Indira wobbled as she sat, the currents of wind knocking her about like a stray leaf.

No time to think. We swooped, Addie’s broad wings battling a gust of wind as she banked and turned. Jay leaned—grabbed—he had her; and away we went, spiralling downwards. Strong as she was, Addie couldn’t carry three of us for more than a few minutes; we had to get her hooves on the ground, and quickly.

‘Thanks,’ gasped Indira, breathless.

‘What the hell—’ said Jay, breaking off abruptly as Addie thudded into a heavy landing. We’d come down in a street I didn’t recognise, almost too narrow for Addie’s wingspan. Tall, stone-built houses rose on either side, as empty and dead as the rest of Farringale, their small, square gardens riotously overgrown.

‘Surge,’ Indira said to her brother as she slipped lightly down. ‘Boosted me higher than I meant to go, and then the wind caught me.’ She made a whoosh gesture with one hand, most illustrative.

Jay made no reply, it being a bit late for such niceties as “you should be more careful.”

‘We were looking for you,’ I said, choosing not to get down from Addie’s back just yet. The surge roiled on, stirring all the magick in me into a dizzying whirlpool, and I was beginning to feel nauseated.

But that was a good thing; it meant we weren’t too late.

‘I was looking for you, too,’ Indira answered, and produced, from one of her air-pockets, two regulators.

No. I took a second look: three lay nestled in her palm, winking starry silver in the sunlight.

‘Rob got the one from the griffins!’ I guessed.

Indira nodded. ‘Couldn’t find you, but he found me.’

I handed mine to her, completing the quartet. Four of them. Would it be enough?

It would have to be. And to echo Jay: what we couldn’t accomplish with four, we probably couldn’t accomplish with five either.

‘Right,’ I said. ‘It’s time.’ I tasted bile as I spoke, the product of raw fear. I wasn’t ready. I’d never be ready. But if I couldn’t make this happen, who else could? Fenella? Improbable, and undesirable besides. Mandridore couldn’t be left beholden to such a person as that.

Jay slid down off Addie’s back, joining his sister on the ground. But he stayed close, and looked up at me with perfect confidence as he said: ‘Where to?’

‘The library.’ Back to where it all began; where I’d first encountered Baroness Tremayne. Where we’d found Bill, and consequently gained Mauf. The trail had begun there: those first clues leading us from Farringale to Mandridore and all the way to another Britain entirely. It was fitting that our journey would end there, too.

Jay set off unerringly, leading us in a slow procession up the near-silent street. We were silent, too, sober with the weight of responsibility, dry-mouthed with fear, light-headed with magick. When I tried to speak—some nonsense or other to break the deathly quiet—my words emerged half-strangled, a mere wordless croak.

Jay looked back at me. ‘Are you okay?’

We were a bit beyond polite lies, so I went for the truth. ‘Nope.’

He nodded. ‘We can do this,’ he said, and his voice rang with all the conviction I’d forgotten how to feel.

I smiled back, a little. ‘Let’s hope so.’

***

If the streets above had seemed quiet, the cellars beneath the library were like a tomb.

I didn’t have to walk through walls, this time—or be dragged, like a sack of potatoes. Jay found a winding way through the bare-walled chambers—stripped, now, of their precious books—along a narrow passage, and down a cramped, spiralling staircase, and we stepped out into a cool, stone-walled subterranean chamber, empty apart from the three of us, and shrouded in an unearthly silence.

I’d had to leave Addie outside, and was already suffering from the separation. But those walls were sturdy and solid, the stone very cold under my hands as I steadied myself against them.

We needed no light. A pallid, sickly glow emanated from the floor, thrown off by a writhing mass of tiny, hungry parasites. I shuddered at the sight of them, a chill of pure horror rippling down my spine. I knew they wouldn’t hurt me—they were devourers of magick and, by preference, trolls. They had no interest in a Cordelia.

Still, to set my feet into that mess of wriggling bodies took more nerve than I thought I possessed. I descended from the stairs very carefully, and paused.

Indira, behind me, made a sound of disgust, and her footsteps stopped on the steps.

‘Stay there,’ I suggested. ‘If you can deploy the regulators from up there, then there’s no need to come any farther down.’

Indira accepted this suggestion with obvious gratitude. Jay, though, visibly steeled himself, and waded into the echoing chamber to stand beside me. He waited, steady and calm, solid as the stone walls of the cellar itself.

The surge was dissipating at last, its tide of magick spent. The right moment neared; not yet, but soon. I set my lyre down on the bottom step of the stairs, near my feet. It glimmered with a pale light of its own, but a cleaner, comforting glow, and I breathed more easily for it.

‘Indira,’ I said. ‘When it’s not surging, Farringale’s latent magick runs rather low. Probably because it’s been empty for centuries. When it hits its lowest ebb… we need to use that momentum. Keep it going.’

‘Going—where?’ asked Indira.

‘I don’t know. Ebbing. Dissipating. I want it as dead as Silvessen in here.’

‘You want to strip all the magick out of all of Farringale.’ Indira spoke in tones of disbelief.

‘As close to it as we can get, yes. It’s the wild magick that’s been sustaining these things. I can’t remove them as long as they’re still feeding off it.’

‘Can you remove them anyway?’ Jay asked. ‘All of them?’

He meant how; by what possible method did I propose to obliterate a city-wide infestation of parasites? I didn’t have a clear answer, for him or for me.

‘Yes,’ I told him anyway. One problem at a time. First, the magick; then, the ortherex.

Indira said nothing more, but set about deploying the first of the regulators. I hoped her silence indicated confidence.

A tremor ran through the walls and the floor underfoot; a soft buzz of magick taking effect. Metal scraped over stone, cracking and grinding, and ceased with a jolt. ‘One down,’ said Indira.

The air split, shattered, and spat out a tall, bulky figure: too much of both to be the baroness. A male troll, simply dressed in a swallow-tailed coat and pantaloons, his hair bone-white with age. He said nothing, but his presence was imposing enough; Jay was instantly alert.

‘Wait,’ I asked him, holding up a hand. The gentleman had offered us neither violence nor threat, and a stray memory teased at me…had not Baroness Tremayne spoken of others like herself, a year ago? The long-forgotten guardians of Farringale, lingering like ghosts in the walls, had numbered three.

I bowed to the newcomer, for he bore an air of nobility about him. ‘Have you come to help us?’ I asked hopefully.

He regarded me levelly. ‘Can you in truth rid us of these creatures?’

I wished people would stop asking me that. The word “no” kept trying to pop out in response. ‘We are going to try our best to do so,’ I managed to say instead.

Another grinding, crunching, teeth-aching sound, and the walls shuddered: the second regulator.

‘I will watch over you,’ said the guardian. ‘Foes abound.’

They did indeed. I was going to thank him, but before I could speak I was wrenched out of the world, soul and body together. The room splintered around me, dissolved into the strange, juddering, shadowy alternate reality that I was beginning to despise. We were between the echoes again, one half-step to the left of the flow of time.

‘That’s one way of watching over us,’ said Jay with a grimace.

I watched Indira, poised to assist, for I didn’t think she had experienced this particular strangeness before. But she was absorbed in her task, oblivious—or at least, unflappable. A third regulator took effect: one to go.

And the environment was stabilising by the minute, the surge rushing away like the outgoing tide. The regulators were humming, a melodic fizzing in my ears, my bones. ‘Jay,’ said Indira, his name a summons, a plea, and he went to her.

I left them to it, for they didn’t need me for this. I picked up my lyre, and cradled it with momentary tenderness. I think I knew, somewhere in me, what was to come…

‘Ves,’ said Indira, softly. ‘They’re in.’

‘Good.’

‘But—I don’t know if you understand. Magick can’t just dissipate. It has to go somewhere. There’s only so much the regulators can do—’

‘I know,’ I said. ‘It’s okay.’ I was already turning my mind away from the regulators, from the clever and capable Patels; from the library cellar, writhing with infestation, and from the silent guardian who attended our efforts to save it. I spread my awareness like a net, out through the silent ruin of the library, and down, down, deep into the rock beneath. My fingers plucked a plaintive air from the strings of the argentine lyre, each rich note reverberating through the air, through the floor, through me.

It was worse than stepping into the midst of the ortherex—worse than wading barefoot through the mess and the mass of them. As I opened my mind to the land around me, feeling the cold earthiness of rock and dirt, the clear dampness of groundwater, the bright, surprising freshness of roots winding down from above, I felt the ortherex, too: felt them like a cloak of ants crawling over every inch of my skin. They bit at me, raged at me, a million motes of wrongness and disease.

I shuddered, shaking with the effort to curb my revulsion, to hold my mind down there in that terrible space. There was too much magick, still, swirling in airy currents, like gusts of wind: I could feel it with a startling clarity, the Merlin in me recognising it, welcoming it. The magick was ancient, here; almost as ancient as Merlin himself. It called…

No. This magick was not for me; I was not for it. I was here not to lend it my strength, call it back to all its former potency, but to do the opposite: to dampen it, shutter it, drain it away. Every natural impulse in me rebelled at the idea, and rebelled again: the magick belonged here, deep in the bones of the land, and it was my task—Merlin’s task—to protect it. To help it grow.

‘I will,’ I promised it, distantly. ‘Later.’

I bore down with a will, encouraged by the pulse of the regulators around me, my lyre joining with their delicate hum, carolling a dulcet lullaby. If it could not be removed, then perhaps it could be lulled; sink itself down into the bowels of the earth, far below the beleaguered city that was Farringale.

Go, I bade it, and added, pitifully, please.

It reacted instead with a surge, a flourishing. It drew me deeper into its flow, made of me a link in its web, a thread in its tapestry of power. More gathered around me, faster and faster; I became a brightening core, a burgeoning nexus of wild magick.

Giddy gods. This was like the lyre, but worse. The magick in me—Merlin’s magick—attracted that of Farringale; like spoke to like; I was making it stronger.

A tactical error, I thought with distant hysteria. I’d been wrong. I wasn’t the best person for this task, I was the worst; what I had thought to be an advantage proved to be the opposite.

And I was stuck down deep, melded with the sleeping earth below Farringale as magick sank into the very essence of me, and shone.

This was what it was like to be a griffin. Perhaps that had been an error, too; deprived of its foci, the magick of Farringale had not disappeared, but rather altered in shape, in sense, in current; had seized me, their substitute, and would not let me go.

I couldn’t fight it. I was strong, but my strength was no asset here: together, we were stronger still, in all the wrong ways.

Well. So.

An alternative idea drifted through my labouring thoughts, and at first I rejected it, utterly and completely. Every cell in me revolted at the notion, strained as I already was. The regulators were beginning to affect me, too, merged as I was with magick: they pulled at me, dragged at me, smothered the spark of my life in thick, grey dullness.

I didn’t have much time. I couldn’t say what would become of me, under all these competing forces, but I felt frayed like an old blanket, coming apart at the seams. There wouldn’t be much of me left, soon.

I searched my sluggish mind for another idea, any idea at all, and found nothing. There wasn’t another option.

Focus, Ves. I could bear it—probably. Hopefully.

In the space of a single breath, I stopped resisting the influx of magick, stopped pushing against it, stopped warding myself against the inexorable onslaught. If it wanted me, very well: let it have me. All of it.

I opened myself to it entirely, without barrier, and it came to my call: a vast, onrushing flood of it, drowning me in power—in possibility—in life. I had drowned like this once before, in Vale, when I’d first taken up the lyre; but this, this, was as the ocean to a lake: unimaginably immense, and far beyond my capacity to contain.

Were it not for the regulators, and the griffins’ absence—had I attempted it with the surge at its highest—it would undoubtedly have destroyed me.

As it was, I held it—barely, and briefly; I needed only to focus my attention, frame my intent, fix everything I had upon that other devouring sea, the ortherex.

Power arced about me in a haze of lightning, lethal starfire exploding from the very core of me, setting me alight; I screamed, and screamed again, but it wasn’t agony, not quite—

As all the magick of Farringale spiralled and built and blazed around me, I gathered one last surge of will: let it blaze, then, let it burn.

Magick tore through me, and I shattered; into a thousand motes, into a million. A current ripped through Farringale, stronger, far stronger, than even the most potent of its surges: stones thundered and crumbled around me.

And with every pulsing wave that shuddered through the ground, ten thousand ortherex flared with starfire, and winked out.

The Fate of Farringale: 14

You’re saving Farringale,’ I repeated, with perhaps an unwise emphasis on the first word. I was conscious of a stir around me: a reaction from the assembled Society, but I couldn’t turn to gauge what it was. I kept my attention on Fenella.

‘Of course,’ she said grandly. ‘Urgent work, I am sure you must agree. The Court won’t thank you for getting in the way of it.’

‘Oh? You’re here on the authority of Mandridore, are you?’

‘Of course,’ she said again, to my great surprise. I’d expected hedging, deflection, excuses, but not a bare-faced lie.

For an instant, I wondered if it might be true. The king at Mandridore had tasked us with rehabilitating Farringale, if we could; might they have contracted Ancestria Magicka to do the same? From their perspective, the end goal was important, not the tool they used to achieve it. It was plausible.

But I remembered the patent horror with which the Court had heard the news of Fenella’s incursion. The urgency with which they’d appealed for aid. It was possible they had employed Ancestria Magicka, and that grubby organisation had betrayed them—but I didn’t think so. More likely a lie.

But a believable one. Now I understood how Fenella had recruited trolls to her cause.

‘That is untrue,’ I said. ‘We’ve just come from Mandridore, and they certainly didn’t send you.’ Futile, really; my word against hers; their word against ours; people would go on believing whatever they wanted to believe.

Fenella waved this away with visible scorn. ‘I suppose you’d like me to believe they sent you.

As though it was so far-fetched a possibility, considering she’d called me Merlin herself. ‘What’s your plan?’ I said, tiring of the tit-for-tat.

Fenella, off-balance, blinked at me. ‘What?’

‘Your plan. For saving Farringale.’ I swept an arm out, indicating the sorry state of the noble griffins, the clusters of her people guarding the mews, and the expanse of our people ranged in opposition. ‘This is all part of it, I suppose?’

I was curious to see whether the whole story was a lie; the “saving Farringale” a story spun to justify the looting, the thieving. Or was there some truth to it after all?

‘I’m sure you don’t need me to explain it to you,’ she answered, which was a cop-out, but also true. I didn’t.

I was looking at everything they’d done in Farringale with fresh eyes. What they’d done to the griffins.

If we—I—wanted to restore Farringale, we had to neutralise its wild magick, which meant neutralising—temporarily—the griffins. Is that what they were doing?

And what of the library? Had they been looting it, or extracting it prior to potentially damaging magickal procedures?

They’d stolen our regulators from Silvessen, but not, apparently, to sell them, or even to copy them (though I’d be willing to bet they’d be doing the latter at some point). They’d brought them here, to Farringale, and—used them. Hmm.

‘And what happens once you’ve saved it?’ That was Jay, his tone ringingly sceptical. ‘Who gets control of it?’

‘Why, Mandridore, of course,’ said Fenella, sweetly.

I sighed, frustrated. It might have been true; it wasn’t hard to imagine the kind of fame and favour they could win by such a feat. The Troll Court would owe them for generations.

It might have been a lie, too; I wouldn’t put it past Fenella to covet a small kingdom of her own, given half a chance.

We had no way of knowing, and we were wasting time arguing about it. I opened my mouth to say—I don’t even know what, I was running out of ways to counter such slippery insincerity from Fenella—but at that moment Milady materialised, as if from nowhere (and, being Mab, she might have).

Her abrupt appearance caused a fresh stir, on both sides—and stopped Fenella cold. It helped that she was laying it on rather thick, hovering at near eye level with the proud leader of Ancestria Magicka, her wings a glittering blur. She shimmered with myth and magick, a palpable power beyond anything most of us had ever experienced. She inspired the purest awe—and, I hoped, a modicum of fear.

For the first time, I detected uncertainty in Fenella’s face. She knew a great many things she shouldn’t have, but she had not discovered this secret.

Milady spoke, and her voice rang with all the power and majesty of a legendary queen. ‘Fenella Beaumont.’ The syllables rolled and echoed, like suppressed thunder. ‘This is not your task to perform.’

Fenella straightened her spine, lifted her chin, and stared right back at Mab. ‘I say the task belongs to anyone who can perform it successfully.’

‘And can you?’

‘Yes,’ said Fenella, without hesitation. Bravado? Or did she truly have a workable method?

A pause. Then Milady spoke—Milady again, not Mab; those low, calm, soothing tones I’d heard so often at the top of the tower at Home. ‘In that case, you will agree to a co-operation pact.’

‘We require no assistance,’ said Fenella, instantly, and with scorn.

‘You may enjoy our assistance or endure our opposition,’ replied Milady coolly. ‘You will, of course, make the wisest decision.’

I wanted to object. They were not to be trusted; they had not honour enough to keep to their promises. They would pretend cooperation, and then betray us at the first opportunity.

I needn’t have worried, however. Fenella had not the wisdom Milady credited her with, nor the guile I’d expected. ‘There will be no cooperation,’ she declared. ‘Farringale is in safe hands. Ours.’

Another pause. This was not the response Milady had expected; she did not have an immediate answer to offer. Tension built; Rob and his team shifted, gathering themselves, preparing to oppose Fenella with force, if necessary.

A terrible prospect, and one Milady had always dedicated herself to avoiding. The Society did not cut swathes through our opponents, maiming at will; we certainly did not kill.

But we could not simply walk away, and leave Farringale in their hands. Theirs were not safe hands; never that. If they would not work with us, then we would have to remove them—by any means possible.

Rob lifted his Lazuli Wand, letting Fenella see it. He was legendarily fearsome with it. ‘Release the griffins,’ he said, deadly quiet.

Fenella levelled her own Wand at him, stared defiance. Giddy gods, had she such unshakeable faith in the might of her own people? Or was this foolish recklessness, an inability to admit herself bested?

Was she bested? I felt a creeping sense of unease, felt it radiating from Jay beside me. We didn’t know the extent of either her forces or the powers they mustered between them. We’d seen giants at the bridge, and trolls; we knew she had the likes of Katalin Pataki and George Mercer at her disposal. As to what, or who, else… we were woefully underinformed.

What if we were the ones outmatched, and unable to see it?

‘Stop,’ I blurted. ‘Please. Wait.’

Everyone looked at me. The combined weight of so many surprised, shocked, wondering, tense, frightened, enraged gazes made me shrink, for a moment, bowed under the combined pressure.

And it made it so much harder to continue. Milady wasn’t going to like what I had in mind; the glimmers of a plan so risky I felt nauseated from the strain of it.

But it was that, or—disaster.

‘You’re right,’ I said to Fenella. ‘The important thing is that Farringale is saved, and if you’ve got a surefire way to do that then you should go ahead and do it.’ I was babbling a bit, not at my most eloquent by a long shot: but I was committed now, and rushed on. ‘I expect you’ll be wanting to take the griffins out of here, and we won’t oppose you, but as a gesture of good faith we would like to offer you the assistance of one of our best agents. She’s a world expert on the care and handling of magickal beasts, including mythical ones, and will assist you very creditably in keeping them safe and well.’

There, let her refuse that without losing face. She could hardly reject my offer, not without undermining her own claim to be “safe hands” for Farringale—and the griffins. I couldn’t see Miranda in the crowd, but knew she must be somewhere nearby. She’d stay as close to the beleaguered griffins as she could.

Jay was silent at my side, rigid with tension and (probably) anger. He wasn’t questioning me, he wouldn’t undermine me in front of Fenella. But he had, must have, grave doubts. I could only hope he—and Milady—would trust me.

I could only hope I deserved to be trusted.

Fenella took several long, terrible moments to consider my proposal, and I couldn’t breathe for fear that she would decline, this too—or that my own people would break, that Milady would publicly overrule me.

‘Very well,’ said Fenella, though the questioning look she cast at Milady showed how well she understood the limits of my authority.

I waited in fresh agonies for Milady’s response. Would she trust me this time? Could she? What I asked required a huge leap of faith, and I couldn’t explain why

‘Stand down, Society,’ said Milady, softly, and I could almost have wept with relief—and panic.

We were committed. Now I had to make it work.

Miranda went past me, heading straight for the griffins, now she had official leave—directing at me a tense, questioning look en route. I met that gaze squarely, trying, probably futilely, to telegraph reams of thoughts with a mere glance: keep the griffins safe. Stay close to them. Tell us exactly where they’re being taken.

I knew she would perform the first two without question, but the latter? I was gambling on Miranda, too, on the chance that her confused loyalties had settled: that she was a Society agent again, through and through.

Nothing in her face told me whether or not I was right to put faith in her. Time would tell.

A great deal happened after that, and quickly. Milady mustered our people, and pulled them back; Fenella consolidated hers around the griffins, now surrendered into her dubious care.

Jay bristled with something: either rage or fear, I couldn’t tell. I followed him over to Milady, and Rob, and about thirty other Society agents all staring at me like I must be crazy. Or a traitor.

We fell all the way back, leaving the mews to Ancestria Magicka, and regrouped at a safe distance. Handsome townhouses rose on either side of me, looming in judgement, empty windows staring out of stuccoed facades.

‘Well?’ said Milady.

Jay, beside me, didn’t move, or barely so. But he’d stopped very close to me: his arm pressed against mine, a reassuring pressure. He might think I was crazy, but he was standing beside me anyway.

My courage rose.

‘The thing is,’ I began. ‘She’s right. Someone’s got to save Farringale. We can’t just leave it like this, and now we have the technology to—’

‘Our objective in coming,’ interjected Milady, severely, ‘Was to eject Ancestria Magicka, and reverse any damage they may have caused. That is all.’

‘I know, but we can’t do that without a fight, a very damaging one, which nobody wants, and we might be—we might be the ones driven out. But if the griffins aren’t here—’

Rob said, in a voice of controlled anger, ‘Ves, the griffins are not safe in Fenella Beaumont’s hands. She’ll never return them. You cannot conceive how priceless they are—’

‘I know, which is why I sent Miranda with them. She’ll see to their safety and make sure we know how to get them back, later. We didn’t come prepared to remove them, but they did, so it’s actually quite perfect. And in the meantime—’

‘Later? She could take them away and kill them and there would be no later—’

‘She won’t. Not when they’re so priceless. Please, Rob. I’m going to need your help.’

He eyed me with a look of frank disbelief, a boundless exasperation, and my heart sank.

Milady hadn’t relented either, and I couldn’t blame her. At last she said, ‘Ves. Are you certain you can do this?’

I was silent for a second, in consternation, the full enormity of what I proposed to do settling over me like a leaden cloak. Was I sure? Truly?

‘With the right help,’ I said, mustering my courage. ‘Yes, I think I can.’

Milady nodded once, and that was it. We were committed. I was committed.

Giddy gods. What had I done?

The Fate of Farringale: 12

‘I don’t think you’ll like what I’m going to do with it,’ I felt obliged to add, as Jay’s face broke into a smile of relief.

The smile vanished. ‘All right, break it to me gently.’

‘No time.’ The sight of so many of Fenella’s people guarding the bridge had rattled me. What were they doing in there, that required so heavy a defence? The Society would be arriving any time now—they’d got royal permission to use the old troll roads; they’d be practically flying along—and they needed to be able to get straight in. I didn’t have time to negotiate with Jay.

By the time those two terse words left my lips, I was already at work. The gate was entirely defunct—no surprise there. I couldn’t tell what had functioned as the portal, long ago; probably a boulder or some other, like object, those were popular choices. Doubtless it had been cleared away when Farringale was sealed up. Nothing remained, then, for me to reawaken, and I had neither the time nor the knowledge necessary to create a fresh new gate here.

But we had encountered a similar problem recently, and I’d solved it. Inadvertently, yes, by way of an involuntary burst of magick I did not immediately know how to replicate. But if I’d done it once I could do it again.

I did as I had then, and sat down, putting the greater part of myself in direct contact with the ancient earth and its faded memory of magick. Not so difficult, really, to imagine myself a part of it; to lose myself in the peaceful sway of verdure, the soft and sharp smells of loam and sap; to join the dulcet notes of my lyre and my magick to those lacing the landscape around me. I heard, and felt, Jay shift beside me: an attempt to stop me, hastily suppressed. He would guess what I proposed to do, wouldn’t like it; would nonetheless accept, as I had, that the need was great and options few. I felt a stab of compunction as he settled again, and I turned my attention from him: how often had I cast him into torments of worry on my behalf? How often had I outraged his sense of caution, worn out his patience, ignored his fears—I’m sorry, Jay, I thought distantly, but I couldn’t say so, couldn’t even think about it right then, for I was shifting—bleeding into the landscape bit by bit—soon I was scarcely Ves any longer, naught left of me but a stray wisp of awareness, like a dream fraying away upon the wind.

***

It happened fast. Too fast. One minute she was Ves, seated at my feet, smiling apologetically at me with that damned lyre in her lap and magick wreathing round her like moths to a flame—and then she was gone, and there sat a Ves-sized rock, a craggy old boulder that looked for all the world as though it had been there since the dawn of time.

No ordinary boulder, of course. This one had motes of a purplish crystal laced through it, with flecks of silver—and, incidentally to its appearance, a profound magick about it, as old as Farringale itself (apparently) and very much functional.

‘A Fairy Stone,’ I sighed, and felt a stab of pain lance through my temples: a migraine on the approach. Perfect.

‘Okay,’ I said, and laid a hand against the cool, rough stone where Ves’s head had so recently been. ‘It’s okay. I’ll get you out of this—later.’

The incident with the chair, not to mention the tree, had proved all too clearly that the risks of Ves’s latest methods remained considerable. She could get herself into these messes; she needed me—us—to get her out of them again.

Later. She’d done this for good reason, and the next part was my task.

I called the number Milady—Mab—had recently given me, for just this purpose. She answered in seconds. ‘Jay?’

‘We’ve got a way in,’ I said without preamble. ‘She’s done it. I’m sending you co-ordinates.’

‘Thank you.’ Brief words, but a world of relief lay behind them.

‘Hurry,’ I said. ‘And avoid the main gate. It’s heavily guarded. Don’t let them see you.’

Nothing to do, then, but wait: and worry. About the progress of Ancestria Magicka’s plans, inside Farringale where they were, for the moment, unopposed. About my colleagues at the Society, about to face a unique challenge we may or may not be truly prepared for.

Most of all, about Ves, inert at my feet, so bound up in her myriad magicks that she might not, this time, ever get out of them again.

Not the most tranquil hour of my life.

Time moved agonisingly slowly, but Milady, thankfully, didn’t. I heard sounds of approach, and tensed, alert, heart pounding—ready to defend Ves and Farringale both to the limits of my ability—but it was Rob, striding over the heath towards me looking grim as death, and around him some twelve or fifteen of our colleagues. He’d trained every one of them, I knew: they were the best of us at the direct arts. By any other name, fighting. The advance force. Of course they’d be going in first.

Rob nodded at me, and looked around, nonplussed. Expecting to see either Ves or something that obviously looked like a gate, if not both.

I indicated the Fairy Stone, and Rob stared at it, frowning. ‘Ves hasn’t gone in alone, has she? She’s extremely competent but it’s far too dangerous—’

‘That’s Ves,’ I said. ‘She’s the gate.’

Rob was silent a moment, and then said: ‘You seem to be taking it well.’

‘It does seem that way, doesn’t it?’ I answered tightly.

He gave me another terse nod, this one tinged with sympathy. ‘We’ll be quick.’

And then he was gone, one hand planted firmly atop the stone-that-was-Ves, once. Magick surged as the members of his unit went in after him, one after another in a steady stream. By the time they were through, another group were arriving, and streaming into Farringale; faces blurred together as they went by me, too many to note, and I wondered whether it hurt Ves, whether she was even aware. She was strong, but she’d only done this sort of thing for a few of us before; now for fifty, seventy, a hundred…

Milady was among the last to arrive. Rob was her general, leading the charge: she was the shepherd, keeping everyone together, watching the rear.

She had Miranda with her, which was interesting. Miranda looked pale, tense and resolute. I wondered whether Milady kept her close out of trust, or its opposite, and perhaps she was wondering the same thing.

‘Thank you,’ Milady said again, to me, just before she went through. ‘Dear Ves. I hope she has not overreached herself.’

So strange, still, to look Milady in the face—and such a face; not young, not old, not human—more distinct by its lack, of anything I could call familiar.

Queen Mab indeed; I could have cast myself at her feet, and gladly. ‘She has,’ I answered. ‘She always does. I hope you won’t need the gate again, because I’m getting her out of there.’

Milady nodded. ‘Follow when you can,’ she said. ‘I’ll have need of you both.’

A grace period for Ves, then, albeit a small one. Good. Had I been ordered to haul her straight into the fray, I wouldn’t have been obeying it.

Milady awaited no response. In an instant she was gone, Miranda with her, leaving me alone with the inert lump of stone that was my maddening, alarming, adored and magnificent Ves.

I crouched down by her, set a careful hand to her lichen-covered surface, and spoke low and soothingly. She would be suffering, right about now. ‘I’m going through. And then we’re done. Okay? Just a couple more minutes and we’ll get you out of there.’

No response, of course: I wasn’t expecting any, though a faint hope withered and died. One last surge of magick, and magick took me, whirled me away: I entered Farringale Dell.

I looked around, oblivious to the landscape, to the knots of Society agents still in the process of disbursing. My only thought was for Ves: specifically, the appalling and impossible absence of her.

The Fairy Stone was not here.

How was that possible? Surely it could only function as a gate because it spanned the gap between the outer world, and the Dell: like a door, or a bridge. It had to be here—she had to be here—but it wasn’t. She wasn’t.

And because the stone wasn’t there—the gate wasn’t there—I couldn’t go back through and find her, either.

She was stuck, lost, and I’d lost her.

***

It occurred to me, distantly and belatedly, that we really ought to have warned Baroness Tremayne before we returned in force.

Not that the thought caused me much alarm. It’s difficult to feel distress, as a rock. There’s a stolid placidity to stone that one cannot help but absorb, even when one is only mostly a rock.

I had forgotten her altogether—Jay, too—everything, really, beyond the perimeter of my own boulder. A peaceful interlude, altogether. But a voice intruded upon my dreaming serenity, an insistent voice that vibrated through the core of me, demanding attention.

Cordelia Vesper, it said, over and over again, and I remembered that was my name.

Yes? I answered, cautiously.

Is that you?

Was I Cordelia? Distantly, I thought so. Ves, I answered. I’m Ves. I think.

Palpable relief; the voice made some wordless sound, a swiftly expelled breath. A sigh. Thank goodness. I had thought—there are so many of you.

I focused, gradually, and remembered. Many of us. Yes. Milady, and the Society, in force. It’s all right. Those are Mab’s troops. They’re here to help.

I should have said “we”, I suppose, for I, too, was there to be useful. Hopefully. But stone feels no sense of either agency or urgency, and mine were all gone somewhere. I drowsed in a lake of my own magick, lulled and sun-warmed; in seconds, I’d forgotten the baroness again.

Cordelia Vesper, came the voice again, with the insistent note of one who has repeated the same phrase several times, and failed to win a response.

I gave myself a strong mental shake. Yes! Sorry. I’m Ves.

We have established that.

Right.

Think you to remain a Fairy Stone all your days?

I thought about that, a bit. Not so terrible a prospect, honestly: quite peaceful. No? I ventured.

Your duty is fulfilled, methinks. None now linger about you, save one, at a remove.

One lingered. One! Jay must be the one.

At a remove? What does that mean?

She did not answer me, precisely, only said: Is it your wish to follow in Mab’s train?

Yes, I said, thinking of Jay more than Mab. I hesitated, struck at last by my predicament: I was a Fairy Stone, and my body seemed to think it had always been a Fairy Stone.

The same problem I’d encountered at Silvessen, not to mention the chair incident. And the tree. How easily my body and mind resigned their customary state, and adopted another’s; how difficult it was, afterwards, to think my way back into me.

Ophelia might have some idea as to why, but I didn’t. I’m stuck, I admitted. I needed Jay, or Zareen, or somebody, to pull me out of it again. And Jay was there—at a remove.

Excruciating pain, suddenly: my thoughts dissolved into agony. I felt uprooted, as though grabbed by the hair, and pulled.

And I burst out of the stone, the land, the magick, like a weed wrenched out of a vegetable patch—and woke up, screaming, to find Jay’s terrified face looming above me.

The Fate of Farringale: 9

The first time I met the king and queen of the trolls, they were rather informally dressed. They were wearing leisure kit, to be precise—pyjamas, almost (excepting the coronet sported by her gracious majesty Ysurra).

When there’s an emergency council of war, though, they bring out the sartorial big guns.

Alban escorted Jay and me into a sort of grand presence chamber, dating, probably, from the 1600s. Its vaulted ceiling swooped away to impossible heights – or so it seemed, from my modest vantage point. Quite a few people occupied an array of silk-upholstered chairs, but the room dwarfed us, the chatter of voices echoing in the emptiness of the space.

Enthroned in the centre—more or less literally—were their joint majesties, King Naldran and Queen Ysurra, draped in sumptuous state regalia. Both were coroneted; both wore robes of crisp silk brocade, and sat with a kind of statuesque posture which couldn’t help but seem imposing. I wondered as to the identity of some of the other attendees, several of whom bore the grandeur of visiting dignitaries. Most of them were trolls, but not all: I saw a few other humans, like myself; one or two Yllanfalen; and several fae. I looked for Emellana Rogan, hoping to see her familiar face, but she wasn’t there.

Alban seated Jay and I at the front, where we sat feeling like prized exhibits in some grand museum (or I did, anyway; Jay appeared as composed as ever). Alban settled nearby, in between us and their majesties. I felt a little reassured by his familiar bulk so close, like a bulwark against the storm.

Our arrival appeared to signal the beginning of the meeting, for the great double doors were closed behind us (with an echoing boom), and King Naldran began to speak.

‘We thank you for your prompt attendance of this impromptu council. The matter at hand, as you may imagine, is of some urgency, and does not admit of any delay. I believe everyone here is acquainted with the situation of ancient Farringale; in particular its impassibility, at least by those of the troll people. It has therefore been impossible for us to reclaim the vast wealth of our cultural heritage which remains within its walls, reports of which we have lately received in some detail from the Society.’ His august gaze rested, briefly, upon me, and I couldn’t help wincing a bit. Here we came to the crux of the matter. He was, thus far, characterising our involvement in positive terms; however I was as aware as he must be that a more negative construction could be placed upon it. If Jay and Alban and I hadn’t breached the walls of Farringale a year ago, and carried out tales of its marvels (not to mention examples of it, like Mauf and his predecessor), well then Ancestria Magicka would never have been alerted to its treasures either. And the current incursion probably would never have happened.

The king said none of this, thankfully. ‘Unfortunately,’ he went on, ‘there are those who covet the unique treasures of Farringale, and who are, even now, carrying away some portion of its irreplaceable artefacts. If we do not act, and quickly, we are like to see the total devastation of the priceless heritage of our ancient court. The extent of the cultural loss to the troll people can scarcely be described.’

‘We call for aid,’ said Queen Ysurra. ‘The might of the Troll Court stands at naught in this instance, for our people can only enter Farringale at the greatest cost. Queen Mab assures us the full support of the Society and all its expertise, but against the might and the ruthlessness of Ancestria Magicka it must struggle to prevail alone.’

Queen Mab! I felt a jolt, a shock, to hear that name so openly pronounced. Milady’s identity, if it had ever been a secret to these people, was secret no longer.

‘Who will answer this call?’ continued Ysurra. ‘We and all our Court shall stand forever in your debt.’

My hand shot up before I’d had chance to think things through. ‘I can promise the assistance of the kingdom of Ygranyllon,’ I said, with a confidence it in no way merited, for did not my mother delight in being difficult?  

The queen inclined her head at me. ‘If they are so inclined, then we are grateful.’

Which was a polite way of saying: if my mother actually backed me up on my promise, great.

She would. I’d get her to help us, by hook or by crook.

I remained silent after that, as others offered aid. The emerging picture proved serious: if I’d been minded to name Ancestria Magicka’s move into Farringale as an invasion, well, this was an army mustering in response. If Fenella Beaumont had imagined she could rob the city with impunity, she was sorely mistaken.

She might have imagined just that, I supposed, for had not Farringale been left, all these long centuries, in its abandoned state? A whole year gone by since Jay and I had first set foot in the decaying city, and all its treasures remained therein: untouched. Unwanted?

No, she could never imagine them unwanted. She must know that the Court would exercise its right to the contents of Farringale, as soon as a solution was found to the infestation which rendered it impenetrable to the trolls. That’s why she had acted now: before there would be any chance of the entire Troll Court descending in all its fury to oppose her plundering of the city.

What a pity they could not. For all the ready assistance of the Court’s allies, there’d be nothing quite like a legion of infuriated trolls to send a wily thief packing. And it was their ancestral home: who had the right, if not they?

‘Jay…’ I whispered, as voices rose and fell around us, determining the fate of Farringale in a few hastily agreed deals.

‘Yes.’

‘What if we could…’

He waited, and then prompted: ‘Yes?’

‘I mean, wouldn’t it be marvellous if we could…’

He turned his head to look at me when I trailed off again. I knew that my idea was written large across my face: blazoned there in awe at the sheer audacity of my thinkings. I could hardly pronounce the words.

‘We’ve done many marvellous things,’ he said, encouragingly. ‘I daresay we could manage one more.’

Poor fool. He imagined I had something sensible in mind, something halfway achievable, and I wondered where he had got that idea. ‘Orlando’s got another couple of regulators ready,’ I said in a rush. ‘If we’re taking everyone down there anyway—Milady’s committed us already—well, what if we could—what if we could—’

‘Just say it, Ves,’ said Jay, his patience expiring.

‘What if we could—fix it?’

Jay’s brows rose. ‘Fix it? Fix Farringale?’

‘Yes. What if we could—sort it out. Mend the magickal surges. Get rid of the ortherex. Fix it. And then the Court could send all the might of the trolls out there, and wipe Ancestria Magicka off the face of Farringale forever.’

Jay stared. ‘I hardly dare ask, but… do you have an actual plan? Something workable?’

‘Well—no, not exactly, but I’m stronger than I used to be, and I think Merlin’s powers might be able to accomplish quite a bit. And we’ve got the regulators now, and Baroness Tremayne to help us—she’s Morgan after all, there must be something she could do that would help—and—’

‘Ves.’ Jay’s eyes were very wide. ‘We cannot just barrel in there and take on the entire mess that is Farringale without having a solid plan. No!’ he said, when I tried to interject. ‘We aren’t winging this. It’s crazy.’

‘It’s crazy,’ I agreed. ‘Wonderfully, superbly crazy. Don’t you trust me?’

‘To—to take on centuries of disease, neglect and decay at the age-old capital of the troll kingdoms more or less single-handedly, in the face of serious opposition from Ancestria Magicka, and without any clear idea what you’re going to do? Am I supposed to have a ready answer to that?’

‘You’re supposed to say “yes”.’

Jay passed a hand over his face, as though to clear the mist from before his eyes. ‘You know, the craziest thing is that I probably do. But I shouldn’t.’

‘Come on, Jay! Imagine how incredible it will be if we can pull this off.’

‘I’m imagining how much of a disaster it will be if we can’t.’

‘It could be a disaster if we don’t,’ I returned, grimly. ‘We’re sitting here talking, while Fenella Beaumont and her horrible friends are looting the libraries, enslaving the griffins, and conducting who knows what other nefarious activities within its unprotected borders. We’ve got to do something.’

‘We are doing something. This entire council is for the doing of something.’

‘And that’s wonderful, but it is also slow.

We had attracted Alban’s attention with our whispering. ‘Ves,’ he said, leaning over. ‘Is this true? You’ve got a way to make the site safe for us?’

‘No,’ said Jay.

‘Maybe.’ said I. ‘I could try—’

‘That would change—everything.’ Alban stood up, and went away to confer with his royal parents—leaving me to face Jay’s wrath alone.

And he was wroth with me. ‘Ves, this isn’t just a you-and-me adventure anymore. This is serious. The stakes couldn’t be higher. Don’t make promises to these people when you can’t keep them!’

I could have protested that I hadn’t promised; I’d only said I could try. But that would be quibbling. Jay was right: I’d raised an expectation and now I had to find a way to fulfil it. ‘What’s the worst that could happen?’ I said instead. ‘We try and we don’t succeed, leaving us no worse off than we are now.’

‘The worst that could happen,’ answered Jay, with that terrible, elaborate patience he gets when he’s entirely at his wit’s end with me, ‘is that we wreak some fresh disaster upon Farringale, unleashing unknowable but doubtless appalling havoc upon a city already sorely beleaguered, and emphatically make things worse.’

‘That isn’t likely.’

‘It’s a more likely outcome than success.’

Jay, I knew, was no risk taker. He was steady and methodical; he liked to feel fully in control, to know exactly what to do and what to expect. That he put up with me at all was a source of wonder to me; when I asked him to take a leap of faith on my account, and barrel down the road of recklessness in hope of a good outcome, I asked a great deal.

I’d never asked more of him than I was asking right then. I took a deep breath. ‘Jay,’ I said, very seriously. ‘Will you trust me? This one last time?’

‘It won’t be the last time.’

‘I’ll never ask anything this crazy of you again.’

He pointed a finger at my face. ‘That is a promise you definitely can’t keep.’

I tried a smile. ‘How many lost and devastated cities can I possibly find to test my powers upon?’ A moment’s thought forced me to add, hastily, ‘Don’t answer that.’

His mouth twitched: a smile, ruthlessly suppressed. ‘I’ll make a bargain with you.’

‘Yes!’ I said, elated. ‘I agree.’

‘You haven’t heard my terms.’

‘I trust you. I agree to any terms you name.’

He eyed me. ‘You can’t do this alone, and I absolutely decline to try it as your sole support. Thus. If Milady—Queen Mab herself—is in favour of this insane scheme, then I’ll go along with it.’

I clutched at Jay’s arm in delight. ‘Yes. Thank you. I know she’ll want us to try.’

‘Do you know that?’

‘Yes,’ I said, a bare-faced lie.

Jay, finally, grinned. ‘You’ve got your mother and Mab to convince; you’d better get cracking.’

I looked over at Alban, still in conference with the king and queen, along with a severe-looking Yllanfalen lady and a pair of trolls I didn’t know. He gestured at me, and several pairs of eyes fixed upon my tentatively smiling face with clear intent. Whether I liked it or not, I’d convinced them; I could only hope that I hadn’t finally, irrevocably, bitten off far more than I could chew.

The Fate of Farringale: 4

An odd feeling, retracing the steps of our first (and at the time, secret) mission to Farringale. We were almost the same company again, missing only Alban; the journey through the Ways was the same, bringing us out on the same sun-dappled hilltop near Winchester. Even the season was the same: had it really been a year ago? A whole year! And yet, only a year. We might be the same team on the same mission, but we were not the same people.

I wasn’t the same Ves.

Nor was this mission conducted in the same exploratory spirit as before. Where previously I had felt excitement, curiosity, a twinge of guilt (see: aforementioned secret status), now we were tense and focused, prepared to encounter a very different Farringale. I scarcely noticed the vivid yellow-flowered shrubs, or the shimmering blue bowl of the sky. I went straight for my syrinx pipes, played a distracted melody thereupon: down came Adeline, for me and Jay to ride, and her larger, darker friend for Rob.

Jay, once rendered almost prostrate by the effort of carrying three or four people through the Ways, stood superbly composed and in control: not even the prospect of a horseback ride through the skies had the power to unsettle him now. How far we’ve come, I thought, with an odd twist of pride; a feeling I had no time to indulge or to share, for we were in a hurry. I paused only to touch noses with Addie before I mounted up, and Jay scrambled up behind me. Rob took the lead, a godlike figure enthroned upon stallion-back: I spared momentary wisp of pity for whoever had been so unwise as to mount a foray in Farringale. They were going to regret it.

Ten miles or so winged away in no time at all; ten miles of crisp, clear air, Addie’s velvet hide shimmering in the sunlight, and Jay a warm, comforting weight against my back.

Then we were spiralling down and down, alighting near Alresford, at the bridge over the River Alre. How sturdy, how dependable a construct, this thing of dark bricks and weathered stones: staunchly guarding the entrance to Farringale for hundreds of years, immoveable by time or mischief; untouched, and untouchable—

These high-blown musings upon time and change came to an abrupt end as Addie planted her four silvery hooves upon solid ground, and I got a closer look at the agèd bridge.

Not so untouchable after all, and not untouched. It’s the type of bridge that looks like half a small castle: built from pale grey stone in great, heavy blocks, with a handsome pointed arch spanning the river beneath. It’s been there for eight hundred years, probably, and you’d think nothing could touch it, but something had.

That majestic arch lay shattered in several pieces, each one as large as my entire body. The back half of the bridge had crumbled, fallen in, lay blocking the river; water was forming a new path around the obstacle, split into a streaming fork. It was as though the hand of some kind of god had smashed it in a fit of pique: a single, stunning blow, and an irreplaceable piece of architectural history lay in ruins.

I stared at the devastation, too numb with shock to think, let alone speak. ‘Who—’ I began, but words failed me. I felt a tear spill down one cheek; more in anger than grief, though surely some of both.

Who could have committed an act of such wanton destruction? Who could have so little respect for history, for heritage, for art—

I’d forgotten Farringale, for a moment. I was recalled to duty by Rob’s grim pronouncement: ‘Well. We know how they got in.’

‘What?’ I looked up, away from the tumbled mess of stone and time. ‘But—just destroying the bridge shouldn’t open the gate, surely. It should make it inaccessible.’

‘I know it should,’ Rob agreed. ‘But it hasn’t.’

I saw what he meant. A nimbus of light hung somewhere under the remains of the bridge, a light I recognised: we’d passed through it before. On the other side lay Farringale.

Whatever they had done, it hadn’t been a physical act of destruction. The bridge had been wrecked by magick, and whoever had done it had hacked the gate open by the same means. A vicious, brutal, graceless stroke, committed by one whose only goal was to get inside, and hang the consequences.

Jay was already on his phone, talking in crisp, short sentences to someone from the Society. ‘—completely wrecked—gate’s clearly accessible—seriously urgent—’

I stepped nearer to the destroyed gate, my stomach flipping with alarm. Baroness Tremayne had talked of many intruders, too many to count, but hearing about it at some distance was one thing: seeing the evidence of this savage incursion was quite another. This was an invasion indeed, the destroyed bridge the kind of collateral damage inflicted by a hostile army.

‘Shit,’ I whispered, my head spinning. Farringale was in deep trouble.

Rob had been quiet for some minutes. At last he said: ‘This is much more serious than we anticipated. I’m half inclined to abort mission. Come back with greater numbers.’

I saw his point. We were woefully overmatched. But on the other hand—

‘We aren’t here to try to remove these people, yet,’ I reminded him. ‘We’re here to get a clear picture of the situation, so we can counter them more effectively later. What are we going to tell Milady, if we walk away now? We’ve learned almost nothing.’

‘Ves, there are three of us. Three, against—’ He waved a hand illustratively at the destroyed bridge, unable to specify precisely what the three of us faced.

And it was that very vagueness that worried me. ‘We’ve got to learn more,’ I argued. ‘Who are these people? What do they want with Farringale? Giddy gods, how did they get past the griffins? If we’re to have the slightest hope of besting them then we’ve got to answer these questions.’

Rob gave me one of his grim looks. I don’t mind admitting that it is a little intimidating. ‘And how do you propose we proceed? We’ll be spotted as soon as we step through that portal.’

‘Not necessarily.’

Rob stared at me, waiting. Unimpressed.

‘Did I never tell you how I first met Baroness Tremayne?’

‘Not in any great detail, no.’

‘She was—she doesn’t exist in the real world, precisely.’ I held up a hand as he made to object. ‘Yes, I know she does; we saw her, not long ago. But she’s ancient, Rob. She’s hundreds of years old. She’s survived by existing outside of our reality, for the most part. She calls it between the echoes. I was in there with her, for a bit. It’s like—you can’t be seen by anyone outside of it, not even if you’re standing right next to them. She can pull us in, she’s done it before, and we can sneak around as much as we need to.’

A light of interest dawned in Rob’s dark eyes, and I knew I had him. ‘Are you sure?’ he said, ever the health and safety manager. ‘There’s no danger?’

‘There’s probably some,’ I admitted. ‘But not much.’

Rob’s mouth twitched in a smile, mostly suppressed. ‘Right,’ he said.

‘It’s too much to hope for no danger. I mean, when was the last time that happened?’

He answered with a shrug, or perhaps he was merely rolling his powerful shoulders, preparing for action.

Jay appeared at my elbow. ‘They’re sending some people to have a look at the bridge situation,’ he informed us.

‘We can’t wait for them,’ I said. ‘There’s no time to be lost. Who knows what they’re doing to Farringale while we’re dithering out here.’

‘I told them we can’t wait,’ Jay agreed. ‘This mess is out of our hands. That mess—’ he pointed at the portal—‘is entirely our problem.’

Right. I squared my shoulders, too, a smaller, feistier version of Rob. ‘I’ll go in first,’ I said.

Both men looked at me, and I could see questions and objections crystallising in their faces.

I held up a hand. ‘Hear me out. I know I said the baroness will help us, but we’ve got to reach her first. And you’re right, if we waltz straight through we’ll probably be spotted immediately.’ I wondered how Baroness Tremayne had got in and out, presumably without being observed. But she was a griffin. She had other, skyborne pathways. ‘I expect Milady told her where we’d be going in. She’ll be waiting for us nearby. So I’ll just—Merlin in, and let her know we’re here.’

‘Merlin in,’ Jay said.

‘Yes.’

‘I wasn’t aware that “Merlin” was a verb.’

‘If that’s an oblique way of asking me how I propose to accomplish this feat, I can only tell you: accidentally, via means I can neither anticipate nor plan for.’

I saw the escapade of the Fairy Stone pass behind Jay’s eyes, not to mention the episode with the chair. ‘This is—haphazard,’ he objected.

‘I know.’

‘Disorganised, uncertain, chaotic, and therefore dangerous.’

‘That’s me,’ I agreed.

He smiled in spite of himself. ‘I meant dangerous to you.’

‘Do you have a better idea?’ I hated to challenge him with the deal-breaking what-else-would-you-suggest manoeuvre, it’s crude. But we were not furnished with a great many options, nor with a great deal of time in which to laboriously reject most of them.

Jay didn’t like it either. His smile vanished into grimness: his stare was flinty. ‘If you get killed,’ he said ominously, ‘I’ll—’

‘Get Zareen to wake me up just so you can kill me again,’ I finished for him.

‘No. I’ll mourn you for the rest of my life.’ It was said very seriously, with real feeling.

Ouch. That hit me where it hurts. ‘I promise,’ I said, really meaning it. ‘I’ll be careful as pie.’

‘As pie? Careful as pie? Pies are easy but I never heard they were careful—Ves!’

While he was busy muddling his way through my very mixed simile, I was off, striding for that beckoning nimbus of light with all the courage I couldn’t quite muster. I’d spoken with outrageous certainty, as though I had any real control over these accidental brilliancies of mine. I hadn’t been trying to turn into a Fairy Stone, or a chair either; what made me think I could accidentally-on-purpose stealth my way into Farringale via some mysteriously mystical means, and without getting caught?

Only the fact that I’d lucked or catastrophised my way into—and out of—a lot of interesting situations already. And that was before someone had been mad enough to make a Merlin of me.

This jumble of doubts and hopes drained away as I neared the portal, for I was assailed by a—by a deep, shimmering, compelling awareness of it, and of the land beyond, that briefly shocked me into immobility. This certainly hadn’t happened before. My senses were awash with magick, and with Farringale: the scents and sights of its golden-paved streets and overgrown gardens; water, fresh and chill, or sharply, greenly stagnant; the mulch of old earth, the perfume of spring roses—those damned roses were everywhere—I inhaled, closing my eyes, and I could almost see the winding streets, the grand boulevards, the timber-framed townhouses. That sky. That sky, twilight-coloured and roiling with angry, devastating, glorious golden clouds.

Warmth wreathed my limbs, a warmth that came—I thought—from the light itself. The gentle warmth of an afternoon in early summer, like bathing in liquid sunshine.

I felt no movement; there was no sensation of passage. Time passed, and I knew, in some distant way, that I had gone out of England, and into Farringale; that I was a part of it, like a tree rooted in the deep earth; like a stream rushing, bubbling through grassy banks; like a rose, petals unfurled to drink in the sun.

The Fate of Farringale: 1

At Home in Yorkshire (or Derbyshire, one is never so impolitic as to specify), spring is, at last, springing, and deliciously. I don’t know whether House is celebrating something, but there are early roses everywhere, and most of them are pink. The air smells like heaven; I’ve taken to leaving my bedroom window open all the time, though it’s only April. It’s warm enough.

Over the course of the winter, two possibilities have emerged:

Either the voices behind the wallpaper are holding an interminable greengrocer’s market, or—

I am, at last, going quite mad.

If I sit, as I often do, on the floor in some out-of-the-way corner of the House, with my face pressed inelegantly to the wall and my eyes closed, I can hear….something. Rhubarb rhubarb rhubarb, says somebody. Several somebodies.

I mentioned this to Jay, once or twice (which was brave, wasn’t it? If anyone is going to imagine me stark raving bonkers I’d rather, above all, that it wasn’t Jay). He didn’t seem appalled so much as… tired. ‘Oh?’ said he, mildly enough. ‘Is this to be the beginning of another whirlwind magickal adventure?’

I don’t know that he was ecstatic at the prospect, which is fair enough. It isn’t so long since I contrived to drag him into a dance-off with a horde of the unquiet undead, and a man doesn’t get over a thing like that in a hurry. ‘I don’t know,’ I answered, honestly enough. ‘They really do seem to be talking about comestibles.’

‘Comestibles,’ Jay echoed. ‘There are voices in the walls and they’re talking about provender.’

He said this with a certain flatness in his tone, and a hint of the wary side-eye. Bad signs. ‘Rhubarb, mostly,’ I hastened to assure him. ‘Nothing particularly bizarre.’

‘Very reassuring,’ agreed Jay. ‘No one has ever launched a bloody rebellion over fruits and vegetables, but confectionery, now. That would be a different matter entirely.’

I nodded enthusiastically. ‘Who among us hasn’t at least thought about it, occasionally? Let’s overthrow the government and install the Pastry Queen.’

‘Armies of ladyfingers and eclairs,’ Jay concurred. ‘Brutally efficient, and really rather sweet about it.’

‘No, but really,’ I persevered. ‘That is what it sounds like.’

Jay attempted no further remonstrance. I suppose, given everything that has occurred of late, the notion that there are voices chatting behind the wallpaper and they’re partial to summer fruits isn’t particularly strange. ‘Let me know if there’s any mention of cucumbers,’ he said, wandering off. ‘Then we should definitely be concerned.’

There hasn’t been, that I’ve been able to discern. Just the rhubarb.

The thing is that I’ve learned how to listen, and I mean really listen. It’s part of being the new Merlin. Even rocks have something to say for themselves, if you can catch the trick of their language. Houses, now: houses have a lot going on.

And our beloved House is a positive hive of industry and conversation, if only I could catch the trick of that language. I can’t, quite, and I’m convinced House is doing it on purpose.

I began this morning in fruitless (so to speak) communion with the ladies and gentleman behind the wallpaper, as I too often do; parked, this time, in the first-floor common room, cross-legged upon the floor by the window and with my face pressed to the wainscot.

Rhubarb rhubarb, whispered someone.

The fine folk of the Society have ceased to question me on this behaviour, which can only mean I am developing a reputation for such eccentricity there is no further use in even trying to understand me. I can’t say that I mind. Where’s the fun in being the living embodiment of Albion’s most ancient magick if you can’t be battier than a belfry at Halloween?

Today’s adventures progressed, shall we say. The process of deep-listening to the land (as Ophelia, previous caretaker of Merlin’s magick, would have it), is delightfully mindful: I sit and breathe and listen and absorb until I am one with the world around me. Not quite literally, although sometimes very literally, and in this case—

Rhubarb rhubarb, the voices uttered, tantalisingly just beyond the range of clear hearing, and I pressed my face closer to the wall with eyes closed and mind very much on another plane of reality; listened to our beloved House in its every feature: the gentle creak of its timbers, the wordless steadiness of its stones; the warm, spring breeze wafting through its open windows; the rattle and clatter of its occupants, busily engaged with the nothings and somethings of the day. I felt myself sinking, by slow degrees, melding my consciousness with that of the House until I could almost have been one of those voices behind the wallpaper; I could almost reach them, almost distinguish real, whole verbiage—there were words in the midst of the garble—I had only to stretch a fraction farther and I’d have it—

A sense of sudden pressure assailed me, fracturing my concentration. A weight, resting heavily upon me, stopping my breath: I twitched, and then heaved.

The pressure lifted; somebody uttered a surprised syllable.

Then I heard my name.

‘Ves!’ said the somebody, and as my consciousness separated from the House and drifted slowly back into its rightful spot I realised that it was Jay. ‘Ves, is that you? What the—’

I stretched, or tried to. My limbs did not cooperate; seemed, in fact, to be warped into some unfamiliar configuration; I shook myself mightily.

Jay thumped my head, or what had taken the place of my head: it came to me, dimly, that I had developed upholstery.

‘Ves,’ Jay said again, impatient now. ‘This is ridiculous, even for you.’ Rather irritable, for Jay: I detected in the irascible words a strong note of concern.

‘To be fair,’ I uttered, manifesting vocal chords from somewhere, ‘this isn’t as bad as it could have been.’ I referred, of course, to a prior escapade, in which I had turned myself (inadvertently, I hasten to add) into a large rock; a Fairy Stone, to be precise; an object so impervious to human interference that I might, were I unlucky, have remained in said shape eternally.

‘Come out of that,’ Jay said severely. ‘Or I’ll be forced to sit on you again.’

‘You wouldn’t!’

‘You’re an exquisitely comfortable armchair.’

I felt obscurely pleased by this tribute. ‘Exquisitely! No, am I really?’

‘The living replica of my own, very favourite chair, except for the general purpleness of you. A discrepancy I might have noticed sooner, were I not very absorbed in this treatise on Yllanfalen architecture.’

Ooh. ‘I want to read that,’ I said, instantly.

‘It’s just arrived. Your mother sent it over.’ Jay, curse him, was smug.

My mother—being the current queen of an ancient Yllanfalen kingdom (don’t ask)—has access to all sorts of delicious intellectual goodies, though I usually have to twist her arm rather hard before she’ll share them.

Of course, if I wanted to read anything ever again, I’d have to stop being a chair first.

‘Jay,’ I said in a small voice.

‘Yes.’

‘I think I’m stuck.’

‘Do you want me to fetch Zareen?’

I never did learn exactly what Zar had done to me, on the occasion of the Fairy Stone debacle. I only knew that it had hurt, even when I was a slab of rock. ‘No,’ I said hastily. ‘I can do this.’

Jay waited. He did a creditable job of appearing coolly unconcerned by my plight, like a man whose confidence in my capacity to get myself out of the absurd fixes I get myself into can only be described as “boundless”. But I can detect an aura of supreme, if suppressed, tension from a hundred paces, even as a chair.

‘I’ll be all right,’ I told him.

 ‘I’d be glad if you could demonstrate that in more tangible fashion. Fairly soon.’

‘Is that Jay-speak for “I’d like to hug you so tight you can’t breathe?”’

‘I might crack a rib. Possibly two.’

An enticing prospect. Hm.

If I’d thought myself into an involuntary oneness with the House, surely I could think myself into a voluntary restoration of Self. I could start with that purpleness Jay had mentioned, my favourite colour; the moment I was Ves again I’d switch my hair to something vivaciously violet. I thought about cuddling Goodie, the unipup; the soft, velvet feel of Adeline’s gorgeously equine nose; my best dress, and – of course – the relatively new, but perfectly delightful sensation of being wrapped in the arms of Jay.

And when that didn’t work, I went on to hot chocolate – the kind Milady served in silver pots, if she was pleased with me; to stacks of pancakes with ice cream; to laughing with Jay over some trifling joke, and the thunderous expression on Val’s face if she thought I might have dog-eared a page in one of her precious tomes (and I would never).

‘Jay,’ I said, in an even smaller voice. ‘I really am stuck.’

‘Okay,’ he said, with forced calm. ‘Wait one moment, I’ll get help—’

I didn’t have time to prevent him from dashing away (don’t leave me, the small, frightened part of my soul pleaded). I was kicked; not physically but psychically, somehow; as though some obliging, never to be enough revered personage had delivered a swift clout to the insides of my brain; and there, I had eyeballs again, and hands, and limbs with which to cling (a little shamefully) to Jay.

‘What happened,’ said he against my hair.

I attempted a breath, and achieved a slight one; he hadn’t been joking about the cracked ribs, quite. ‘I think—I think House helped me,’ I managed; and at the back of my mind, as though uttered from a great distance away, came the immortal words: Rhubarb, rhubarb.

Thank you, I responded, and added, for good measure: strawberry, strawberry.

‘This Merlin thing,’ said Jay, without in the slightest degree loosening his grip on me. ‘Are you sure you’re getting it right? I mean, legend says he was capable of shape-shifting, but he tended to choose useful things, like birds. Never heard anything about chairs.’

A fair question.

All the inherited wealth that is Merlin’s ancestral magick was now mine entirely (until I chose to retire, and pass it on). Ophelia had deemed me ready a month or so prior—or perhaps she had simply grown weary of carrying it all around herself; it is no inconsiderable burden.

I wasn’t ready, of course. We’d both known that. But no one’s ever ready, not really; not for the thorny, meaty, complex challenges of life. One merely throws oneself in, and manages, somehow—or hovers on the bank for eternity, never quite mustering up the nerve to step off.

I was managing, sort of. And I still had Tuesdays with Ophelia; I’d ask her about the Chair Debacle next time—

My train of thought ended there, for Jay had gone tense again—was positively rigid with it, it was like cuddling an ironing board—‘What’s the matter?’ I prompted.

‘There’s a—’ He stopped.

I poked him in the ribs: no response.

I tried, then, to withdraw myself from the circle of his arms, but that proving ineffectual, I turned us both about, so I was facing the window, and he had his back to it.

A familiar, placid scene met my searching gaze: the prismatic green lawn that is House’s pride and joy stretching away to a horizon clustered with old oaks, one or two of my esteemed Society colleagues strolling about upon it; those roses, roses everywhere, in a thousand shades of pink and peach; the vast, fathomless expanse of the sky soaring above, lightly streaked with wafts of drifting cloud—

And a shape there, a shadow, a distant winged form coming closer—

Jay released me and spun, visibly shaking himself. ‘Sorry,’ he said. ‘It’s odd, but for a minute there I thought I saw—’

‘Griffin,’ I croaked.

‘Yes, I thought I saw a griffin, but that can’t possibly be…’

We fell into a mutual silence, for the dark little silhouette bombed over our beloved old oaks and shot towards the lawns: and there could be no mistaking it, as the seconds passed, no mistaking it at all. We had seen these before, these glorious, majestic beings, the kings and queens of mythical creatures, in undisputed possession of lost Farringale; had declined absolutely to tangle with them, unless obliged; and now here—here came one of them, at speed.

Dancing and Disaster: 19

My errand was of a peculiar nature. It related to employing my Merlin magick at Home, in ways that hadn’t occurred to me to do before. Ophelia had only loaned me that power, but she had made no move to take it back, yet. We’d agreed on a week, so I had time.

And I had questions. Lots of them. I’d had questions ever since I had joined the Society, of course; everyone did. But I’d learned a lot since then, and I finally had an idea about the nature of our Home and how it worked.

And that being so, I was curious, so I had to test it. Right? Who could possibly resist temptation like that?

It couldn’t be done just anywhere, though. I made my way, slowly and uncertainly, through the winding corridors of our beloved and enormous House, and after wrong turns aplenty (even superpowered, I still have to be me), I found myself at the door to House’s favourite room.

I knocked.

‘Dear House. I know it is a trifle rude to arrive uninvited and unannounced, but this is important. Would you be so kind as to let me in?’

Silence.

Then, a click. The door had unlocked.

I turned the handle, and went in.

The room stood quiet and empty. I closed the door behind me, and took a seat on one of the upholstered ivory chairs. A fire flared to life in the grate, and a comforting warmth began to permeate the October chill in the air.

I sat in comfortable silence for a while, enjoying the ambience of the parlour. The grandfather clock tick-tocked to itself in the corner, a peaceful sound, and I began to relax.

The portrait of the troll lady in court dress was still there, above the chair Emellana had lately occupied. I studied it more closely than I’d had occasion to do before. She was of Emellana’s age, I judged: fairly elderly, but still spry. Her gown was an extravagant blue velvet creation, seventeenth-century in style, with a wealth of lace and ruffles and jewels. She was a court lady, no doubt about it. But: which court?

I looked around at the rest of the paintings. There were five more: two depicting figures in seventeenth-century dress, one male, black and Yllanfalen, one female, white and human. Another showed a young man with dark brown skin wearing the plain garb of an eighteenth-century tradesman. The final two depicted a little girl in a plain white Edwardian dress, and an elderly, blue-eyed lady in an eighteen-thirties day dress and sun bonnet.

The child’s portrait didn’t fit my theory, but the rest just might. My gaze lingered in particular on the older lady in the sun bonnet.

I closed my eyes. Time to listen; time to feel. I’d connected with the odd, old house at Silvessen in deeper ways than I’d ever connected with anything before; could I do the same at Home?

I sat there enveloped in near silence, breathing deeply, listening to every slight sound that reached my senses. The tick, tick of the clock. The soft crackle of flames in the hearth. I breathed in the dust of hundreds of years with every inhalation; I felt the softness of carpet under my feet and silk under my hands, a cold wind in my eaves, the chatter of birds sheltering from the weather somewhere under my roof. A comfortable babble of voices, the warmth of many bodies gathered under my embrace. The odd cocktail of smells from the kitchens, from the lab, from the surrounding woods and fields.

A knock came softly from somewhere; a door opened in response, and closed again. Not the parlour. Somewhere farther off.

I gathered my strength, and pushed gently against the door that had just closed.

It opened again.

Sorry,’ I gasped, surprised, and retreated, slamming the door behind myself again.

There was a pause.

Hello?’ I said into the silence.

I felt a palpable surprise exceeding even my own. Then a questing, curious touch on my senses, all my senses: they were exploring me.

I come in peace,’ I offered. ‘I’m just— interested. In who you are.’

An answer came, finally. Merlin, uttered a voice in the depths of my mind. It has been a long time.

‘I’m only a new Merlin,’ I explained. ‘Brand new. I’ve been here at the Society for a while, though.’

We know you, Cordelia Vesper.

We. That tallied with my suspicions.

I felt a rising excitement, and had to take a breath. Focus, Ves. Don’t get overexcited and ruin everything. ‘May I know who I am addressing? Are these your portraits?’

The faces we once wore are here commemorated, answered the voice. They are but echoes, now.

‘Memories,’ I supplied.

Yes.

Time for the million-pound question.

‘You recognise me as Merlin. Is that because you are archetypes, too?’

A fresh wave of surprise. Not now, came the answer.

‘Former archetypes. And when you passed on the role, and passed away, you chose to remain here.’

Not all of us chose to remain. Some journeyed on.

I felt thrilled, the delight you get from solving a fiendishly difficult puzzle. For more than a decade, I’d wondered how House came to be so — animated. Everyone had. And now I finally had something like an answer.

The spirits of former archetypes resided here. They were haunting the House, after a fashion; the way the Greyer sisters had haunted their cottage after death, and the way the Yllanfalen women of Silvessen haunted the craggy old house on the edge of the town. Except, not like that. They didn’t linger out of bitterness and rage, and they hadn’t been enslaved. They were here because they had loved the House in life, and they chose to remain with it after death.

I thought of the painting of Cicily Werewode, the way some part of her spirit was bound into it. Probably some part of those arts was employed here, too. The people depicted were dead, and yet they weren’t; they lived on, their consciousness laced through canvas and oils, through brick and stone and tile. Bound to the House, and to each other, but bound in love, not hatred.

‘Greetings,’ I said brightly. ‘It’s an honour to meet you. Which archetype did you embody, if I may ask? Were you all the same archetype, at different times? Or different ones? Is it the same one Milady currently embodies?’

Too many questions. I knew it as I uttered them, but they poured out of me anyway. I was just so interested, and Milady was so maddeningly vague.

I felt a flicker of something like amusement. More than just a flicker. A wave of it, coming from everywhere at once.

So much curiosity, said a voice, and it felt like a different person speaking. An enquiring mind.

I hoped I wasn’t imagining the approval that came with the statement.

I have more,’ I offered. ‘Lots more.’

There followed a pause. Were they thinking? Don’t think, I silently pleaded. Just answer!

The next voice, though, was very recognisable to me. It sliced through my thoughts with enough force to give me a blinding headache. Ves. Leave this alone.

Milady.

Curses.

I’m sorry,’ I said quickly, and not altogether sincerely. ‘Can’t I ask?’

It is rude to pry, came Milady’s somewhat flabbergasting answer. Kindly remember your manners.

My manners?

I ground my teeth in silent frustration. I could see her point, more than I liked. I was poking and prying, trying to find my way through to secrets about Milady’s identity which she hadn’t chosen to share. I did not have that right.

Even so, it was maddeningly frustrating to have to leave it alone and back away. I was so close to solving the mystery!

I know, Ves, said Milady. It is very disappointing. But I remain unmoved.

I sighed, and relinquished the argument. I withdrew my senses from the dear old House, returning to the Ves I’d left behind: a pint-sized human with fabulous hair, slumped in an ivory silken chair. My limbs had gone dead in my absence; I shook life back into them, and took some care as I stood up.

I made a curtsey, to Milady and also to the various souls inhabiting the House. ‘Thank you for your time,’ I said, scrupulously polite. ‘I’ll show myself out.’

The door didn’t quite slam shut behind me, but it did lock in a manner I’d term decisive.

I wouldn’t be getting back into House’s favourite room any time soon.

***

My last errand for the day was of a less pleasant nature. As if bearing Milady’s disapproval (twice over) wasn’t enough, I was going to have to put up with my mother’s, too.

Oh well. I’d dropped myself in it, and had nobody else to blame.

I trailed back to my room, and picked up my phone.

Taking a deep breath, I dialled my mother’s number.

She picked up after the first ring, taking me by surprise. Normally she ignores my calls. ‘Cordelia. What do you want?’

‘Can’t I be calling just to say hel—’

‘Don’t bother. Get on with it.’

‘Right. Fair cop. I’ve got a problem.’

‘And?’

‘Well, to be accurate I’ve created a problem.’

‘And now you’re making it my problem.’

‘Sort of. A little bit. Are you disposed to help me or not?’

‘Depends what it is.’

So I launched into the Tale of the Dance Battle yet again, though I offered Mother a somewhat curtailed version.

Despite this, the silence when I’d finished was liberally flavoured with incredulity.

‘Yes, I know, I’m a complete screw-up,’ I said, before she could have a chance to say it herself.

‘Did it work?’

‘Well, it did. More or less.’

‘Then it wasn’t a screw-up, was it?’

‘Are you being supportive? Because I’m not sure I can take any more surprises today.’

‘Did we get to the part where you tell me what you want yet?’

‘Right. So Silvessen was probably an Yllanfalen town, and if we’re going to rebuild it sensitively then we need Yllanfalen aid.’

‘That can probably be arranged.’

‘And materials. Lots of those.’

That gave her pause. ‘I can’t just spirit up sufficient building materials to reconstruct an entire town, Ves.’

‘I know, but I’m stuck, so whatever you’ve got I’ll take.’

‘Noted. Oh, call your father.’

‘What? Why?’

‘Because it’s his birthday tomorrow.’

‘Right. I know stuff like that, of course, because I’ve had a long and rewarding relationship with him up until now.’

‘Also, he’s a stonemason.’

‘He’s what?’

‘Did you not hear me, or are you just being difficult?’

A stonemason. Whose birthday was tomorrow. I realised afresh how little I knew about my father. ‘I don’t have his number,’ I said.

‘I’ll send it. Tell him I told him to help you.’

‘Will that work?’

‘It will if he knows what’s good for him.’

She hung up.

A moment later, my phone buzzed with a message. Dad’s number unfurled across my screen.

All of this was rather unexpected. I took my time over saving his number to my contacts, and adding his name. Thomas Goldwell. Tom.

I was procrastinating, probably because I was nervous. He hadn’t seemed super pleased to learn of my existence before, and though I had given him my number the one time I’d met him, he had yet to call me.

That suggested he didn’t want anything to do with me, didn’t it?

Still. I wasn’t calling him to propose a happy family gathering. I was calling him to engage his professional services for Silvessen. Mostly.

The phone rang several times before he answered. ‘Hello?’

I swallowed a flutter of nerves, and pasted on a smile. ‘Hi. Thomas Goldwell? Tom? This is Cordelia Vesper. You might not remember me—’

‘Of course I do,’ he interrupted. ‘Adult women claiming a near relationship with me don’t show up every week.’

‘Right. Well, Dad, I have to tell you happy birthday. For tomorrow. Mum said so.’

‘Thank you.’

That seemed to be it, so I went on. ‘Also, I hear you’re a stonemason.’

‘I don’t practise the trade much any more, but I do have that skillset, yes.’

‘Okay. Then I’ve got a job for you.’

‘Oh?’

‘It’s important. We’re restoring an Yllanfalen town, and we need people with the right skills and insight.’

‘Interesting, but I’m busy.’

‘Also, Mum said you have to help me.’

‘She said what?’

‘I’ll quote: “Tell him I told him to help you, if he knows what’s good for him.” Those exact words.’

He might have sighed, or there might have been a passing gust of wind, I couldn’t be sure.

‘Fine,’ he said. ‘Tell me when and where.’

I was speechless with shock, too much to muster more than a strangled ‘thank you’ in reply.

He hung up on me without saying goodbye, demonstrating that he and my mother had at least one thing in common.

‘Great,’ I said into the phone. ‘See you soon.’

I put my phone away, uncertain as to the state of my feelings.

Mum was helping me out, and she hadn’t even argued that much.

And I would finally get to meet my dad again, even if he didn’t seem too excited about it.

Things among Family Ves were looking up. Vaguely. A little bit.

Sod it. If I didn’t need a husband, I didn’t need a mother or a father either. I’d managed just fine without those things.

Still, a girl can hope. Right?

Right.

And in the meantime, there’s Jay, who’s everything my family isn’t, and presently waiting to whisk me away to a dream dinner that I hadn’t even been able to scare him out of.

I dismissed my mountain of problems from my mind, opened my wardrobe and devoted myself to choosing a dress.

Enough work, Ves. Time to enjoy life a bit.

Dancing and Disaster: 18

Explaining the dance party to Milady wasn’t as hard as you might think. She’s met me before.

‘So the only conceivable way to avert total disaster and certain death was to challenge the tormented and wronged inhabitants of Silvessen to a dance battle,’ Milady said, just to make sure she had it straight.

‘Exactly,’ said I.

It was the next day, which was nice, because we’d had a free evening before we’d been summoned to make our report. An evening in which to get clean, and warm, and fed (again), and hugged (thank you Jay), and then to sleep the deep, peaceful slumber of Society agents who aren’t being mercilessly tortured by a quartet of unhappy glaistigs.

I had, however, been summoned particularly bright and early: it was barely seven o’clock, I hadn’t had breakfast yet, and was it my imagination or was the light getting steadily brighter in Milady’s tower-top interrogation room? Searingly bright, like I was under police questioning and nobody wanted me to feel very comfortable anytime soon.

I shifted nervously, and made myself stop.

‘And this worked out… well,’ Milady continued.

‘I mean, we lost,’ I admitted. ‘But I sort of did that my own self, so it’s not the same as actually being beaten, and the results were—’

‘Ves,’ Milady interrupted. ‘You’ve committed us to single-handedly restoring an entire town to its former glory. A town uninhabited for centuries, I might add, with no functional buildings and a magickal status best described as bleak.’

‘Yes! Isn’t it an exciting opportunity?’

There was a long and awful silence.

I didn’t even have my staunch and trusty comrades to back me up, because I’d been brought up here alone.

‘It’s not exactly single-handed when there are a couple of hundred of us at the Society,’ I ventured. ‘And I’d be happy to lead this project myself.’

‘Cordelia Vesper,’ said Milady, in a terrible voice. ‘If you think I will be landing anybody else with this — project, you are very much mistaken.’

‘Understood,’ I said quickly.

‘It is fortunate that some parts of the… necessary undertakings will dovetail, to some extent, with Orlando’s proposed programme of magickal restoration via the regulator.’

‘That’s what I was hoping.’

‘And the Troll Court may take an interest, considering that this restoration is similar to their hopes for Farringale.’

‘Exactly!’

‘As for the rest.’

I waited.

‘Do you have the first idea what it will cost to rebuild a town, Ves?’

‘Not really, but—’

‘And this is a heritage site of historical interest, so we cannot merely level the town and build whatever we’d like. Each of those buildings will have to be carefully restored, and rebuilt in a fashion that’s respectful to their origins. Which means special materials, expertise—’ She stopped with a gasp, as though the mere thought of everything had exhausted her.

I waited in meek silence for her to continue.

And when that didn’t work, I piped up with: ‘We have people for that!’

Which, in my defence, was true. It wouldn’t be the first time we’d had to intervene to save ancient buildings of magickal import, and among the permanent employees at the Society were a range of people with exactly the sorts of skills in woodcarving, thatching, stonemasonry and ironworking that Milady was talking about.

‘And the materials?’

This was a question I didn’t have a smart answer for, a fact I betrayed with a lengthy and unpromising silence.

‘I’ll think of something,’ I finally said.

‘I would consider it advisable that you do,’ said Milady, still rather awfully, and I trailed away feeling chastened.

***

Explaining the dance party to Ophelia was considerably more challenging.

I hadn’t had the courage to face her straight after my grilling at Milady’s hands, so I took refuge in the first-floor common room.

Where she found me, an hour later, nursing a cup of tea and staring sadly out of the window.

Tea, note. Not chocolate. Milady was definitely not quite pleased with me.

‘You’re back,’ Ophelia observed, sitting down opposite me in the chair Jay usually occupies.

It wasn’t that I was unhappy to see Ophelia; she’s a nice lady. But I wasn’t pleased to see her right then, before I’d had chance to recover from my undignified drubbing at Milady’s hands. As I watched her sit down, cool and calm and full of questions, I may have actually quailed a bit.

I forced a smile. ‘As you see. How are you?’ At least the common room was empty apart from the two of us. Nobody else would have to witness my attempts to explain the inexplicable to Merlin.

‘Very well, thank you,’ she said serenely, but I didn’t miss the narrow look she shot me as she spoke. As usual, she saw through me. ‘Why don’t you tell me what happened?’ she went on.

I heaved a sigh, finished the dregs of my tea, and set down the emptied mug. ‘So. Silvessen was uninhabited, except not quite so uninhabited as we were expecting.’

The story took a while to get through, rather longer than I’d had to spend recounting everything to Milady. This was partly because Ophelia had questions. Lots of questions.

‘You did what?’ came up fairly often.

And twice she said: ‘Oh?’ in that dangerous way parents adopt while their children try to explain why they’re covered in chocolate spread from head to foot (example entirely hypothetical, definitely not something drawn from the storied experience of Tiny Ves).

Jay came in while I was about halfway finished. Finding his chair occupied, he took the seat next to me instead, and sat there in supportive silence while I stumbled through the rest of the story.

When I was finished, Ophelia looked at both of us in silence.

Finally, she spoke.

‘So you used the ancient magick of Merlin to hold a dance competition.’

I suppressed a sigh, and nodded. Take it like a queen, Ves. ‘It seemed the best thing to do,’ I offered.

Her eyes widened at that. ‘Did it?’

‘What would you have done?’

She just stared helplessly at me. ‘I don’t know,’ she said. ‘But definitely not that.’

I waited, but nothing else was forthcoming. She seemed shocked speechless.

‘Ves did great,’ Jay interjected. ‘The mission objectives were fulfilled, a rapport was established with the incumbents of Silvessen and a deal reached which will be of mutual benefit. Above all, no one was hurt.’ He smiled slightly, wryly, and amended that. ‘Save for a few pulled muscles all round.’

Ophelia was shaking her head. ‘To call it an unorthodox approach would not begin to cover it.’

‘That’s Ves for you.’

‘I see that.’

The look on her face. I tried not to feel like she was experiencing a crushing regret at having picked me for her successor.

Her next words dashed those hopes.

‘I chose you as the best candidate to inherit Merlin’s magick. Would you like to explain to me how that’s still true?’

I opened my mouth, and closed it again. I had a surplus of smart answers I could’ve given, but this was serious. For once, I had to be serious too. Why was I the right person to be the next Merlin?

Was I, even? I wasn’t certain of that myself. How could I convince Ophelia?

In the end, Jay saved me.

‘Permit me to point out a couple of things,’ he said. ‘For one, Ves has a boundless imagination and an inexhaustible supply of creative solutions to difficult problems.’

Ophelia snorted with laughter, which seemed favourable, and shook her head, which didn’t. ‘Demonstrably true.’

‘And for another. Let’s consider the hazards of this kind of a power handover. The greatest danger has to be that you’ll pick someone who won’t prove trustworthy. Someone who’ll abuse Merlin’s magick, turn it to ill effect. Someone who’ll be corrupted by it. Right?’

The ghost of a smile crossed Ophelia’s face. ‘I see where you’re going with this line of thinking.’

Jay smiled, too, much more widely. ‘So you gave Ves the opportunity to test drive Merlin’s magick, and what did she do? She figured out right away that she could use it to influence, if not outright control, other people’s behaviour, but what does that mean to Ves? The idea that she could enslave people to her will wouldn’t even occur to her, let alone interest her. There’s no puppeteering, no power tripping, and definitely no bloodbaths. No, you give Ves awesome cosmic powers and what does she do? She holds a dance party. That’s Ves. And that’s why she’s the right person to be Merlin.’

I felt tears pricking behind my eyes, and had to swallow a lump in my throat. I couldn’t even speak, so Jay had to be contented with a look of heartfelt gratitude. He smiled back, his eyes lingering on my face with an expression of such tenderness I had to look away.

Ophelia digested Jay’s words in silence for longer than I was comfortable with. I felt like my fate hung in the balance here; if she didn’t accept Jay’s argument, she’d take back all the beautiful, ancient magick and go find someone else to embody the archetype.

I wasn’t deeply committed to becoming the next Merlin; my life would go on even if I was passed over for it. But failure stings. And besides, I had stuff to do with those powers. I had heritage to save, people to help, magick to revive.

‘A dance battle.’ Ophelia was shaking her head again, but then, to my intense relief, she began to laugh.

She laughed and laughed until tears streamed from her eyes, and when she’d finally finished laughing she said: ‘I’ll say this: your turn as Merlin is going to be a lot more colourful than mine.’

Colourful. Good point. I touched a fingertip to a lock of my hair, and with a wisp of magick I turned it into a fluid purple-blue ombre. ‘I’ll consider it a point of honour,’ I told Ophelia, who smiled, so that was all right, then.

Later, when Ophelia had gone back to her cottage-out-of-time, Jay and I lingered a while in the common room. I had a great many things to do: arrange for a burial crew to tend to the remains of the deceased at Silvessen; negotiate with the Troll Court for assistance with the rebuilding, via Emellana; exercise my Yllanfalen contacts in hope of further aid; and figure out where in the world I was going to get a town’s worth of rare and expensive building materials.

But I didn’t feel motivated to work on any of it. I was tired, which was fair; yesterday was a long, long day, and I’d exercised my physical and magickal powers in all manner of unusual ways.

I was also feeling a little deflated. Nothing had turned out quite the way I was hoping, and I wasn’t sure what to make of where I’d ended up.

I must have heaved a little sigh, for Jay looked over at me and said: ‘All okay?’

I gestured at the emptied teapot. ‘I can’t remember the last time Milady gave me tea.’

Jay knew what that meant; he grimaced. ‘You deserved chocolate, though.’

‘I think it’s the rebuilding that she’s unhappy about. It is going to be expensive, for sure.’

‘That’s fair.’

‘And it is good tea. I think there was even some cream in it.’

‘Not entirely in the doghouse, then.’ He smiled at me, in a way that was probably supposed to be encouraging. I tried to smile back.

Jay leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees so he could give me one of his long, intense looks. ‘Ves. I meant what I said. You did a great job.’

‘Thanks.’ I managed a better smile. ‘I hope Orlando’s happy with us, at least?’

‘Reckon so. Indira vanished into the attic last night, and I haven’t heard from her yet. They’re probably up to their eyeballs in data.’

‘That’s good. Probably be another test mission going on soon.’

‘Maybe. Indira’s going to be busy monitoring Silvessen for a while yet. All we’ve established so far is that the regulator’s basic functions appear to work. What the effects will be on the Dell is a whole other question.’

‘So we’ll all be busy down at Silvessen for a while yet, thanks to me.’

Jay smiled and shrugged. ‘Yes, but I for one am looking forward to it. I don’t think anyone’s ever brought an entire town back from the dead before. And if we can do something like that at Silvessen, what does that mean for Farringale?’

I nodded. ‘I’m hoping the Troll Court will see it that way, too, and help us out.’

‘Em will get them on board.’

I tried to picture anybody standing up to a serenely determined Emellana and prevailing. I couldn’t. Even Their Majesties were outmatched there.

‘Em and Alban,’ I amended. ‘Pretty sure he’ll support us.’

Jay frowned slightly, and hesitated over his next words. ‘About Alban.’

‘Yes?’

He straightened again and leaned back in his chair, watching me. I wasn’t sure what for. ‘Are you… are you and he definitely not—?’

He didn’t seem disposed to finish the sentence, so I took a guess. ‘Going to be a thing? No. Definitely not.’

He scrutinised me with a rather dark gaze. I couldn’t read his expression. ‘I’m sorry,’ he said.

‘Are you?’

‘Maybe. Are you?’

I thought about it, but I didn’t need to think for very long. ‘A little,’ I admitted. ‘But not as much as I might have expected. I think I was… dazzled.’

‘He is pretty dazzling.’

‘I doubt it would ever have worked out.’ Saying that out loud hurt, a little. Part of me had really wanted it to work out, but that was probably the dazzled and stupid part. ‘Anyway,’ I went on. ‘I so rarely date. I don’t have time, or… inclination, much.’

‘Really? You don’t want to date?’

‘I know that sounds weird.’ I tried not to feel defensive; it wouldn’t be the first time someone’s reacted badly to the idea. ‘I don’t hate dating, but it’s a lot of trouble and I don’t feel in need of a relationship.’

Jay nodded slowly. ‘I see.’

‘That’s what I meant when I said I was dazzled. I was so swept away by Alban that I forgot who I am, for a little while.’

‘And who is that?’

I hesitated.

‘If I may ask,’ Jay said quickly. ‘I don’t want to pry.’

I eyed Jay for a moment in silence. How much could I tell him? How much did I want to tell him?

‘I’m fine on my own,’ I answered. ‘I know people say that and sometimes it isn’t true, it’s a pose adopted against the loneliness that comes from wanting a relationship and not finding one. But in my case it’s the truth. I’ve never felt a strong drive to get into romantic or sexual relationships, and if I go through the rest of my life without one, I’ll be happy with that.’

Jay just nodded, giving me space to say more, if I wanted to.

I found that I did.

‘I don’t think I feel… attracted to people, the way others do,’ I said. ‘Not even Alban. I mean, he’s aesthetically delightful, and I might’ve liked to be kissed a bit, maybe, but that’s… that’s all.’

Jay nodded again, silent with a watchful attention which felt welcoming, not condemning. There was warmth in his gaze.

So I went on. ‘It’s hard to talk about, because… because people think that you must be broken, you know? They say you just haven’t met the right person yet, or that you must be damaged somehow. And maybe I’ve wondered, sometimes, if they’re right. You know how people talk about love and sex and soulmates — like it’s the crowning experience of all of humankind — and I’ve felt, sometimes, like I must be missing out on all that magic and beauty and — that my life must be the poorer for it.

‘So when Alban showed up and I was a bit starry-eyed over him I thought… maybe this is it, maybe this is the “right person” who’ll change those things about me, and I’ll finally learn what all the fuss is about. My life will finally be right and healthy and complete, in all the ways people talk about.

‘But that didn’t happen, because it isn’t that I haven’t met the magical person who’ll change me. It’s that I don’t need to change. My life isn’t broken and I’m happy as I am. So, no, I’m not too disappointed about Alban. I have a fantastic life and I don’t need a romance to complete me.’

I realised as I was speaking that I was trailing into defensiveness after all, but hey ho. I’d said it.

And far from condemning me, or recoiling from me, or arguing with me, Jay was smiling. ‘You’re dazzling,’ he said. ‘Never mind Alban. You’re the complete package all by yourself, and I agree: you don’t need a soulmate. Your soul’s perfect as it is.’

That sunk in all the way down, and lighted a little glow around my heart. ‘Thanks,’ I managed, through a fresh wave of threatened tears. Twice in one day, I must be tired. ‘It’s not that I don’t love people,’ I added. ‘I do. Deeply. You can love people completely even without sex or romance. I don’t think they’re the same things, at all.’

‘I have no trouble believing that,’ said Jay.

‘So… why were you asking about Alban?’

‘Um, well…’ Jay looked away, looked back at me, shifted in his seat. Uncomfy. What can of worms had I opened? ‘I had thoughts of… asking you to dinner. Or something. If you were free.’

‘You mean if I wasn’t hanging my heart on Alban like a coatrack.’

‘Something like that. But if you don’t want to date—’

‘I’d like to,’ I said quickly.

Jay hesitated, perhaps waiting for a “but something” to follow.

‘That’s it,’ I clarified. ‘I’d like to.’

A smile, somewhat relieved. ‘Let’s rephrase what I was going to ask,’ he said. ‘Would you like to have dinner with me with a view to developing a deeper relationship in a largely non-romantic way, and which certainly isn’t intended as a prelude to sex?’

‘Would that be… okay?’

‘Completely. Wonderfully.’

I smiled, too — then stopped as a thought occurred to me. ‘But wait. Weren’t you dating someone?’

‘Briefly. Not now.’

‘I’m sorry.’

‘I’m not. The idea was of interest to our parents, so we gave it a chance. But we found it wasn’t of similar interest to us.’ He shrugged. ‘We’re friends. It’s okay.’

‘And your parents are okay with that?’

‘Of course. They aren’t tyrants.’

‘Dinner’s on, then.’

Jay beamed. ‘How about tonight? Are you too tired?’

‘Tonight’s great. I do have something I want to do before then.’

‘Oh? Do you need backup?’

I shook my head. ‘Thanks, but not this time.’